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[izzadorable]

[izzadorable]

So lately ive been avoiding social media with an exception of one of my few tumbr pages. That page is the reason ive been avoiding social media. Also why i went through and deleted alot of posts on this one... soon to be deleted pages as a whole.

I honestly dont know if what im doing is right anymore or how to feel about 3\4ths of my life. Currently im just doing what was recommended to me.

Really what i think i need right now is a really good new friend who i can talk to about nothing and everything. Maybe someone whod need a friend as much as i do. Someone who knows me (past included) and accepts me without judgement.

Then again part of me also says stay introverted and making sure i smile whenever i talk to people and make sure i make myself give laughs. This past few months ive learned just how people view my past and just how much knowing all of me is an issue.

Sorry totes vented. That ends here. Xo

Promise super limiting to only the brightest side of my brain.

[izzadorable]

[figdays]

Sakura Dungeons and Dragons Dice // byFlowerFox

[bringthatidiothome]

“A wise man once told me ‘family don’t end in blood.’ But it doesn’t start there either. Family cares about you; not what you can do for them. They got your back, even when it hurts. That’s family.”

[izzadorable]

As someone whos adopted and whos friends are also like family this speaks volumes to me.

[anime--irl]

Anime_Irl

[phoenixx0205]

[izzadorable]

a hug from you goes a long way for there’s safety inside your warm embrace comforting me when life is too hard to face.

[lots-o-dice]

Jade and cherry blossom

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[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[izzadorable]

Man, i do this way too often lul i gotta learn to be braver and in some cases to let go. @-@

[rariatoo]

Spider verse was too very fun …

[izzadorable]

Loved this movie!

[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[izzadorable]

I can not stress how much this hit home for me today! I really put myself out there in a big way and it completely backfired and went the opposite of how i was hoping it would go. Someone i know was having some very personal/emotional issues all week so i stepped up with a big smile and open arms to help. I was fully supporting, open minded, loving/caring, empathetic, and there for them in every way i could possibly think of. I told her things about my life that relates to her issues and how i handled them. Basically i put on the persona of the mother figure and took complete care of her for multiple days in a row to the best of my ability. The thanks i got you might wonder? Not even a smile or a thank you… instead she decided to go ahead tell the things i told her in confidence to other people in my life who had no clue. I also found out that while all of this was happening she told multiple lies about me and what i have said. Makes me wonder why the hell i even try instead of living in my bubble of ignorance bliss. 

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‪From @tomo_nan_nan: “とってもとってもとってもとってもとってもとっても大～スキよ❤” #catsofinstagram‬ [source: https://ift.tt/31VfbyO ]

[izzadorable]

OMG!!

[jeden-dzien]

[izzadorable]

I'm so tired of being brutally hurt

I'm tired of saying its okay when emotionally it's far from it

I'm tired of giving it my all and trusting people who i guess i never should have trusted

I'm tired of being an option when people are bored instead of someone who is chosen

I'm tired of being spoken down to or about negatively

I'm tired of always pretending to be upbeat when near people

I'm tired of people who pretend to be friends when i know they arnt

Basically i am tired of most of my damn life

[daily-goose-the-cat]

Follow to see the same picture of Goose the cat everyday

[izzadorable]

The one, the only.... GOOSE!

[anime--irl]

anime_irl

[izzadorable]

pwease and thank you. xo. 

[anime--irl]

anime_irl

[izzadorable]

omg i love this! dark on the inside and light on the outside! 

[retrogamingblog]

Pokemon Pins made by LuckyLionClub

[izzadorable]

yes please. this reminds me of a friend i have. hes someone i met more recently in my life. someone i’ve became very fond of and honestly he is one of the best humans i’ve met. It is so very rare when someone actually feels like family to me and he fits that bill.  just can not let him know that. psh. boys. everything goes to their heads. i love that idiot to pieces.

“A wise man once told me family don’t end in blood, but it doesn’t start there either. Family cares about you, not what you can do for them. Family’s there through the good, bad, all of it. They got your back even when it hurts. That’s family” - supernatural season 10

My chosen family is small but is definitely the most valuable thing i have.