Hermits United

We meet up every ten years. Swap stories about caves. It's good fun, for a hermit. *not proana 4 any1 but me

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SW: 157 lbs  CW: 144.2 lbs 

GW1: 138 lbs  GW2: 130 lbs  GW3: 125 lbs  GW4: 120 lbs  GW5:115 lbs 

UGW: 110 lbs

(Not my pic lol)

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I wish Dallon Weekes was my Christmas tree.

It’s finally appropriate to listen to listen to Dallon belt christmas tunes while ryan sits there, maybe dead. I was doing it anyways but now the weirdness level has dropped to appropriate levels.

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pls i enhanced this picture of vans eyes the other day and holy fuck...

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how is he so goddamn perfect i can’t with him ugh

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More of my favorite artists

Just perfect people

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Perfect humans ugh

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Dec 11 rant

I ate a brownie yesterday. Pecans. 3 Guavas. That was way too much.

I really regret the brownie ugh. It’s really not worth it. 

I exercised; did 2 hiit workouts and burned 500 cal.

Today i’m. just water fasting though. 

Weighed in at 143.2 lbs this morning so i’m, 1 lb down! 

Still loads to go but it’s a start...

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Dec. 8 rant

I’m just writing stuff here so that I’ll actually get off my butt and do something today lol.

I need to catch up on my maths class today, so i’m doing that.

I woke up at 11 am so that’s something I need to work on... waking up early ever.

After class ends, I’m gonna run 1 mile and do 10K steps.

That’s the goal... so far i’ve read a book and have eaten nothing so i’m pretty ok.

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In my funeral suit, on the train, pretending to be a workaday Tom, I always pick out a target-- the saddest-looking person I can find-- and then I’ll get off whatever stop the target does and follow. (...) The whole time I pretend I have mental telepathy. And with my mind only, I’ll say-- or think?-- to the target, “Don’t do it. Don’t go to that job you hate. Do something you love today. Ride a rollercoaster. Swim in the ocean naked. Go to the airport and get on the next flight to anywhere just for the fun of it. Maybe stop a spinning globe with your finger and then plan a trip to that very spot; even if it’s in the middle of the ocean you can go there by boat. Eat some type of ethnic food you’ve never even heard of. Stop a stranger and ask her to explain her greatest fears and her secret hopes and aspirations in detail and then tell her you care because she is a human being. Sit down on the sidewalk and make pictures with colorful chalk. Close your eyes and try to see the world with your nose-- allow smells to be your vision. Catch up on your sleep. Call up an old friend you haven’t seen in years. Roll up your pant legs and walk into the sea. See a foreign film. Feed squirrels. DO ANYTHING! SOMETHING! Because you start a revolution one decision at a time, with each breath you take. Just don’t go back to that miserable place you go every day. Show me it’s possible to be an adult and also be happy. Please. This is a free country. You don’t have to keep doing this if you don’t want to. You can do anything you want. Be anyone you want. That’s what they tell us at school, but if you keep getting on that train and going to the place you hate I’m going to start thinking that people at school are liars like the Nazis who told the Jews they were just being relocated to work factories. Don’t do that to us. Tell us the truth. If adulthood is working some death-camp job you hate for the rest of your life, divorcing your secretly criminal husband, being disappointed in your son, being stressed and miserable, and dating a poser and pretending he’s a hero when he’s really a lousy person and anyone can tell that by shaking his slimy hand-- if it doesn’t get any better, I need to know right now. Just tell me. Spare me from some awful fucking fate. Please.

Matthew Quick, F.M,L.P