your awkward, clumsy, coffee-addicted mom friend

tumblr where I repost all my self-written posts from my other accounts @facepalmingsuhoe @iusedtoliveforpepperminteyes and @proudaverage. I'm just a nerdy weirdo as the rest of the tumblr, a kpop enthusiast and your inofficial Internet mom, so my dm's are always open to your rants. ♡

[facepalmingsuhoe]

YOU 👏 CANT 👏LOVE👏SOMEONE👏INTO👏LOVING👏THEMSELVES👏

[iusedtoliveforpepperminteyes]

Sooo guess what my bff is currently hanging out with my ex (who isn’t really my ex but still is and also my former best friend) and his new gf at HIS house that he never invited me to when originally she had plans with me FUN TIMES, welcome to pain ville 🙃🙃🙃

[jaehyunstinydoublechin]

I hate it here

[proudaverage]

Me: so I got hungry last night...

Other person: so u got up for a snack?

Me: what? No, the fuck??

Other person: *awkward silence*

[facepalmingsuhoe]

Shakira as Gazelle:

I won’t give up, no I won’t give in

‘til I reach the end, the I’ll start again

No I won’t leave, I wanna try everything

I wanna try even though I could fail

People with anxiety: lol what

[facepalmingsuhoe]

God, I’m still so angry at you

[facepalmingsuhoe]

You throwing out our photos while I still smell the clothes I borrowed from you perfectly sums up what we have become

[facepalmingsuhoe]

I’m so happy for you,

I can’t breathe

[jaehyunstinydoublechin]

Idk who needs to hear this but u need to stop wasting your time and energy waiting for people who hurt you to notice and fix it. Talk to them or forget about it. U don’t deserve to compromise your mental well-being over it

[proudaverage]

A loophole

Okay but consider this:

Is it really self harm if it doesn’t leave a scar

[facepalmingsuhoe]

We’ve been fooled

Jongin: *during insta live, telling us to go on dates instead of hanging with him, while he’s still thankful we’re there*

Jennie: *singing about how being single is awesome and guys are trash anyway*

Jenkai: BOO BOO YOU FOOLS

[proudaverage]

How fucked up is it though that a part of me wants to be worse. Like no offense but at least my depressed self got things done, even though it the only thing that kept me going was self hate.i mean you can say all you want but back in the day I did work out daily and lost weight, while my current self is way too comfortable with her own body to achieve any improvement. Like… i feel they are only two options - I either hate myself and try everything to improve myself or I try to take care of my mental health and end up not being able to accept criticism because my brain is so messed up that I don’t grasp the concept of constructive criticism. I’m either a complete mess and a disgrace to humankind or I pretend to be all self-loving and have to deny all the flaws that I - of course - have. Because if i was to admit that I in fact do something wrong, I’m instantly thrown into self hate again. There is literally no in between. Anyone can relate?

(Pls someone answer, I already feel like the biggest loser because no one ever replies to my posts)

[jaehyunstinydoublechin]

Say it with me

Kim Taeyeon deserves so much better and we need to protect her!

[facepalmingsuhoe]

I have nothing to add except that I’m really proud of how far you’ve come. Not as a singer - even tho we all know you reformed music business - but as a human person. A person who had so many obstacles in their way, who fought so bravely and who wasn’t scared to share their experiences and struggles and sorrows to reach out for those who suffer from the same misery. Jonghyun, i am so proud of you and even tho i wish you had seen another way to get out of that living hell i will never ever judge you because i still have no idea what you’ve been through and because I have faith that you are better now and that’s all that matters to me. You were so strong. Now have the long awaited rest you deserve. 사랑해 종현아. 수고했어 종현아.

[jaehyunstinydoublechin]

I miss you

[jaehyunstinydoublechin]

Help

[proudaverage]

I know this has been said before but…

…. I just hate how you can feel yourself getting bad again. Like you could’ve had the best weeks in ages and still feel that low coming. Like you’re planning to do something and you actually really wanna do it but you know you just won’t. You could’ve met cool new people and talked to them but you know if they asked you to hang out you would just find a bad excuse and bail last second. It fricking sucks man, it really does. To see that shit coming and not be able to do anything about it. I just hate it.

[facepalmingsuhoe]

When you’re getting so used to communicate your feelings through jokes that you begin to even journal in memes

[facepalmingsuhoe]

Matthew Daddario is, for a fact, the only person that makes me feel remotely hetero at the moment period