fuck me and my damn need to care
sometimes i wish i didn’t care to fucking much but here i am, feeling like shit cause my best friend in rl is with a manipulative asshole who makes her feel like shit when she says no to anything and she defenses him
like fuck me. i’ve seen enough abusive relationships to know where this could head in a few fucking years and i know if i become the best friend who’s like ‘no, dump him’, then i’ll be labelled as the bitch (which her darling already thinks i am) and she won’t listen cause she’s already admitted she’s scared of being alone to me and feels like she has to stay with him because of bills and shit
problems like this and other things make me wish i had the fucking balls to off myself but of course i fuckin can’t cause i’m a scaredy cat and would like to live for some stupid fucking reason.
