I thought maybe you could love me like you used to. Even though I'm... different.
Prompt: you were sent on a mission to kill an upper moon but unfortunately did not return leaving everyone to assume you were killed on that mission. three years later your s/o is sent in a mission to kill a demon wreaking havoc on a small village, how will they react when they find out that demon is you? And how will they react if you ask them if they could still love you?
Tl;dr: Kny characters reacting to you being a demon/ asking them if they could still love you even if youāre different
- The day you were presumed dead was the day Giyuu felt like a part of him had died as well, you were everything to him, the first good thing he had in a long long time
- Before meeting you Giyuu hated everything including himself and he hated seeing another day but once you were in his life, you made him want to continue living and he truly believed he would have a bright and happy future with you
- He couldnāt accept your death and move on, he grieved for you from sun rise to sunset and would constantly wish it was him that was sent on that dangerous mission instead, that it was him that had died not you
- Giyuu has always been extremely good at controlling his emotions, always carrying a blank expression to hide his true feelings
- But now, with you who he thought was dead, standing in front of him pupils now like slits, innocent human blood on your hands, face, as well as on your fangs and claws that were not there before
- He couldnāt hide his utter shock, his whole body shuts down and he looks at you eyes widen, and mouth slightly agape trying to piece together what he was seeing, he let his guard was down, if Giyuu wasnāt the love of your life you could have easily killed him
- He feels hurt and confused because the person who he was grieving everyday for was in fact alive but was the thing he hated most in this world
- You use this moment to explain everything that happened, from the day you were sent off on the mission to the moment you were turned into a demon adding emphasis on how you tried to control your killing urges for the longest time but failed
- He listened, or rather stayed completely silent through the entire thing, his face still in shock and his eyes constantly scanning your body mainly your claws and fangs to see if his eyes werenāt playing tricks on him
- You end it off with asking for forgiveness and if he could still love you like he used to even if you wereā¦ different
- When he heard those words he snaps out of his haze ,for a minute he sees you, the human version of you no claws, fangs, blood and no slit pupils, just you
- Giyuu had lost so many important people including you in his life and he would do anything if he could just spend five more minutes with them, hold them one last time and now in a way heās giving that chance
- His heart sinks and his facial features soften , he looks like heās on the brink of tears. He quietly calls your name and reaches out with his hand to touch yours
- However he quickly pulls away when your finger tips were only an inch away
- If he were to be honest he does think he would still be able to love youā¦. even as a demon but he wishes you didnāt spill blood during your time as one
- Giyuu would have took you in if your hands were still clean even if it meant breaking corps rules, even if it meant having to go into hiding away from other slayers, even if it meant putting himself in danger for trying to take care of you. He would do it all if it meant he still had you
- But it wasnāt that wayā¦.you were a threat and he has no other choice but to kill you it was his job after all
- He takes a step back from you not because heās afraid but because he needs to collect his thoughts
- Once he does he tightly grips his sword and his face goes to the cold blank one he always seems to carry but never used on the old you
- He is able to look you dead in the eyes and say no, his icy blue eyes shooting like daggers into you
- With an emotionless tone he says he could never love a murderer before going in for the kill
- He does it smoothly and quickly your head was cut off one time
- He would stand there and wait until your body completely vanished but even when you were gone , Giyuu still felt this intense sadness for you, that part of him that left when he thought you died was still gone
- He didnāt feel closure, despite you becoming a demon there was a small part of him that still loved you so he decided to take your haori adding a piece of the fabric to the one he was wearing so he could always keep you with him
- Like with Giyuu he is extremely shocked by this, seeing you his s/o now a demon, his enemy
- KyÅjurÅ canāt help but pause and just stare, a million thoughts enter his head at once
- He thinks back to the day he found out you ādiedā, how he was extremely heartbroken and how it took him a long time to get back on his feet
- He thinks about when he finally did come to terms with your death how heās been trying his best to keep your name alive by constantly talking about you and your brave work as a demon hunter
- But now he feels betrayed since this entire time heās been trying to keep the name of a murderer alive
- He knows he shouldnāt blame himself since he didnāt know of this, but he canāt help but feel upset with himself for praising you all while your were taking away innocent lives he felt as though he was disrespecting your victims and victimās families
- He finally snaps out of his daze and is pulled from his thoughts when you call his name you were concerned as to why he hasnāt said a word since he found you
- He shakes his head and curses at himself for losing focus in the middle of a battle
- He is a highly trained demon hunter he isnāt supposed to space out especially in front of a demon
- Yesā¦ he is already labeling you as a demon and not as the human he once loved
- The reason why he is already convinced of this is because it is clear to him that you seem to still have some of your memories from your human life as a demon hunter and of him
- He thinks this because when he found you you didnāt attack and called out his name with teary eyes
- So he knows that you knew you were killing people but still didnāt stop yourself
- How he wished you didnāt, he wished that your mind was soiled and you remembered nothing of your human life even if it also meant not remembering him, then that way he could have remorse for you since you didnāt know what you were doing
- When you ask him if he could still love you like he use to even if you were different with tears streaming down your face
- He looks away unable to look you in the eyes , his eyes are downcast and you swear thereās a dullness to his usual bright red-orange eyes, his lips are formed into a frown opposed to being in the usual bright smile you loved so much
- He wishes he could hold you and wipe away those tears from your eyes he wishes he could still love you even as a demon
- But he canāt, he canāt love you even if he tried
- He feels guilty about the fact that he doesnāt have that fuzzy and warm feeling inside of him he always had whenever he looked at you, all he feels now is emptiness
- But he will admit those feelings did exist before, you were the love of his life once upon a time so heāll give you this
- He opens his arms, signaling for you to come
- When youāre in his arms he squeezes you tightly as you cry apologizing for hurting all those people and he tells you heās sorry too, sorry he no longer loves you, suddenly you feel like your entire body was heating up and you felt the sharp nichirin blade cut through your neck easily slicing your head off, you could feel your body slowly burn and turn to ash
- The hug wasnāt meant for who you were now but for who you use to be the sweet, kind, innocent human he loved and would sacrifice anything for
- He holds you close as you turn into ash basking in the last moments he has with you
- Youāre happy heās the last thing you feel before you die but the the same time heartbroken knowing that the person you loved most in the world didnāt feel the same
