this pride month, please please please do not let the black lives matter movement go ignored. the lgbtq movement owes so much to black members of our community. we are not free until all of us are.
what is happening now is change in action. if you care about activism, and you should, you know that blm deserves to be seen, their voices to be heard.
pride matters, and we should still celebrate, still fight, still demand our place in the world. but black and indigenous people need our support right now. cops are not our friends. oppression is never okay. privilege is never comfortable. if you are white or non-black, refuse to let support for blm die down.
this pride, letās fight for each other. demand spaces for lgbtq people of colour. let their voices be heard. listen.
you canāt read a few text posts on tumblr and reblog a couple pictures of black lives matters and think youāre not racist. racism is a deeply engrained part of our culture - sometimes itās not even conscious. you have to constantly question yourself. itās pretty hard to unlearn 400+ years of institutional racism and in order for us to properly dismantle systems of injustice, we have to stop pretending we all arenāt part of the problem.
summary: park jimin is part of a band on their college, and theyāre famous because of it. one day, he bumped into a girl and i guess you can say that his life was changed forever. the good thing is, it was the same for her.
[friends to lovers!au, college!au]
chapter 1
pairing: park jimin x female reader
a/n: hello! iām going back to work during this pandemic, so i thought of finishing this au as soon as possible. please do leave comments or feedback regarding this, i deeply appreciate it! i hope you enjoy reading this update.Ā
Chapter 2: How many stars are there?
Today was an awful day.
I messed up at work, and I think Iām getting fired soon. It was a part-time job to help me sustain my needs as a student. If I end up losing this one, I think Iāll just go back to tutoring. Aside from that, my professor in a major subject suddenly decides that instead of a group project, our final assessment should be done individually and to be submitted next week. That works for me because Iām having a hard time meeting with my teammates anyway, but that also meant that I have to stay up late at night to be able to finish it at the given time.
Tonight is the start of my sleepless nights in order for this project to be done, but Iām a little distracted by the crumpled paper with the phone number lying on my desk. I took it while contemplating on what I should do with it. It has already been two days since that incident. Should I text him? What am I gonna tell him? Hi, I was the one you bumped on the street two days ago. How you doinā?
I sighed.Ā
If thereās one thing Iām sure of in this world, it was that heās the most beautiful person and not even Brad Pitt can relate.
I typed in his number on my contact list, and opened a new message. I blankly looked at the blinking cursor on the āType a messageā section, thinking of something witty to send but I must have been too tired as I slept the night away and woke up with my phone clutched within my hands.Ā
I have no time for boy problems at this moment in my life anyways.
*
The days went by so fast. I was able to finish the assessment on my major subject, and the first semester is finally going to an end.
I was texting my tutee while on my way home (yes folks, i got fired) when I suddenly bumped into someone. I looked up to say sorry, but the person who I bumped into was the one who gave me the number of the beautiful human being a week ago. Yoongi, was it?
āYo, why didnāt you text him?ā he said, while clutching the strap of his guitar bag.Ā
āHyung!ā shouted a man coming our way. He has silver hair, and heās wearing a plain black shirt on a black skinny jeans.
That moment, the world went into a halt.
Every motion stopped except the person now slowly running into our direction. I could hear the angels singing in the background, and I could see how the sunlight is touching the features of his face softly.
He looks mesmerizing.
I looked at him in awe. āRight, Jimin ah. Did you pass your final assessment?ā
āYup! Hoseok hyung helped me at the last minute. Do we have practice today?ā the guy responded. He smiled widely, and though he looks like a baby he also looked like an angel who was brought down into the world to make it a better place.
āYeah, we do...ā I noticed that Yoongi looked at me sideways, but I couldnāt really help staring at the silver-haired angel in front of me. Is he even real? Or am I making these up?Ā āHey so, you didnāt answer my question.ā
I blinked hard and looked back at Yoongi, dumbfounded. āUh⦠Huh?ā
āOh, whoās this? Your friend?ā the Jimin guy said. Heās still wearing the most beautiful smile.
āNo/NO!ā We both answered and he laughed loudly. God, that was the most endearing laugh Iāve ever heard in my whole life. Laugh again, please.
āOkay, chill. You do look familiar though...ā he stared at me while smiling still. Mama, God wants me to go with this angel and I will comply. Does he ever stop smiling?
āThatās cause I was the one you stole from.ā I blurted out. I donāt know where I got the courage to say something like that because Iām actually an introverted person, but God lend this weak bitch the strength to move forward.
He frowned. āIām not a thief..? I didnāt steal anything from anybody.ā
āYou did, so weāre going to the police and sue you right now.ā Okay God, this might be too much of a strength here.
āWait wait, hold on! What are you talking about?ā He looks utterly confused now, but he still looks like an angel. Ā
Yoongi laughed beside me, which was really surprising to be honest and Jimin looked like he was surprised too. āHyung! Youāre LAUGHING? Whatās so FUNNY about this? I didnāt steal anything at all!ā he pouted and wow, his cheeks are so fluffy I wanna squish.
āOh, you did Jimin ah. Thatās harsh of you to forget, you know. Considering that itās a really big crime. Think again.ā he turned around, and continued, āBy the way, Iāll go ahead now. Will wait for you at the practice room, or if you canāt go, thatās fine as well. Just text me.ā
āWait, hyung!ā he turned to look at me and thought again. āOkay, for real, what did I steal?ā
There was a moment of silence. He looked nervous as if doubting himself for a second, and I just had the urge to hug him and tell him that itās alright but I also want to tell him off for stealing my heart. But I have no right, in reality??Ā
āMy heart.ā This courage--I thank whoever has bestowed this upon me.
āWhat?ā
āYou stole my heart when you bumped into me weeks ago. I told you Iād sue you for not taking any responsibility for it.ā
He stared at me, straight into my eyes as if waiting for me to tell him itās a joke. āYou want to sue ME because I stole your HEART?ā
āUh, yes. It happened almost a week ago, I guess. We bumped into each other on the street, and I shouted at you when you ran away.ā
He looked bemused, then he laughed. āI remember now!ā Then, he looked serious. Okay, wait a minute. I cannot handle the roller-coaster of his emotions. I am: overwhelmed.
āWill you let me off if I let you come with me right now until the end of the night?ā
āWHAT?ā What does he mean until the end of the night??
āNo, like, have dinner afterwards or something. What came into your mind?ā he smiled--a deadly one. Heās aware of his powers, and itās scary.
āNothing.ā I looked away.
āYou sure? Because to me, it looked like you suddenly thought of something embarrassing.ā
āNo, there wasnāt.āĀ
āSo, is that a yes? Because this practice is really important to me, I donāt wanna miss it.ā
I nodded without looking at him, and when I caught a glimpse I saw him smile a little. Is it okay to admit that I have fallen in love already? This soon??
We walked silently until we reached the Arts Building and the people we passed along the way each greeted Jimin with a smile. Itās not a surprise that heās famous because heās literally an angel. āAre you a student here?ā
āYeah, why?ā
Nothing, I just thought of why I havenāt known or ran into you before when youāre this popular on campus. I felt like my whole life was a waste.
But the thought died in my mind as I chose to not answer his question.Ā āFreshman?ā I asked instead.
He smirked at me before answering,Ā āNope. Do I look that young?ā
I suddenly got shy and felt my cheeks burn. I was about to counter his question when he stopped in front of the room labelled as āPractice Room 3ā² and he turned to look at me nervously. āOkay, so weāre here. Youāll meet Yoongi again, and I have a couple of friends who stay here and I donāt want it to be awkward so just be calm. No need to freak out, alright?ā
I chuckled because he looked like he was the one who's already freaking out. āHey, donāt worry. I wonāt mind at all. Besides, Iām the one intruding.ā
He smiled warmly. āYou say that now, but they can get overwhelmingā¦ā
When he opened the door, I saw different kinds of instruments and there was a big couch on the right side of the room where four people were sitting, each one focused on their phones. I saw Yoongi looking up from his phone and he was surprised when he saw me then he looked at Jimin who was scratching the back of his neck, and then he looked at me again and back at Jimin.
āSorry if Iām late. Should we start?ā
They all focused on him now, and then stared at me with surprised looks on their faces. It did get me more embarrassed so I decided to just look at the set-up of the instruments in the room. āWait, youāre part of a band? Like, a real band?ā I asked as I looked at Jimin.
āUh, yeah. You didnāt know?ā
āNo. I didnāt even know you study here, too.ā
āWait, so youāre serious that you only met me when you bumped into me a week ago? And wanted to sue me right that moment?ā
āYep. What, you thought I already knew you before then?ā
āUh huh. I thought maybe,ā he looked away āyou know, that was your way of, I donāt know, like getting close to me?ā
I scrunched my brows at him. āWhat, youāre so full of yourself. I would never go that far.ā
āOh, so suing me for something I didnāt intentionally do is not going that far??ā
He has a point.
āWell, how do I know that wasnāt inten--ā I was interrupted when we heard a sputtering burst of laughter from the other guys in the room. We both looked at them, flustered.
A guy with plump lips and I believe to be a descendant of Aphrodite said, āYa Jimin-ah, is this the girl Yoongi was talking about? I didnāt believe it was true.ā
The one with big doe eyes and who looked like a cute little bunny when he smiles nodded. āHyung, youāre looking very shy right now.ā
Then, a blond guy with dimples so deep stated, āI didnāt think youād bring her here. This is unexpected, truly.ā
āI second that. I thought youād leave her alone or talk it out somewhere.ā Yoongi said.
Jimin looked at his friends and pointed at Yoongi. āYouāre the reason sheās here! You intentionally bumped into her a while ago.ā
It was my turn to ask. āYou did?ā
Yoongi avoided my gaze, and stood up going straight to the piano. āI donāt know what youāre talking about, kid. We should start practice.ā
The others started standing up from the couch. Jimin went to the mic and held the bass guitar, the blond guy with the dimples went on the other side of the room where there was a laptop and a lot of wires and other equipment, the bunny guy went to the drums, and the descendant of Aphrodite went straight to me. He extended his hand and introduced himself.Ā
āHello, itās nice to finally meet you. My nameās Kim Seokjin, but you may know that already.ā
Kim Seokjin. Kim Seokjin. Kim. Seokjin. Doesnāt ring any bell at all. Is he part of the university council?
I shook his hand and smiled. āHi, Iām Y/N. Iām sorry, but I really havenāt heard of you before.ā
He looked surprised and laughed again while slapping his thighs. āOkay, thatās really cute. So you already know Yoongi, I guess?ā I nodded. āThen, let me introduce you to Jungkook, the one playing the drums and thereās Namjoon whoās in charge of recording and other technical stuff. Anyway, you can go ahead and sit on the couch while--wait, Iām assuming youāre waiting for Jimin?ā
āUhā¦ā I looked at Jimin and he was looking at us. He mouthed a āWhat?ā directed to me. āShould I be waiting for you?ā
He looked flustered and avoided my gaze, then he nodded. I looked back at the descendant of Aphrodite, and smiled at him. āSorry for intruding.ā
He was suppressing a laugh and he nodded twice before telling me to sit comfortably on the couch as they will take some time with practice. I said I donāt mind and went to the couch. I looked at Jimin and his friends. How can good-looking humans be allowed to be friends? This is so unfair but I also want to thank God because I was alive to witness it.
While they were tuning their instruments, I decided it would be a good use of my time to do some of my unfinished requirements. I started to clean up on their table as it was full of plastic cups, and instant ramen bowls, when the door suddenly opened and a tall sophisticated man came in. He was wearing glasses, and he looks like the second descendant of Aphrodite. He looked at me and blinked thrice before he went to Seokjin and whispered something. They mumbled to each other for a while, and I continued what I was doing. When I was done, I sat up quietly and started to work on my paper.
To be honest, I was never able to do any of my work. When I was about to start, they started playing a song. Jimin looks like the main vocalist of the band with Seokjin the second with the acoustic guitar with him. The song was Pop Rock, and it was very pleasant to the ears. If Jimin already looks like an angel, how can I describe how he sounds like when he sings?
Is it justifiable to say that his voice sounds so serene to that point that it feels like youāre going to heaven despite all the bad things that youāve done your whole life just because youāve listened to him sing?
Throughout their whole practice, I found myself speechless and completely stunned. They work so well together. It felt like theyāre already recording an album of their own, or like theyāre already performing in a stadium, and their voices sounded so perfect. There was no flaw; truly astounding.
Guy in the glasses who was sitting beside me suddenly spoke up, āAre you with Jimin?ā
āU-uh, yeah.ā I donāt know why I stuttered, but listening and watching the band feels like I was in a completely different world and the question just brought me back to Earth.
He smiled and I noticed that it was one of those boxy smiles that actually looks like a grin, but this oneās a natural. āAh, so youāre that girl! Nice to meet you, by the way. Iām Kim Taehyung. Iām Jin hyungās boyfriend. You can just call me Tae. Iām from the Arts department, and my major is photography. How about you?ā
āOh, Iām Y/N. My majorās Comparative Literature so you may see me spending most of my time at the library writing or reading stuff. Itās very nice to meet you too.ā I said as I started to pack my things little by little while I maintained a decent conversation with him.
āHey, thatās nice! Whatās your favorite book?ā
āI have a lot. Please donāt make me choose, I canāt do it.ā We both laughed.
āWell then, recommend me some books that you like, and Iāll give it a read. Can I have your number? We should keep in touch for that book recommendation.ā
By the time I gave him my number, the band had already stopped playing the second song. They went for a break, and sat on the sofa while discussing some āband stuffā that I couldnāt relate to so Tae kept me company.Ā
Taehyung and I were able to talk about a lot of random things and I found it very comforting. He has a way with his words that makes you feel like whatever you tell him is okay, and heās ready to listen to all of it. I donāt usually like talking with others that much because I canāt keep a conversation going, but I really was able to open up to him more than with anyone else before.
The group went back to practice one last song, and Tae looked at the band softly as if it was a very fragile thing; as if looking at them could break them. He was smiling dearly and he whispered, āI just want to let you know that Jimin doesnāt usually interact with anyone else aside from us, so Iām really happy that he brought someone with him. These people⦠theyāre very important to me. Theyāre my whole family.ā
āItās nice, having a family...ā I wanted to ask him more about Jimin but it seems like Iād be invading a more intimate topic and Iāve only known them as of today. Iāve already been intruding too much.
āIt really is.ā
āOh, that reminds me. Iām sorry if this is out of the blue, but Iām really curious. How did you guys know about me?ā
He looked at me, contemplating on what to say.Ā āActually, we didnāt hear about you from Jimin. Yoongi hyung was the one who told us. He said something about an interesting girl who likes Jimin, and thatās that. Said you guys only bumped into each other, but he gave you Jiminās number. Hyung always had a great eye for people; itās as if he sees something that we donāt.āĀ
I stared at him. I donāt know what to do with that information.Ā
āItās just that when they both came late that night, Yoongi hyung kept reminding Jimin to check his phone from time to time as he may receive a text. So all of us kind of waited for the text and since nothing came up, we accused him of lying. We mustāve been creepy because we all knew about you. Sorry.ā he smiled apologetically.
I was quick to dismiss it because I felt embarrassed.Ā āNo, itās okay. Iām actually very embarrassed because I know Iām intruding, and we didnāt really meet normally, you know. I donāt know what youāve heard from Yoongi about how we met. Also, this is only the second time and we havenāt introduced ourselves formally--ā
āWait. You still havenāt introduced yourselves to each other? You and Jimin?āĀ
I smiled shyly at Tae and looked at Jimin.Ā āYeah. I only know his name is Jimin because thatās how Yoongi called him a while ago. Also, Iām not sure as to why he brought me here or something, Iām just going with the flow? Iām really sorry.ā
It was his turn to laugh.Ā āOh my, you guys are so funny! I have absolutely no words.ā The band started wrapping up by this time, and I suddenly want to run away when it all sank in how unusual and totally embarrassing I am.Ā
As soon as I saw Jimin walking to me, I immediately want to disappear. He smiled at me and asked me if we should already go. I feel hot all over, itās as if Iām going to have a fever. I donāt have the courage to look at him anymore, the one that was lent to me has already expired. I just want to be swallowed whole by the ground.Ā
āHey?ā he tried to look into my eyes, and I looked at Taehyung asking for help through telepathy and he just laughed at me.
āItās okay, you guys can go. We have already finished talking, anyway.ā He said while flailing his hands dismissively, and left us both on the couch. Noooo!
āAre you okay?ā Jimin asked, worry evident in his eyes.
I tried to look at him, and failed.Ā āUh, sure. I mean, yes. Letās go. Oh. Where are we going?ā
He smiled at me.Ā āHow about we talk at the park behind the building first?ā
āOkay, sounds good.ā No, it doesnāt sound good. I did not think this through. Iām not ready for this.
Jimin waved goodbye to the group, and I smiled at them before leaving. We walked silently towards the park, and the people greeted Jimin the same way they did when we got here.
Heās glowing. Wherever he goes, itās like the light follows him.
We arrived at the park he was talking about, and we sat side by side on a bench waiting for someone to start a conversation. We both were looking at the students passing by the park and kept silent for a while until I started to have the courage to talk to him.
āIām sorry. I didnāt mean to make things awkward for you and your friends. Also, I mustāve creeped you out with how we met or the things I was saying. But it was true, you know. I mean, just some of it. I wonāt sue you, I promise.ā I blurted out.
He laughed at look at me intently.Ā āHey, itās alright. Iām not mad or anything. But shouldnāt we get introduced with each other first?ā
āRight. Iām Y/N and I major in Comparative Literature. Iām graduating next semester.ā I extended my hand to him for a handshake and he took it immediately while smiling.Ā
āIām Jimin. I major in dance. Iām also hoping to graduate next semester.ā
We talked for a while about our major and how he bumped into me that night due to the gig that they were catching up to. Jimin was a kind person, his smile never faded the whole time we were talking and I found out that it was very easy to make him laugh. He shared a lot of stories about their gigs and their adventures as friends. It was normal and simple talk about his life and some of mine. He kept the conversation going, and he never ran out of things to say.
It was already dark, and the lamp posts started to lit up. Jimin was still talking about his professor who keeps forgetting stuff, and Iām just staring at him. His eyes turn a crescent shape when he smiles, and he looks genuinely happy. The kind of happy when you give a child a lollipop or candy.Ā
He was like a twinkling star when he talks. He lights up the darkness surrounding us. Looking at him on this moment makes me think how many stars are there in the universe. It also makes me think if anyone can shine bright than the one star in front of me--I bet not.
summary: park jimin is part of a band on their college, and theyāre famous because of it. one day, he bumped into a girl and i guess you can say that his life was changed forever. the good thing is, it was the same for her.
[friends to lovers!au, college!au]
pairing: park jimin x female reader
genre/tags: fluff, comedy (hopefully lol)
a/n: hello! actually, this has been sitting on my drafts for a while now (i have a lot in my drafts but iām too lazy to write sometimes lmao). since this will be the first one iāll be posting here, iām quite excited and nervous hehe. i hope you give a lot of love for this au. and i sincerely appreciate any feedback you have with my writing so please do comment or leave feedback! iām aiming for this au to be short and light, so hopefully, it would only be five chapters. here it goes... enjoy reading!
Chapter 1: Prologue
The world went into a stop--a complete pause.
Sure, it hurt. I felt hurt when my arm was pushed by some stranger whoās running from who-knows-what and I was so ready to burst out when I looked at him and he looked at me, and I swear to God, the world went into a stop. Just like how itās usually seen in the movies.
I was completely stunned. I canāt even say if stunned is the right word for it, but my headās blank. His hair was silver and it shone brightly under the streetlight. He was wearing a simple plain white v-neck shirt with black ripped jeans, and he smiled brightly at me. I couldnāt even see his eyes when he did; I just know that it was the most beautiful smile the world could offer. He was magnificent, and he initially wiped off all the bad things that happened today.
He abruptly stopped. āAre you okay?ā
Yes, I wanted to answer but the words didnāt come out. He is dazzling, and I may look dumb for staring right into his soul, but I really canāt help it. Itās like he put a spell on me by simply bumping into me.
āIām sorry, Iām really in a hurry.ā He looked behind me and dashed off.
Thatās when it hit me--
Heās a thief.
āHey!ā I shouted at him while he continued to run away from the spot where he hit me. āYou canāt just run off after stealing my heart like that! Pay for your crime, thief!ā He was still running by this time but he turned his head for a while only to smirk at me.
That was when the world stopped for real this time.Ā
The people on the street stopped walking to look at me; some were laughing, some were filming, I donāt know. I must have completely lost it because I wouldnāt be doing something like this if I was in my right mind.
I stupidly hid my face using my hands in hopes of redeeming myself, and slowly turned back when I bumped into someone--again. Today is really shitty, but whatās with me bumping people twice? My eyes were on the road I was walking on!
While I was secretly getting pissed off at me for being me, the person I bumped into held my arms and asked, āAre you okay?ā
I hesitated to look at whoever it was, but my mind was winning on the good side argument and kept telling me to say sorry and move on. āYes, I am. No worries, you can move along now.ā I said as I stepped aside so I can finally go home.
āHey, Iām sorry about my friend back then. We needed to catch something so⦠Anyway, he isnāt usually like that.ā So theyāre friends, huh. Is this some kind of modus because when I turned to look at him, this guy looked handsome as well.
I noticed that he was carrying a guitar on his back. He looks so pale (maybe if thereās a male version of Snow White heās perfect for the role), and heās wearing an all-black outfit together with his cap.
āDonāt worry. I canāt actually sue him, right?ā I said while clenching my backpack strap.
āWait, you want to sue him? Because he bumped into you?ā He looked surprised.
āNo, silly.ā I smiled at him, and hearing my answer made him relaxed as well. Iām actually the silly one here, but... āI want to sue him for stealing my heart and running just like that.ā This time, the guy in front of me was really shocked and he held his guitar bag tightly on his shoulders⦠and then, laughed.
Was I joking, though? No, I wasnāt.
I was about to go my way and be completely done with whatever happened today when he grabbed me by the elbow. āWhat?ā I asked, confused.
āYou know, I can just give you his number.ā He smiled.
āWhy would I want his number?ā
He was writing something on a piece of paper from a small notepad, and he gave part of it to me. āNo reason. Iām giving it anyway.ā
āNo, thanks.ā I smiled, and it may be the most sincere smile I made the whole day. Letās be honest, we all know I want his number but I refuse to get it in this way. Refrain, self.Ā āIām not the kind of person who ask people for their number.ā
āOkay, then. Such a shame.ā He crumpled the piece of paper and tucked it in his jeansā pocket. He calmly turned around and continued to walk.Ā
I stared at him.Ā
I stared at my empty hand.
Then it happened.
I ran to the guitar guy, and held his wrist. āAbout the numberā¦ā I couldnāt look into his eyes. āWell, if you insist on giving it to me, Iāll have no choice but to take it.ā Says the one who really wanted to have his number.
He smirked, and I hate it. āYouāre cute.ā He handed the crumpled paper to me and said, āThank you, Yoongi-ah,ā putting emphasis on the name. āThatās me. Iām really gonna go now. Contact him or setting aside you pride will be a waste. Bye!ā
If heās going to give the guyās number, he should have written the name as well. Anyway, I looked at the piece of paper in my hand, and stared at it for a minute or two, then I made my way home.Ā
āItās you who made us realize our dream and if we BTS, our music or show can support you not just for your dream but in your life, if we can cut your pain and sorrow just little down, if we can help you, thatās enough to prove who we are.ā -Namjoon
hello! it has been a decade (i think?) since i last visited this blog.Ā
i only have 24 posts here, and the aura these give are just too depressing for the current me. even though, this blog really means a lot to me so i donāt just feel like deactivating it and creating a new one. instead, i would like to turn this as my writing works archive.Ā
most of it might be alternate universe for BTS so i hope you enjoy and i hope to meet a lot of new friends here. letās interact! <3
There was a moment when she knew that what came to fruition between the two of them was more than enough. She may have never twined their fingers, like the new oneās done. She may never have felt his warmth, like the new one has had in earnest. She may never have been able to delve in the sensation of his lipsābut she knows for certain she made a whole different kind of impact in his soul, beyond the casing of his skin. The kind that, years later, even after the aftershocks have ceded, the spirit subconsciously searches for. She knows, eventually, heāll look at things (little thingsānot even ones that scream at him, but ones that carefully glide into the center of his chest) and itāll knock him over, push his breath away, wrench weight into the column of his throat, and urge his voice to sound, āwhat have I done?ā. Sheās made the kind of impact that involves a little soul searching; and all of the scavenging will come from his end, never hers. Not anymore.