Sweetest One, 10 years now and I have missed you so much it has changed me into another being. Back then I had so much rage, but there's a tradeoff in all things. When you're on your knees you start to see things clearly. Nothing is what we think it is. I've met some great people, and they've taught me which rivers to throw stones into, which winds should be cupped by palms, and which nights are designed specifically for dying in flowerbeds, I have learned, Gringo, that love has never been enough and time will never heal all things. I long for you and know that ghosts are real. I recently saw you in stars and would trade all my words to see your eyes again. I simply don't know how to navigate through this thing without you, Gringo. I don't know how much I have left in me, but the words remain. I'm writing stories now, one about this sci-fi girl gang, I named them: Nina, Zazi, Tris, Lexi. And of course the moon-songs, always. I'm teaching now and it’s been interesting. Mom has a new kitten: Achilles. You'd really like him, he's crazy just like you and he makes her and Dad really happy. They love you always. The last decade has been all dreams & madness, sweet one, and for the life of me I have not been able to tell the difference. Endless whirlwinds of manic episodes and dragons. I've an amazing therapist and she tells me to channel the love to the right places: My craft, pursuit of meaning. I've become incredibly dark and cynical, but she's been incredibly helpful. I hope to one day have my little Starchild and to tell her all about you and our adventures. Let her know I will be ready when the time comes. Too many times I wish you took me with you. I don't know what the next 10 will bring, but I will immortalize you with words and tattoo you as well..... I still call on you from the hill.🎑 Whistle you songs birthed from starlit night.🌃 Let the penumbral comets nest in my head and chant your name across the Gypsy sky. 🌄 I still dream of us flying, you and I. I dream of you always, sweet one, you are my love. You are my light. ✨ ❤️ 🐈 • #gringo #gatito #cat #soul #love #life #truth #loyal #meow #forever #letter #writing #soulmate #tabby #missyou #always https://www.instagram.com/p/BreGf7iFQ7E/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fd9oq7yeb3y
