Failure
It has been a very very very long few months.
Let’s start from the beginning, I started university a year ago (October 2017) to get my B.Sc. in computer science.
It’s a very hard major, a lot of math and numbers and lines and trees and and ..... but I still succeeded in ALL my courses which is very rare in computer science in my university, none of my friends have done that and until now, I still don’t know anyone who has (I’m not very social but still I know a bunch of people).
I’ve got a great average, and in a few courses I got one of the highest grades, and in one specific course which is considered by many as the hardest course in the first year, I got the second highest grade.
BUT...
I might not be able to continue my journey to my diploma, why you ask?? Because of Hebrew.
I live is Israel, the main language in here is Hebrew, I suck at it, I just suck at speaking in general, even in my first language.
We have to take a test to find out if we know enough Hebrew to continue, everyone I know have succeeded except of me, I’ve had it 8 times already, and failed each and every time, I just don’t know how to succeed, tomorrow is my last chance to prove that I can continue.
This post is half complaining, but the other half of me wanted to write it because most people live in countries where there first language is the main language in said country, which is a weird concept to me, I speak Arabic at home and with friends, English online and sometimes in uni, and Hebrew in uni, I have to chance a switch in my brain according to where I And and who I am talking to, I can’t use the same language in every situation.
Also how does it feel for a person to understand every single word the professor says in a lecture, I just keep translating shit.
If you speak only one/two language and don’t need to know any other language, You. Are. Lucky. I need to know 3 to function in sociaty.
I am frustrated.
Update: I had the exam, it was okay, not the best not the worst, hoping for the best.
