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stitchitywitch

hey lesbians in my phone pls enjoy some of my favorite sapphic keychains ive made lately🪻💕

stitchitywitch

hello again lesbians in my phone! you now can get one of these for yourself on my kofi🫶🏻

chimaeracrew

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starrynet

everybody loved the goalie fight

justinoluransi

If it weren’t for gay hockey novel we wouldn’t have gay hockey show, which in turn has granted us volume 5 of gay hockey webcomic. Thank you Gay Hockey

ilya-rozanova

shane rage baiting the rage baiter

bipolar4autistic

The whole “queer actors playing queer roles” discussion is the reason check please hasn’t been live actioned yet btw they’re trying to hire queer actors but they can’t find an authentic twink to play Eric Bittle who wouldn’t shatter like glass after the first choreographed check. Heard they might get a skinny butch from Portland to cross dress for the role.

ashstfu

i love pasta and bread and ignoring responsibilities

ashstfu

why must i endure the never ending horrors (getting out of bed)

computerexploder

im just someones weird sister

keplercryptids

common myths about migraines (AKA if you get headaches regularly, please seek treatment for migraines)

"i don't have migraines because while i get them several times a week, it's only when i am hungry or dehydrated."

those are probably migraines. thirst, hunger, sleep disturbances, or any disruption to routine are common migraine triggers.

"my headaches are specifically barometric related, i get them when the weather/altitude changes."

those are probably migraines. barometric pressure is a common migraine trigger.

"i get headaches all the time but ibuprofen gets rid of them so they can't be migraines."

that's not true. ibuprofen works great at relieving migraine pain for many people.

"my consistent headaches are tension headaches. i feel them originate in my neck/shoulders."

those are probably migraines. muscle tension is a common migraine trigger.

if you are regularly getting headaches (once a week or more), you are likely getting migraines. in fact, a good rule of thumb if you're consistently getting headaches is to treat them as migraines until you can rule out migraines. that's how common "chronic headache = migraine" actually is.

migraines are a neurological disorder wherein pain is one symptom. pain is often the MAIN symptom, and the most noticeable symptom, which can make diagnosis tricky. other symptoms of migraine include:

fatigue

nausea/vomiting

digestive issues

visual disturbances (auras)

sensitivity to light and/or sound

mood changes

brain fog/cognitive changes

ringing in the ears

dizziness/vertigo

numbness/weakness on one side of the body

this list is NOT complete, but is a starting point. i really like the comparison to a hangover. if you generally feel hungover when you get a headache (without having consumed alcohol), that's a classic migraine presentation.

so many people suffer from migraine and don't even know it, so they aren't able to advocate for themselves to get treatment. there are great new migraine treatments on the market! if you're able, please seek treatment for your migraines. a better quality of life is possible.

ivecarvedawoodenheart

like there comes a point where you think something is fundamentally wrong with you. and then it turns out it’s just Friday and you haven’t washed your hair in three days and maybe you’re also just a little lonely and the combination of all three of those things is whittling a hole into your chest every time you breathe. but also the sun’s up. and you’ve survived everything so far, so you’ll survive this too, even if it hurts, even if you have to survive it many times.

idk-what-username-to-choose

What if surviving isn't enough? What if I want to live but all I can manage to do is survive? What if I want to leave but I have to survive?

ivecarvedawoodenheart

a couple hours after I had my breakdown & posted this, I was playing board games with my friends and crawling my way closer to joy. I think there's a tendency to pretend that living & surviving are more different than they actually are; the truth is, even when my hair was making my skin crawl & my heart was aching so much I couldn't stand it, there was still room to decide the socks I'd wear over. and the music I played in the car. and the choice to fill my water bottle because crying dehydrates you. and then I cried to my mom! it may seem small but there's still a lot of life in that.

I guess what I'm trying to say is A. if you can manage to, reframing your mindset to focus on what you have been doing intentionally may help if you're feeling powerless to change anything. in your tags you said something about going to bed & it being better in the morning; going to sleep with the intention of it being a good decision for yourself is an extremely powerful thing to do. lately I've been challenging myself to look for moments of joy & delight in my day and listing them when I journal. anything you can do for yourself with intention is, imo, a really beautiful way to show yourself love & to find life even when you feel stuck in survival mode

and B. talking to someone you know in real life will be infinitely more valuable & helpful than advice from a random person online that you don't know 🌸 I wrote this post in March as my own pep talk to myself and in that moment what I needed to remember was those feelings I had were exacerbated by my physical circumstances, were transient, & would pass. if you wake up and find that these emotions aren't passing, I'm unable to suggest anything other than to seek someone who is qualified to give advice and help more suited for you

the silver lining to all of this is you've got time; there will be time when this hurts & also time when you can hardly remember how it felt, and there will be times when you have to remind yourself of it at 10p to stop crying, and there will be times when it's as soothing as a good breeze on a pretty day. I hope this eases for you soon 🌸