RedBullAddict

She/Her ~ 18 ~ Markiplier Stan Pansexual <3 ~ Avid DILF Lover

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

11/24/21 3:15pm

This account shall now become my public diary. Feel free to do whatever the fuck you want here. I’m not gonna judge lol

Prepare for mindless rants, anything markiplier, music, stories that i’ll never finish, random ass shit, dreams i have, and thoughts that come to my mind that i don’t want to express out loud so i shall here.

:)

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

11/18/22 8:33pm

hi, my name is elizabeth and i make bad life decisions.

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

I'm both concerned and yet intrigued

i don’t know what you are referring to, but you should definitely be concerned no matter what it is lmao

[lady-raziel]

WE DID IT, GAMERS. THE JOURNALISTS HAVE TAKEN THE BAIT

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

we gotta make it happen

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/26/22 1:41pm

also, can someone please explain to me why i only find older men attractive anymore????

like guys my age suck

i’d rather go for someone 10+ years older

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/26/22 1:40pm

so i am making a bit of progress in life and it’s kinda scary lol

but it’s all good

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/21/22    8:54pm

i desperately need a new hobbie

any ideas?

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/20/22 12:03am

i love how i said i would start posting more….5 days ago

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/15/22    6:29pm

Okay. Hi Tumblr. I stopped posting for a bit and then popped in a few days ago. I sound completely insane now, lol. I am indeed okay, just going through some stuff.

I will attempt to become more active on here. Just know, time is percieved differently in my mind than most. I will go three or four days without textng someone back because I thought they only texted a few hours ago and I was too busy to respond right then.

ANYWAYS... The point of this post is to say I’m okay, I haven’t lost my mind (yet) and that you can probably expect more spam on your feed.

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

Random question.

If we are living in a simulation, what do think will happen when it becomes aware that we are aware.

9/15/22 12:43am

on a happier note, i'm going to answer one of the many questions left for me by one of my best friends lmao

i think the creators will hit reset and we go ape shit. like the last few scenes in the first episode of "don't hug me i'm scared"

dont ask, but that's just how i see it lolllll

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

DISCLAIMER: i didn't exactly proof read this and it's late so i know i overlooked some things, but here ya go. it's not all going to flow together, but i tried

I’m happy with the way things are. I’m happy with him. I’m happy when I’m around him and I’m happy he’s mine.

So why do I want you too?

I have someone who is completely devoted to me. I have someone who loves me unconditionally.

So why can’t I stop thinking about you?

I keep telling myself it’s a phase. That I’ll get over it.

I spend my night laying next to him, and yet, I think of you.

You.

You have no idea the grasp you have on me. I didn’t even realize it for the longest.

We spent many days side by side. Early morning to afternoon, every single day.

That’s all it took.

It’s crazy, and it’s scary.

I have someone I love more than anyone else. Yet, I still wish you knew.

I wish you knew that I liked you. I wish you knew that I was comfortable around you. I wish you knew that working with you was something I looked forward to every night before I went to sleep.

I know the truth.

You showed genuine interest in me. You shared details of your life. You listed when I talked. You laughed with me, and sometimes, at me. You just seemed to care, and I melted.

I like you because you are new.

I will never admit the feelings I keep hidden. I can’t.

You probably see me as a little kid, you are older, and you have your own kids to worry about for god sakes.

I can’t because I have dedicated myself to another. I will not ruin the one good thing I have, for a fantasy that’s one sided.

Yet,

You are like playing with fire.

Something dangerous but you just want to keep playing with it.

You are, simply, forbidden.

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/15/22 12:37am

i have no idea how long that took and i'm too lazy to look back at my last post but i'm finished......

i'll post the "poem" in another post

just dont judge, that's all i ask. it will probably sound bad in many, many different ways, but you dont and will never see the full picture here lol

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/15/22    12:15am

i can’t sleep.... AGAIN (shocker, i know)

so i’m going to try and write something else and make it not creepy this time

stay tuned lol

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/14/22    12:22am

okay so that didn’t take long. i wrote what i wanted to and i’m pleased with the outcome.

i might share it at a later time, but from literally anyone’s point of view but mine, its going to sound very creepy to be completely honest.

its giving very much....Joe Goldberg from You

if i do post it, just dont judge me.i needed to get it off of my mind and that’s the way it came out lol

so anyways, tata for now 

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/13/22    11:53pm

i’m normally asleep by now, but insomnia has set in.

i’m probably about to try and write something.

i keep seeing things about how if you have a lot on your mind, to just write. so that’s what i’m gonna try. 

if i’m successful, i’ll post it here :)

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

9/11/22 12:48am

don’t hate on me for posting for the first time in FOREVER on 9/11

but….

my god, my life right now….

what am i doing?!? lmao

i have issues man

[iwanttobedrunkrightnow]

6/25/22 1:17pm

gonna work on my tan tmr

cuz i’m a shade lighter than fucking casper at this point