Jade

How to stop being a repper?

[sorcererclow]

What I've noticed so far on ADHD meds:

- Feels like caffeine but better

- My thoughts are not nearly as chaotic

- My incessant thoughts not being there to muffle outside noise means outside noise bothers me even more

- Doing shit still sucks but I can do it anyway instead of it defeating me immediately

- I don't even feel like doing nothing, I'm more like "I might as well do something"

- I do things faster because I don't get distracted on every little step

- I still am getting tired quickly but that one is probably not ADHD, more autism related

- I still need to be listening to something as to not get bored doing tasks and chores

[jade-lunar]

Notes 📝

[sa-dnesss]

Can’t sleep. Can’t wake up. Can’t remember the last time I felt like myself. My thoughts are loud but my mind is empty. Food doesn’t taste the same anymore. Conversations feel far away, like I’m watching my own life happen without me. I’m tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix. Days blur together until weeks disappear. It’s Monday, then somehow it’s Sunday again. Everyone else keeps moving forward, and I’m standing still, pretending I’m okay while quietly losing pieces of myself I don’t know how to get back.

[hide-and-seekrets]

[jade-lunar]

so so over all this

[sullengun]

[expressions-of-nature]

Pescoluse, Province of Lecce, Italy by Riccardo Orlando

[unaliveish]

acacia reynolds

[jade-lunar]

Green 💚

[mangafascination]

[jade-lunar]

Yes!

[perfectfeelings]

“Stop thinking so much. You’re breaking your own heart.”

— Unknown

[jade-lunar]

I would love to, can you teach me how to turn it off?

[sxftlii-lizziee]

seussical brainrot so bad whenever i type amazing without the y it looks wrong

[jade-lunar]

Rotten mind is the new normal

[thoughtcascades]

my idea of romance is telling you my worst memory then waiting to see if you flinch

[jade-lunar]

No connection is stronger than the one forged in blood, the second, but no less meaningful, is forged by shared pain, a broken soul can only grow closer to others equally shattered.

[adicttive]

[jade-lunar]

Sometimes my body feels heavy like a cannonball, and just like the iron falls deep into the ocean, I fall deep into life.

[4ngel-bee]

[jade-lunar]

Gaslighting myself pretending idgaf

[4ngel-bee]

[jade-lunar]

I went from being a full misanthrope to at least caring about myself, the difference is stability provided by medication, I still hate everyone else on a fundamental level, but for the first time I don't hate myself.

It's as Bukowski once:

If you have the ability to love, love yourself first

[beemovieerotica]

if you work in a creative field...or if you do creative hobbies like writing or drawing...you need to make friends with people who don't do those things. you need to befriend normie Steve who has never written a story in his life. and this is because when you are in a creative job or hobby and spend all your time doing that thing, surrounded by very capable people, who you inevitably compare your own progress and skills to, you forget what the baseline human skill at that thing is. and it's usually zero. normie Steve has not written a story since the 3rd grade when his teacher made him do it. he's very good at other things that are not storytelling - but if you tell normie Steve that you wrote a full 300-page book from start to finish, he will think you're some kind of savant. he does not know ANYONE else who has done this. you need this perspective. because when you're constantly on Let's Write Stories dot Com then everyone on Let's Write Stories dot Com will inevitably be like "oh of course everyone on earth has written a book or several at this point!" and you canNOT let yourself think that. that is not even close to the average human experience. you are in a bubble. do not put yourself down. do not give up.

[jade-lunar]

We already have high expectations for ourselves, but seeing our peers setting even higher ones makes us feel so small.

[byliamrichards]

“Man shouldn’t be able to see his own face - there’s nothing more sinister. Nature gave him the gift of not being able to see it, and of not being able to stare into his own eyes. Only in the water of rivers and ponds could he look at his face. And the very posture he had to assume was symbolic. He had to bend over, stoop down, to commit the ignominy of beholding himself. The inventor of the mirror poisoned the human heart.” - Fernando Pessoa

[theoptia]

Fernando Pessoa, from The Book of Disquiet

[ariesrin]

Alternatives to 'said'

When character is angry:

Snapped

Spat

Snarled

Hissed

Barked

...or sad:

Choked

Mumbled

Managed

Croaked

Murmured

...or if they're feeling nervous:

Stammered

Babbled

Rambled

Muttered

Squeaked

...and even when flirting:

Coaxed

Purred

Teased

Hummed

Crooned