I love when a song can take your breath away. Like literally feeling breath being taken away from your lungs and just holding your breath for the rest of the song because the beat, melody and lyrics are so damn captivating. If I made playlist of breath taking songs I’d be passed out bliss on the floor.
Show me through eyes what you feel inside
Show me through your actions what you cannot hide
Dream of me when you sleep at night
Because on the other side of the moon im dreaming too
Believe me when i say i want you forever
Eternity is more i like it cause our spirits go together
All i want
All i need
Ur my home where im suppose to be
We might see distance but our love knows no bounds
Ur my god dream the world is ours
We take it by storm we hold it by grip
You hold my hand so i never trip
By those who doubt, hate and shame us
Were the choosen ones they'll forever blame us
Validation and love we recieve from above
Two whole people who can truly love
Ur my strength and im your weakness our balance of power
Free to live
Free to be
Free to love
Each other for eternity
"My heart. Is it enough for you?"He looked so confused yet so adorable but that's the love talking.
"Is this enough? My heart. Is it enough for you?"
Silence took over and he just stared. So i continued
"I know the life I choose to live is different from yours but i want this to work. I want us to work. My heart is what i can give, its what I’m willing to give you. Who I am, my soul is I want you to get to know. My mind wants intelligent and stupid conversation with you. My heart, soul and mind is what I’m offering you and have offered it to the others before you who wanted the same thing as you do now, relationship. But my body, that is for one, the one. The one who will get down on one knee and ask for my hand in marriage. The one who will put a ring on my finger and commit his life to me in front of all those we love. The one who will stay through the good, the bad and the ugly. The one who will say and promise these things but actually follow through. Then he'll get to have me completely mind, body, heart and soul. Have a claim on in a way no one else will ever have. And he'll honor that. And I will be honored to give that only to him. So is this enough?"
He exhaled a breath.
"Yes. Its more than enough and when I get down on one knee, ask for your hand in marriage which of course you'll say yes and marry you in front of everyone we love and the others we tolerate i will love, cherish and honor all of you. Mind, body, heart and soul for the rest of my life"
I smiled. Blissfully speechless not expecting that at all. Then he spoke again
"But until then i plan on keeping that heart of yours with me and happy with our intelligent and stupid conversations getting to know you down to your soul. Our forever starts today."
-JMH
You came like you owned my town but you and i both knew you’re from Arizona. The start of summer, you, being the new kid, me, being the loner. Me, by choice, you, without one. But you were fast, somehow everyone heard through some grape vine about the new tall, tan, pacific ocean blue eyed boy from Yuma, Arizona. But I wasn't impressed by you. You were what 6'2, basketball players are taller than that. Tan more bronze from the hot Arizona sun. Pacific ocean I'd say more like tropics you had this hint of green in them that made me curious about you. Ok. I was a little impressed. Us once strangers now neighbors but still strangers. Tonight being the "End of the school year" bonfire I knew it was going to be a good night, but also something inside me told me it was going to be an unforgettable one.(skip to the bonfire) cheers As the crowd threw their papers the flames arose and so did our voices done with yet another of hell also known as school. Standing among the crowd i was mesmerized by the flames but i felt something staring at me so i looked straight head of me. It was you ,the new kid, mesmerized by me. So i stayed
staring but you were lost in the thought of me not knowing i was starting back. But in a moment it was like someone stirred you awake and noticed me looking at you. Then you smirked at me with all the cockiness your body could possibly provide. I felt a fiery furnace of annoyance burn inside of me and all possibilities of him being genuine disappeared. I didn't know why just felt this way I didn't even know him but i just went with it. So i rolled eyes and turned to walk away. Before i could fully turn from the corner of my eye i could see his smirk go to a frown but i didn't care. I couldn't help but feel like i was being followed or following i really couldn't decide but every single group i socialized with you near talking to the next pretty girl. Flirting i assume trying find a summer fling. Ha i'd never be so stupid. So i decided walk closer to the ocean away from the crowd. It was quiet and peace washed over me as i watched the ocean. I stood with a clear mind forgetting about the world around me.
Then i felt someone grab my arm and say "what are you doing here all alone?" I jumped, screamed and ripped my arm away all at same time. I looked at the scared boy, eyes wide and hands up in a sign of surrender. Feeling so overwhelmed i calmed knowing it was just him. I put one hand on my heart to make sure it was still there while trying to catch my breathe.
"Dude(breathe) what the hell is wrong with you?" "S-sorry i didn't know you were going to react like that. You scared me half to death." "You? What about me? I thought you were some murderer. I literally jumped out of my skin" Heart finally slowed to its normal rate and standing up straight. Then it got silent for a moment. "So....you gonna answer my question" "What?" "What are you doing all alone?" "Well...wait..why do you care?" "I was just asking" with his hands up in a mock surrender "Well probably as saw when you walking over here i feel at peace. Then that got ruined when you came along." "Ha.. i said i was sorry" "Whatever" while rolling my eyes. "Ugh do you not like me or something?" He tilts his head to the side. Truly curious. "U irritate me!" I said with emphasis. "U don't even know me" he says with a smug smile "Its how you act!" I stated obviously irritated "Like how?" Clearly enjoying every minute of this which made so angry. "U walk around here like you own the place, the way smirk and how you were talking to all those girls. " " first of all i just moved here and so what if feel like i have no competition, its not my fault. Second whats wrong with my smirk, nothing. And third i was just trying to make friends..but all this means you were watching me" "That’s so not the point." "You were watching me and got jealous?" "I was not" "Yeah you were but that's okay I’m all yours. you've just got to say two words" he steps closer to her. She froze and hes right in front of her. "I...i..i...what words" "Kiss. Me. Then i’m all yours" One movement of her lips and they'd be touching. She didn't know what to do. She started to think hard. I don't even know him or his name. He really could be murderer. I don't want to kiss a murderer even if he was an attractive one. Yeah, i’m not doing this, we're not do this right? Nope we are not doing this. Just as she barely opened her mouth to say something he cashed his lips against hers. He rested his hands on his hips. Her eyes shot open with surprise and put her hands up as they felt lost. But then something felt right and her eyes closed and her hands found their way onto his shoulders. She finally kissed him back. He pulls her closer on to him and continued the kiss. Her just following his lead and getting completely lost in the moment. He put very emotion he possibly could into that kiss then slowly pulled away. He looked into eyes and she was still lost in the moment.
He asks "whats 2+2"
"What?"
"Just answer"
"Um.... i know this...ugh... its not coming to me" i giggled at the end.
Then a large smile creeps on his face. "Good. I did my job"
He walks away and i watch him as he rejoins the crowd. He starts talking to a group of guys and the turns to look at me. He catches me staring and smiles. I turn away quickly back toward the ocean. My hand reaches for my lips as they still tingle from the kiss. I look down and smile at the ground. At that moment i knew that boy was going to get me into a lot trouble and a lot fun.
I want people to see my creations and gain hope and not hide the little faith they have left in this world
I just want to make people feel something, anything
I don’t want people to feel alone. I want people to feel understood and relate to my work. To feel compatible because I feel what they do, I want what they want and I dream just like they do.
That’s what I want
understanding hearts
compatible souls
& relatable minds
- JMH
12/08/16 Thursday
5:59 pm
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Song while writing: Let it be me by Ray LaMontagne