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I am a thrid generation AX 400 android. My name is Kara.This is my story. (Semi-selective Independent Kara, Detroit:Become Human) (I have been playing Kara since 2012, a lot of things are going to be changing) (I love angst and drama! Never be afraid to hurt Kara!) (PLEASE READ HEADCANONS PAGE!!!)

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If only Church could do the same. The thought of them one day being able to do this with no stress, no barriers crossed her mind for a moment, before it was replaced with the sensation of his next thrust. 

His lips were enough to quiet her down for a moment, but the second he let go for air they began again at full volume. Even in her current state, Kara seemed to have some sort of understanding of their situation. With little effort, the mermaid pulled and turned, flipping their positions. Her head was submerged in the shallow water, enough to muffle her squeals and moans. However, in this position, she relinquished much of her control.

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His movements caused another high-pitched squeak. It was a wonder the night guards hadnt heard their actions. 

With little effort, Kara reached up to the fabric wrapped around her chest. It wasnt the first time she’d pulled it off, considering she was so used to being bare, so no one would think much of it. Her claws ripped through like it was wet tissue, and the shredded fabric was tossed aside. 

The mermaid reclaimed Church’s lips in a rough kiss, and placed her clawed hands back on his chest. They dug into his wetsuit, tearing a few holes, but nothing stopped her from moving with the human, matching his movements as best she could in her desperate state. 

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A soft purr could be heard at the attention. “If you say so.” At least Church had no long expeditions planned any time soon. If Kara was this stressed when he was away for a few hours, it would be impossible to leave her alone like that. 

Church gave her a reassuring smile and another pat, before heading out the door.

He was, in fact, only at work for a few hours today; it wasn’t exactly busy, and his bosses apparently decided he’d earned a break after flying halfway across the world. He was more than happy to return hope, cracking open the door and stretching his arms above his head.

“Oof… hey, Kara? You up and about?”

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At first, Kara tried to watch television, but the shows didnt make much sense to her. She tried to use the computer, but the screen never showed her what she wanted. Finally, she decided to simply wait for Church by the door. A quick look at the clock revealed he’d only been gone a little over an hour. Kara sighed. This would be a long day. 

Every noise caused her ears to perk, but she was disappointed every time. It wasnt until the doorknob jiggled that she actually responded. The moment Church was through the door, Kara was on him, pouncing and knocking him to the floor. 

The sphinx stood with her front paws on his chest, tail swishing wildly and pupils wide. 

“I’m here! I’m here!” 

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Every touch was like fire on her skin, the sensations shooting through her from nose to tail. Even just his hands on her skin was enough to leave her wanting to fall boneless in his lap. But her body had it’s own plans, and it would not stop until it got what it wanted. 

The grinding became unbearable, and the mermaid would have complained if Church hadnt at last shown her mercy. Kara let out a mix between a moan and a squeak at the feeling of suddenly being filled. Her body shuddered as it adjusted, and once it did, her hips began to move again. Church wouldnt need to do much work, at least for now. 

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Kara looked defeated, shoulders dropping a bit. She shouldnt be so upset, she knew. It was her Master’s wish for her to stay here while he did whatever he needed to do. Still, after finally having someone to speak with and play with and just spend time with, it was difficult to give it up, even for a little bit.

“Alright…”

Church offered her a sympathetic smile, patting the sphinx on the back.

“Trust me, it’ll be like I was never gone at all.”

Maybe he should just get her a phone. That’d make things a lot easier, wouldn’t it? As soon as she got through the technology barrier, anyway. The trials and tribulations of living in the desert for centuries.

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A soft purr could be heard at the attention. “If you say so.” At least Church had no long expeditions planned any time soon. If Kara was this stressed when he was away for a few hours, it would be impossible to leave her alone like that. 

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Said slit was easier to find than usual, especially with how desperate she was for him. It wasnt long before his head was pressing against it, and Kara was whining for Church to press in. She did her best to beg with her chirps and squeaks, since words were too difficult to form at the moment. 

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Her paw slid back down to the ground. Television and the World Wide Web were some of the first things Church showed her, though it probably should have been saved for another time since her mind was so blown, Kara could barely focus on anything for days. 

“Okay, but…” She pouted. “You wont be gone too long, right?”

Church raised his hands reassuringly.

“I promise, it’s only for a few hours. And tomorrow’s my day off, so you have that to look forward to.”

He really shouldn’t be surprised at how upset she was; it was, technically, her job to guard him now. He just doubted he could bring her into a museum without uncomfortable questions popping up, even in her human guise.

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Kara looked defeated, shoulders dropping a bit. She shouldnt be so upset, she knew. It was her Master’s wish for her to stay here while he did whatever he needed to do. Still, after finally having someone to speak with and play with and just spend time with, it was difficult to give it up, even for a little bit.

“Alright...”

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Everything was more sensitive than usual, and the attention to her dorsal fin had her whole body shivering. She hated the wet suit more than ever right now, but she would have to deal with it. 

Kara whined and continued to press against him. “I can make it even comfier if you want?”

Church took a moment to look over his shoulder, double-checking to make sure nobody else was actually back here. Most people were getting ready to clock out, or focusing on closing. It was his job to manage this particular area, naturally, and he didn’t need much help, so it was at least relatively private.

“…go for it.”

He was pretty sure he had a spare wetsuit anyway.

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Kara wasted no time. She leaned up, locking him in a rough kiss, while one hand reached down into the water. Hopefully he did have a spare, because the conveniently located zipper was ripped nearly clean off. Once Church was free, her hips wiggled back and forth in his lap. 

At this point, the only vocalizations she made were whines and desperate chirps. 

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She gently pulled her paw away, only to place it on his head. It was a bit bigger, but Church was in no danger. Kara would never dream of hurting him. At least, not on purpose. 

Her tail swished happily at the praise, and she chuckled at how small he looked under the paw. “Is there anything you’d like for me to do today? I know you have to go to work soon…” At that, her tail slowed. It was lonely waiting for him all day. 

Was this the Sphinx equivalent of a cat putting a paw on someone’s face? He supposed that was about as close as it would get with this particular size discrepancy. Church made a show of scrunching up his face as the hefty weight settled onto his head.

“Well… you’re a guardian, right? So I guess you just guard?” Church shrugged. “But don’t be afraid to make yourself comfortable. Watch some TV, browse the Internet, somethin’ like that. Believe me when I say there’s been a lot going on while you’ve been hanging out in the desert.”

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Her paw slid back down to the ground. Television and the World Wide Web were some of the first things Church showed her, though it probably should have been saved for another time since her mind was so blown, Kara could barely focus on anything for days. 

“Okay, but...” She pouted. “You wont be gone too long, right?”

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With zero hesitation, Kara pulled herself on top of Church, nuzzling and nipping at his jaw while her tail wiggled to get comfortable. 

When she looked back up at the human, her pupils were blown wide, nearly covering her iris. 

“How’s this? Comfy?” 

That would work. Church never complained about having Kara cozy up to him. Especially since he was really starting to figure out what was going on. Yeah, definitely not sick.

“Uh… yeah! That’s… one word for it, sure.”

Resigning himself to his fate for at least the next hour, he hugged the mermaid close, rubbing her back and fiddling with her dorsal fin.

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Everything was more sensitive than usual, and the attention to her dorsal fin had her whole body shivering. She hated the wet suit more than ever right now, but she would have to deal with it. 

Kara whined and continued to press against him. “I can make it even comfier if you want?”

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A small whine escaped her, and she nuzzled Church’s cheek. “If I can make it comfier for you, would you stay?” 

It wasnt fair, really. If he could breathe underwater like her, she would have already dragged him down to the cavern she’d dug out. An inter-species relationship had more complications than one might think. 

Kara tilted her head at his question, her fins flaring and flattening a few times. “Feverish? No, no, jut warm. And lonely.” The mermaid held tightly to Church’s wet suit. 

“I… guess?” He doubted Kara had any couches hidden in here, though. If she did, well… he had several questions, honestly.

More than a little confused, Church patted the mermaid’s back. “Okay, okay, I’m not goin’ anywhere right now, alright? You can relax.”

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With zero hesitation, Kara pulled herself on top of Church, nuzzling and nipping at his jaw while her tail wiggled to get comfortable. 

When she looked back up at the human, her pupils were blown wide, nearly covering her iris. 

“How’s this? Comfy?” 

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It was a victory for her as well, which made her smile. 

Living in a human dwelling wasnt as easy as she thought. They were definitely not made with a Sphinx in mind, and were more fragile than she remembered. It was lucky that Church was so patient, else he would have probably kicked her out long ago. 

Her purring was quiet, but still audible. “I’ve been trying to relax my paws more, like you said, and my claws dont come out as much.” Kara lifted one of her forepaws and used her hands to hold it up to him. It was the size of his face, but those toe beans…

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Church, with a little trepidation, gingerly took the massive paw in his hands. Despite the fur, it wasn’t nearly as soft as he expected; mostly just muscle. It was like holding a fuzzy brick… with switchblades attached to it. Terrifying, but fascinating.

“I’m glad to hear it,” he remarked, a bit distracted as he looked over the massive paw. “Damn, and I thought tigers were impressive, but this really takes the cake, huh?”

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She gently pulled her paw away, only to place it on his head. It was a bit bigger, but Church was in no danger. Kara would never dream of hurting him. At least, not on purpose. 

Her tail swished happily at the praise, and she chuckled at how small he looked under the paw. “Is there anything you’d like for me to do today? I know you have to go to work soon...” At that, her tail slowed. It was lonely waiting for him all day. 

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Yes, she was clingy. Extra clingy today. Kara was holding tightly to her human, tail curled around his leg and face rubbing against his neck and shoulder. She’d been like this most of the morning. 

“I just really dont want you to leave today!” She sounded playful, but almost desperate. Looking up at Church, her face was clearly flushed and her pupils large and round. Even through the suit she probably felt warmer, especially since she kept rubbing against him. 

“Pretty please?”

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Huh, this was… a little strange, wasn’t it? Church gave the mermaid a weird look, before returning the embrace–a bit awkwardly.

“Well, I guess I can wait a few minutes, but I can’t exactly camp out here overnight, you know. Concrete floors are not the best beds. Are, uh, you feelin’ alright? You’re not feverish or anything, are you?”

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A small whine escaped her, and she nuzzled Church’s cheek. “If I can make it comfier for you, would you stay?” 

It wasnt fair, really. If he could breathe underwater like her, she would have already dragged him down to the cavern she’d dug out. An inter-species relationship had more complications than one might think. 

Kara tilted her head at his question, her fins flaring and flattening a few times. “Feverish? No, no, jut warm. And lonely.” The mermaid held tightly to Church’s wet suit. 

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At his response, Kara’s smile grew. “Oh, you will,” she replied with a soft chuckle, ruffling the towel in his hair again to get out some more moisture. “But it will be worth it.” Already, the smaller android was making lists of supplies they would need, places to find Chester clothing, contacts to help cover his tracks, and where were those pliers? That LED might have to come out.

A particularly loud crash of thunder caused her to jump, her own LED glowing and flashing bright red. Being an older model, hers wasnt so easily removed. She managed to hide it well enough with a hat, but it still made her nervous. With a look outside, she sighed. “I dont think we’ll be going out for supplies tonight. I have some bigger clothes you can wear to warm up, and some blankets, but we’ll have to wait until tomorrow to get what we’ll need.”

Kara squeezed Chester’s shoulder again. “For now, you should get some rest. I know we dont need it, but I’m sure you’ll find it quite enjoyable.” A small tug signaled him to stand and follow her to the other room. However, the movement, coupled with the weather, was taking its toll on her joints, and some audible squeaks could be heard as she walked.

          They’ve only just met but she already spoke of him so fondly. Chester can’t believe how very lucky he is to have found her when he did. He’s sure without her he wouldn’t have made it very long. Another “Thank you” sits at the tip of his tongue and he can’t stop himself before it tumbles out. It seems he will thank her a lot in the future.

          He notes that she seems to be afraid of the thunder, or maybe loud noises in general, and files the information away for later as he isn’t sure how she will react if he’s the one comforting her. You’re supposed to keep your distance to people you’ve just met, right? He doesn’t know. There’s so much he doesn’t know, so much he has to learn. So many things he has to do to make up for the things he’s done.

          Another thing he notices are the sounds she makes as she’s walking. She is a rather old model, but she’s not supposed to sound like this, is she? “Are you alright?” He asks, concern seeping into his voice. “Is there anything I can do?” He could carry her, leave the safety of the building and go out to find supplies to help her. He’s only just met her but he’s been met with such kindness that he would gladly risk his entire existence for her.

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The next round of thunder wasnt quite as loud, but the android still flinched. His theory was correct, about her reacting negatively to loud noises, but Kara wouldnt tell him that herself. Even if he seemed harmless, it wasnt a smart idea to reveal a weakness to someone you just met. 

His questions caught her off-guard, though. She turned back to him and blinked, trying to figure out what he meant. It took a moment to hit her, and she sighed with a defeated smile. Kara was so used to the squeaks and extra effort to move, she almost didnt notice it until she started to feel tired. “N-No, its alright. Its just some old damage.” Not like there were many people who would help her. Humans would snatch her up, and the only androids that could assist were part of the revolution, so she tried to avoid them. 

“I’ll be fine, dont worry about it.” Kara took his hand and tugged again. “Come on.”  

A moment later, they were back in the room she’d claimed as her own. The furniture consisted of three old lawn chairs, a small coffee table, and a stool, all taken from curbsides and alleys, as well as a few old desks and broken rolling chairs. The desks were littered with random items, such as toys, figures, and other various knick-knacks, most of which were damaged or broken. Still, each one was placed with care, facing the same direction and arranged so all could be seen. 

Kara went to one of the lawn chairs and picked up the blanket that had been draped over the back. “Its not much, but its better than nothing. Pick anywhere you want, and theres another blanket in that box.”

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It was a victory for her as well, which made her smile. 

Living in a human dwelling wasnt as easy as she thought. They were definitely not made with a Sphinx in mind, and were more fragile than she remembered. It was lucky that Church was so patient, else he would have probably kicked her out long ago. 

Her purring was quiet, but still audible. “I’ve been trying to relax my paws more, like you said, and my claws dont come out as much.” Kara lifted one of her forepaws and used her hands to hold it up to him. It was the size of his face, but those toe beans...

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Yes, she was clingy. Extra clingy today. Kara was holding tightly to her human, tail curled around his leg and face rubbing against his neck and shoulder. She’d been like this most of the morning. 

“I just really dont want you to leave today!” She sounded playful, but almost desperate. Looking up at Church, her face was clearly flushed and her pupils large and round. Even through the suit she probably felt warmer, especially since she kept rubbing against him. 

“Pretty please?”

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She watched him as he moved, her pupils growing slightly. Again, her purring could be heard. “Is there anything I should do?”

For someone who lived in the desert for so long, there was hardly any dust or sand on her. The perks of being part cat, she was a very meticulous groomer. For now, Kara just set her chin on her cushions, watching the human move about. 

“Just do that ‘human disguise’ thing again,” Church explained, grabbing fresh clothes and stepping into the bathroom to get dressed. “Nobody will know the difference, and you’ll actually… fit on the plane.”

He… still wasn’t entirely sure how Kara would handle airplane travel, but if anyone would survive something as bad as a plane crash, it was probably the Sphinx.

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The Sphinx stepped down from her bed and stretched, then obediently transformed. Once again, her bottom half was human, and many of her more feline features were gone. 

“How long will we be on this ‘plane’?” It couldnt be that long, could it? Perhaps just an hour or two? Certainly not much longer than their car ride.