sunshine baby

Darling, your sunny smile brightens up the moodiest of my days, and I don't mean the little smirks (although those are nice too, and a little uncalled for) and half smiles you toss at endless press flashes that wash out your features (especially those twin moles above your eyelid!) but those beams you offer that put the sun to shame; baby, you're so beautiful. esther / 22 / twitter mostly GOT7 trash. TWICE, KARA, BEAST, Girl's Day, Produce 101 and BTS may make occasional appearances.

[jawbeom]

i feel like i’m always giving always doing more always putting in more effort i do things once and i’m expected to do it forever i cant get a goddamn break 

[jawbeom]

i tell you about how my dad upsets me i tell you about how someone’s death upsets me i tell you about how things upset me and every time it is nothing but silence silence silence i am fucking tired of this 

[jawbeom]

i open up to you all the fucking time i bare my fucking insecurities and i show my sadness and you meet me with nothing but silence i am fucking done with this 

[got7-updates]

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[fyjjong]

(171219) @ukjs: 

[shinees-back]

he’s jamming in heaven with his kazoo. you know that there’s a crowd of people gathered like “who’s this dude with the kazoo?? he’s really good”

[dinobummie]

If this imagery doesn’t make your heart smile during this sad time I don’t know what will. Jonghyun, our lil kazoo playing pupper

[fyjjong]

(171220) @taeyeon_ss: that’s you, and there’s no one who won’t love you because there’s a different you. i like you a ton, i love you, i want to pat you on the back and i wanted to embrace you just one more time. that’s what i was able to do but i hate myself for regretting it like this after losing the opportunity. i’m so sad. it’s so wasteful, our precious jonghyunnie. if i call and say your name i feel like you’ll say: “yeah!” in a high tone. i miss you a lot, our jonghyunnie. i’m sorry noona couldn’t hug you a lot. i’m sorry, i love you and thank you. i remember you saying that you wrote “lonely” thinking of noona and all that process. we are similar. we resemble each other. we know those feelings. kim jonghyun, who is the most unique, cool and incredible artist in my life. i really miss you a lot and i want to hold your hand. jonghyun-ah, you are the best. you really worked hard. 🖤 i'l make sure you’re not lonely. (source: sonexstella)

[kindsuggestion]

you’re not too sensitive. you’re not overreacting. if it hurts you, it hurts you

[maijinki]

You did good Jonghyun Kim. You worked hard.

[spacetaemin]

[+2,832, -32] It’s cold today, dress warmly on your way to heaven. You worked hard.

[jawbeom]

to: jonghyun. to: the star that dimmed for others to shine. to: the boy with the dinosaur smile. to: the one who loved music. 

first and foremost-- you did well, you did so, so well. alive, you fought for and gave voices to those who were oppressed, those that society tried to shun. after death, you still inspire, and you’re still very, very loved. although i may not have actively stanned you in the last couple of years, you (along with the rest of shinee) were a very, very important part of my highschool years, and i’m thankful for that. 

i’m sorry for a lot of things, although i’ve read again and again that none of us should feel guilt for anything we did or didn’t do. but i still exist as part of this world, so i will apologize for this: i’m sorry this world did not treat you better, that it wasn’t a kinder place for your warm smile. i’m sorry that you struggled so much to shine and the world just kept taking and taking and demanding and demanding that they forgot that behind the bright smile and the beautiful voice, you are after all, only human. your mental illnesses and your depression are real and i’m sorry for all the people who tried to tell you it wasn’t or tried to push the blame onto you. 

i have a lot of mixed thoughts on your passing, because, well... we’re always told that suicide isn’t the way out, to seek help from professionals and people around you. but after reading your will, your thoughts were so dark and you were so tired, baby. the exhaustion weighed down your words so, no, i do not blame you. i only pray that you are in a better place and that the weights have been unloaded from your shoulders and you are somewhere without the pressures of the public, pressures of being an idol, and most important, the pressure that was your inner demons dragging you down. 

i’m still struggling a lot to accept this, but you did what you needed to. you did well, jonghyun-ah. i’m sorry, and thank you. be happy. ♥

[jeonbase]

🐱💖🐰

[bwiseoks]

I’m Hoseok saying ‘oh my god’

[evanhcnsen]

concept: 2017 is better. you are cuddling with someone. you are warm. you are loved. you are surrounded by people you care about. you learn to love yourself. you are calm. you find new hobbies. you find yourself.

[jsbachtopus]

#too unrealistic #blocked

[fykook]

[Fancam preview] 170114 Jungkook talking to Seventeen Mingyu @ ISAC © HEADLINER | Do not edit, gif or modify in any way.

[thexfiles]

i literally will not tell people who are hurting me that they’re hurting me because i’m afraid of hurting them by telling them they’re hurting me it’s such a mess

[catsofinstagram]

[angremlin-deactivated20250312]

You know I’m not sure cats actually understand cats either