So heres a sneak peek at one of the stories i'm trying to write called Loved And Abused
So heres a sneak peek at one of the stories i'm trying to write called
My name is Gracie Arias i'm 15 and life has thrown so much at me in my short life that i have been living its not easy living with so much pain theres only so much one person can take and this year has been my breaking point I feel like I'm invisible and no one is listening.
I sometimes wish I could just disappear. The only time I had any peace is when I am asleep and at school. I open my eyes trying to forget the pain I learned to go numb to the pain and ignore it.
The marks on my back left bruises I could feel my bones aching how was I going to go to school how was I going to face another day of the reality that i live I manage to stand up making my way to the bathroom I turn on the shower instantly feeling the chills down my spine.
The pain was almost too much to bear I step into the tub Instantly crying from the pain and agony I felt how could A father who says he loves me and wants to protect me read through so much pain why would he want to leave marks that will forever tell the story of the pain he's caused how could that be love how could he say he loves me.
I sit down in the tub letting the water from the shower run down on me I was silent I had no energy left in me anymore but there was nothing I could do I have nowhere to go no one to talk to that would understand. I was raised this way I was taught this way before my mom died she told me to always listen and obey my father and to love him no matter what he said or did I felt like if I didn't do what I was told or if I made him angry in anyway I will be dishonoring her and it hurt.
I managed to get up out of the shower and Dry myself off I looked into the foggy mirror and all I could see was a person who is broken lifeless I turn over to stare at the bruises and scars I had on my back I look like a freaking punching bag at that moment I hear my father screaming my name.
I open the door quickly And said yes father I'm getting dress he quickly answers Hurry up I quickly get dressed and rushed out of the bathroom and went straight to my father he looked at him and quickly say yes father do you need something.
Yes turn all the way around let me see your outfit you know the rules i don't want you going to school looking like slut. He said rudely
All I was wearing was a baggy pair of jeans and black long sleeve shirt that covers everything even the bruises and scars. My father always had to approve what i wear i was not aloud to buy any clothes without his permission or not even if i got it as a gift i was not aloud to wear it unless he approves of it and if it didn't cover any of the bruises he would think i was trying to get him in trouble and beat me.
On top of it all that my Father is a layer so he knows people in his law firm and knows how to get hisself out of trouble which terrifies me my Father is a monster who helps other monsters get free all while keeping himself free and unnoticed .
Okay your outfit is is fine to wear to school but put a jacket in your bag just in case and hurry up so i can take you to school. he said grabbing his cup of coffee
I hurry and grab my black jacket that i basically couldn't live without this jacket i could always count on my jacket to cover all the scars and bruises and help me forget about my father for just a little while we both walked out the door and got in the car i loved being at school thats one thing my dad could not from away from me school was my safety net and my dad knew that and so if I got anything less then an A on my report card he would not be happy.
I had no time to barley make any friends but I did managed to have my Best friend Hazel Baker who was my safe heaven. I could always count on her to make my day better. She was the reason why school was my safe haven she's known me since before my mom passed away when I was 7 always made sure I was okay her mom would always made sure she asked my Father to come over for sleep overs and take me out till she's the only ones house I'm aloud to sleep over and thats only if Hazels mom called my father. He couldn't say no because he didn't want anyone to get suspicious. He pulls up to my school i wait for him to let me know when i can get out .
After school your aloud to hang out at Hazels you hear me he said with a stern voice .
Yes Father thank you so much i said with smile so he knew i was grateful .
i also talked to her mother you be staying the weekend because i'll be going out of town for the weekend understand you are to get your homework done though or you are going to have problems okay. he said with in a serious tone
Yes Father i said in a regular tone
i'll drop your stuff at Hazels before i leave which will be before you get out of school okay now go get to class see you Monday .
Okay see you then father. I said opening the car door but he stops me for a sec.
Gracie I Love You Sweetheart. he said seriously
My heart sank i wanted to burst out in tears at that moment but i couldn't i want so much to believe him when he says these words but i cant but the truth is i love him how could i not he's my father i'm a part of him and my mother and i will always hold on to that and no matter how much i hated him i still also loved him i turned to him and give him a hug and say
yes i know theres spelling errors i'm working on them no worries
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