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somedays, i want to curl up and die.

but before i can think of that,

i really just want to curl up into your side.

let the words overflow and spill out of my mouth

while you listen.

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play with my hair,

kiss my forehead,

lay your hand on my thigh,

as you convince me otherwise.

until dawn cracks and birds cry

to tell us that it has been too long.

.

i used to think our love was so strong

that it could beat any distance,

but look at where this false belief brings us.

nowhere.

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dear body,

forgive me

for treating you the way i did.

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i’m sorry that i have fed you too much

and that i’ve fed you too little.

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i’m sorry for the terrible posture

that leaves you aching for hours.

.

i’m sorry for not letting you rest

when you want to sleep.

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i’m sorry for cursing you

when you don’t fit in these

tight skinny jeans.

.

i’m sorry i don’t appreciate you enough

every crevice and curve

everything you do to keep me alive

even the shedding of my uterine line.

.

i’m sorry for hurting you

when i really want to hurt someone else.

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i’m sorry for tearing you down

when just like me,

you are trying to do your best.

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forgive me, please,

you’ve done so much,

let me return this unrequited love,

through this poem;

and one day, we shall overcome.

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[jojadhavpoetry]

you are a gift to this world.

.

you are so much more

than who you think you are.

.

you are so much more

than who you say you are.

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you are so much more

than the clothes you wear.

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you are so much more

than the house you live in.

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you are so much more

than your toxic friends.

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and you’re so much more

than your ignorant family.

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you are a gift to this world;

don’t ever forget that.

.

you are not bound by who you are now,

or who you were then.

you can become anything.

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when he and his friends are out,

they become the princes of Rome.

gathering on the top of their terraces

as if they were of Babylon.

drunken and dazed

like they had Dionysus’ wine.

drunken and amazed

they laugh and sing into the night.

.

when it’s morning here,

on my side of the globe;

wherever i am,

wherever i may roam,

i mope.

i’ll never be a part

of your world.

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mother,

don’t feel guilty or proud

when i say that all you did

is why i want different things now.

.

i have bigger dreams now

because you had none.

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i don’t want to get married too soon

because i don’t need a man to push through.

my desire to become a mother died too

because i’m afraid i’ll turn out like you.

.

mother;

don’t feel guilty or pleased

when i say that what you did

is the reason i am who i am now.

.

i’m loud because you made no noise.

i’m bold because you’re far too coy.

i’m outspoken because you didn’t use your voice.

i choose because you didn’t have a choice.

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don’t limit me even if it’s for my own good

i know they don’t understand but i’ll make sure i’m understood.

don’t tell me to back down, even if they’ll come for me

i am not you, you are not me.

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everyone has a turn

to pick my appearance apart.

how slim i’ve gotten

and now i was just too skinny.

how my hair lost its life

so thin and frizzy.

now my face is sunken and sullen

and once it was full.

tell me that she made my favorite

but i don’t eat as much as i used to.

.

it seems like they forgot

how they’re all at fault.

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they’d point out my pudgy tummy

every time i gained weight.

my mom told me to slow down

as they marveled at how i ate.

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things like these weigh on a child’s mind.

forever a stain on my life.

.

your weekend’s spot-the-difference puzzle

is something you leave behind.

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as weeks turn to months

and months turn to years,

i can only remember the good parts,

the ones that rarely come.

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instead of all that went wrong,

the standing silence,

and all you’ve never done.

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like when you’d tell me to stay

or that we should do this again

laying your head on my little ribcage

slowly rising and falling with each breath.

.

every time i try again

i expect something different

something new.

maybe this time you’d come through!

you would change!

but some things stay the same.

.

as weeks turn to months

and months turned to years,

i thought i’d learn to let go

because i lost so much.

.

but i only hoped for more

for better

for you to be more than you’ll ever be

the unattainable.

.

as weeks turn to months

and months turned to years

i’m learning how to forget.

which should be easy,

because i don’t even see you.

out of mind; out of sight

but you’ll never be see-through.

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i only see things

the way i want to see them.

.

i always see someone whose life is hard

instead of someone who breaks my heart.

instead of someone who isn’t good enough.

.

my friends told me i had to lose you

but i really didn’t want to

listen to them, justifying your loose ends,

convincing them that you’re a good friend,

and even better in person.

.

it’s not that you aren’t a good person.

i’ll always believe and see that.

you just weren’t good to me

and it’s not my job to disprove that.

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so i shall let this go;

little by little,

step by step,

hand by hand.

.

only you have the chance

to bring this back.

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the fog

the tea

the train.

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i can’t wait to come back

and make this my bed.

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i hate winter.

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the hours sitting inside

watching the snow pile up.

hearing about families

getting together to have fun.

corny music plays everywhere you go

crowds follow you to every department store.

passing by children making snowmen

i don’t even bother to give them a hand.

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winters slow me down

reminds me of what i can’t have.

worsens my loneliness

and my need for a good laugh.

but it’s preoccupied with someone else.

can this mug of hot chocolate warm-up my sad?

seems everyone has forgotten who i am.

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[jojadhavpoetry]

no sugar in my tea, please

no butter on my bread

and no cream in my coffee.

.

i say i’ve developed the habit

because my dad had type two diabetes

the habit of drinking

bland, watery, gingery tea.

.

i don’t know when to

i don’t know when not to

indulge

or control.

is this what it is?

indulging,

controlling.

.

i thought i’d know how to eat normally by now

how to eat without worrying

eating when everyone’s eyes are piercing

through my body, back, and arms,

how not to think about it,

because no one’s looking.

.

none is better than a little,

a little feels like too much

like a grave mistake i shouldn’t have done

so i decide i need none

because none is enough.

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perhaps i’m too hard on myself

but it’s better than far-flung anxiety

controlling the little things

keeps me from feeling like a failure, unhealthy;

i forced myself to enjoy rather gross, unpleasant tea.

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“practice what you preach”

but sometimes people have to break.

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people will make mistakes

we can’t always be saints.

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people will veer off course

and look for shelter in the shade.

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people need someone to listen

as their heart releases the rain.

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someone who doesn't echo what they already know.

“i know, i know, i know”.

.

don’t tell me what i need to do

and “this is what’s good for you”

i know that too,

.

i just want you to know

that i’m not perfect.

even good girls need an outlet.

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even music can’t make me happy

the cold has seeped inside of me.

my bad habits have picked up again

and my friends appear to be the enemy.

.

pushing through the day

a huge blur of gray

november december january

halloween christmas thanksgiving.

.

daylight savings gave me time to dwell

not sleep.

this time of year makes me

think of all the promises i couldn’t keep.

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it’s all just a moment;

spring comes, and the snow thaws.

winter is pretty and peaceful, now it’s gone

i question why i was sad at all.

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[jojadhavpoetry]

“if you weren’t a girl,

i would hit you.”

“i would hit you,

but you’re a girl

so i won’t.”

.

i’m sorry i was born

with identical chromosomes,

two ovaries,

and a uterus;

that you weren’t able to use your beloved, “male”, instinctive weapon:

your fist.

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i looked out on the horizon and watched the sun set.

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i knew you would’ve loved it if you were here.

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it’s a shame you decided to leave;

who knew what you’d be missing.

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who knew i’d have so much fun on my own.

it’s lovely to know i’m killing it.

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i used to be a girl who was carefree and bright

i created my own world and lived in my mind.

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i don’t know where but i must’ve left her behind

i grew up and decided to live a dull life.

.

if i could i’d tell her smile’s a light

to keep on doing what’s right.

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to never back down when she doesn’t know why

and convince her that everything would be alright.

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tell me all about it:

the places you’ve been

the people you’ve met

their wishes, desires, and wildest dreams.

.

even if you’ve told me before

tell me again, please;

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i love seeing your eyes light up

everytime you speak.

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