Today is just shitty. My back is aching, as If Im an old lady. I was wanting to go shopping today because I really need some everyday boots. My current ones have a 3x3 cm hole in them and it's snowy so that's bad. I was thinking a pair of Dr Martens and I was really looking forward to getting new ones, but I want someone to go with me because they are very expensive so want it to be right. But my sister is busy with her bf, as always. And my dad had to make lunchboxes. And my bf is playing a ice bandy game. And I have noone else. He went 10:30 and wont be home until 17. When he comes home we have to rush the dinner aswell, because it's my grandfathers birthday so Im going there for coffee and cake to be bored and be-littled for some hours, which is exactly how I like spending my sundays. I also need to shop a present the bf for his birthday this wednesday. But going shopping in snow when the only shoes I have are Converse, boots with holes, high winter shoes that are like a slip-n-slide and platform heels; then it's not worth it when I have to go alone, my mind and body just both say no. My laptop broke. Ive had it for 3,5 and it's been my faithful companion but now the fan - of all things - is "not functioning correctly" so I guess I have to buy a new computer. So Im at home with 5 awful TV channels and only shows that were designed to kill braincells, I have no laptop, no books and my bf changed his password on the stationary computer - now of all days, when hasnt changed it for years - and I cant get in touch with him. So Im stranded in boredom and depression. I even tried to fix my laptop. Just thought I'd check the fan and see if it might be just a layer of dust that's the problem, but I cant get the fucker open. All the instructional pdfs dont look like the laptop so I'm afraid I'll just ruin it. Tried and failed. It's all going to shit today. I feel so sorry for myself right now. And I do not want my bf to come home, he'll only try and fix everything and require my attention. And I do not want to go to my grandfather's where everybody in my selfish family requires my attention. I want to be alone with a functioning laptop and draw in illustrator and eat pasta, by myself. And I dont want my laptop to be dead. I love that fucking thing. It's my most valuable possession, really. It's a freedom-maker that entertains me and keeps me creative with all it's programs and I can travel with it anywhere. But it just fucking died on me! I hope it's just a minor kink that I can solve myself somehow. People do that all the time, right? There has to be a way. Im not ready to leave it behind, not like this. I'vee been thinking of buying a new one for a while just for better doing my work, but I always thought that I would still have my oldie in case I needed it. And Ive been blocked from 9gag! All i have is my phone and the only watchable entertainment to cheer me up is 9gag, but when I try to go on the site it just says "It works!" in the left corner and everything else is white. The page works on my bfs phone and one the computer, but not on my phone. I think the fuckers have blocked me, and I dont understand why. Fuck this day, really hard. Can I ask my bf to sleep at his mom's or is that too mean? It's probably too mean. He's a sweet guy. He's even cut down on the gaming, emmensly, for me. He tries, the fool, and I should be kinder to him. But I'm a selfish arse. fuck everybody else!!!!
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