Not having insurance and losing therapy was a very bad choice of the universe
I hate how I feel and I have no way to process it. I'm sitting with myself again having the same realizations about myself and patterns in my life
I'm so tired of this and of myself. I want to rip that part of my brain out forever, scrub myself clean and become a normal fucking person
But alas that can not and will not happen. I want to give myself credit because I know myself to be so much worse, I have made progress in the last decade but it will never be enough
There is no fixing me. I want to get rid of me.