This isn't how I wanted my first art dump to go, but you guys deserve some sort of update on my current situation.
I thought things finally slowed down when I made my last post... i was doing so well and feeling better! but I was horrible wrong. Life got way too much and hectic way too fast... There is so much happening all at once, one right after another, leaving no space for me to breathe. Even the littlest normal things that shouldn't overwhelm me OVERWHELM ME!
I am okay, my homelife isn't bad! I'm safe and surrounded with love and support! I'm just... Tired... I'm so tired.... for YEARS... i've been socially drained... im.. tired of people, and i hate thinking and saying that! Because I have nothing against people! I want to be around others, friends, and family! But even a few hours of socializing makes me want to burrow away in my bed and sleep for a year or two.
It's because I can't support myself... not yet anyways... I feel like I have no control over my life. I've always had to adapt to other's schedules and routines... never takeing things at my own pace. It's extremely exhausting, and I can't say no because it's just helping family... and I love my family...
I feel selfish wanting to get away, but it isn't... isn't it? You can love people and still have boundaries... love from a distance...
So... I'm sorry for disappearing and worrying anyone, but I'm NOT sorry for trying to function and get better... even if that means separating from social media, and just because I'm not posting doesn't mean I'm not drawing and making progress, because I am! but I'm going to do it at my own pace.
That's the one thing I can control. So please, be patient with me because I AM TRYING and will never give up on drawing.
||Oh! ps. Sketch is alright. He's just happy that I'm back.... and mad, lol.||
I'll be okay.. I promise 😌
|| welp! Hope yall enjoy my little vent art (and ranting). It helps to get it out.See you next time, goobers! Stay safe and take the time to be kind to yourself.||