[ix-the-hermit]

Post on tumblr: Dont worry about the little details till they stress you out, you aren’t in trouble all the time and you can get away with being human

Ghouls on this site: Lol me when im a murderer! Something a criminal would say! Lol OP what did you do!

[ix-the-hermit]

Contact feels like touching a dangerous, complex machine. The vulnerability of reaching for what screams danger even without a warning sign means I keep a distance.

I’ll draw a yellow line on the ground for your sake and for mine. Is it the machine’s fault for the potential we have to ruin each other? One faulty movement for flesh and steel to bind.

Perhaps the lack or warnings means I musn’t be warned. Perhaps my severed fingers were never severed.

I can only hold you once you’re still.

Once the power has left you and your lights have faded out.

Forgive me, for my hands must only reach once you’re gone.

You are safe from me.

I am safe from you.

[ix-the-hermit]

Loss is a very confusing thing when you’re cluster a.

You begin to wonder why you’re even mourning at all with the lack of effort you put in. But the hole their loss has created inside your soul is deeper than youd ever expect.

But now they’re gone, talking about them feels… Easier? Acknowledging their existence no longer comes with the caveat that they may know you too.

[yellow-cat]

when i was but a wee babe the wet nurse accidentally dropped a sufferingberry into my open mouth and thats how this all got started

[cluster-a-culture]

szpd culture is since i was a child having a messy bedroom fills me with this very subtle undercurrent of dread because the more comfortable i get somewhere means the harder it will be to get it together and leave.

like mostly physically. it'll take me longer to parse through what i need and i'll totally be preoccupied about forgetting something. like its a whole hassle now and i'm already always avoiding hassles. abandoning my life is the only fun part ://////// no spice for life otherwise really

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[eternalgaylord]

collecting tweets

[eternalgaylord]

#vessel alert

that's right

[fairycosmos]

[chartnumber3]

i am a terrible person to be around and to get to know and to even just briefly interact with

[deaddogbrain]

even i cant always tell

[ix-the-hermit]

I’ll get rid of every identifier if it means people leave me alone

[ix-the-hermit]

Friend: I am so happy you've been in my life

Me: aw thanks <3 The schizoid: I was a parasite on everyone I have ever met. I am an inhuman danger to society and should be put down.

[chartnumber3]

*no notifications* man i am so bored i wish i had more notifications

*many notifications* i will not look at them until i can tolerate the sheer horrific disgust and urge to hide that i feel currently i need to delete everything i am so exposed how do so many people know my existence i am so sick at that thought i need to go missing

[ix-the-hermit]

No I never got over the disgust at the idea of kissing. The sound, the sensations even just seeing it grosses me out. Why the hell would you want someone else to be that close to you and do all… That?

[enemylloyd]

I genuinely think "human connection is a NEED you cant live without" is a complete lie and propaganda. I dont care if im disordered and that makes me the weird one or whatever but theres no way that's true.

[ix-the-hermit]

Humanity simultaneously does not bother me and is an intrusive, damaging force on everything it touches

[ix-the-hermit]

I hate when people assume things when you want privacy. “Oooh what are you hiding” fuck off stop breathing down my neck