Letters To Those I've Lost

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

From Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another by Jan Heller Levi (via hush-syrup)

[jswrites]

You made me want to be a better writer

So I could finally find words

To define the ways you destroyed me

[flowerytale]

Virginia Woolf, from The Waves

[jswrites]

I held a hollow thought

Was our love only real to me

j.s.

[remanence-of-love]

[serratedpens]

Lightsey Darst, The Year in Pictures

[jswrites]

I think you are the greatest friend I’ll ever know.

[jswrites]

I fell through it

Woke up with broken teeth and shaking fists

Grasping at shattered glasses

An unbearable ringing in my ears

Yet my legs buckled at the knees

And I stayed on hardwood floors

Head bowed I’d wait til the sun rose again

I am who I became

Beneath the hands of another

Regrettable in my sacrifices

Sacrificial in calamitous defeat

[poppiesandpromises]

A serious query, a curious mind

For all who have seen fit to find

Pleasure in simply being mean

Leaving bruises, black, blue and green

Did it fill the hole inside?

Massaging your fragile pride?

Does the blood ever wash away?

Did you think it was okay?

I never understood, hope I never do

The part that's damaged inside you

You're little more than broken glass

Wounding everyone you pass

[morepeachyogurt]

marlena by julie buntin

[jswrites]

[jswrites]

Even my hate for you is soft

I never owed you that

j.s.

[jswrites]

I pray these impacts don’t destroy you

And you forget the holes you’ve carved

At night I fear your future dwindles

From the monstrosity you’ve become

I replaced the space I had love for you with your empty bottles of regret

I don’t know who collects them now or throws your keys behind your head

I pray the streetlights still burn on

When you rest your head on the dash

I pray the horns blare in your ears

If the ringtones fade to dead

I know the caps are twisted off, your arms slumped on the wheel

I’ll keep choking on the breath of losing you like them

My only fear that is still real

j.s.

[britinthepnw]

[jswrites]

Do you know the difference between guilt and shame? No of course not I never got that far  Everything has been my fault for so long that In the year you spent filling me with Criminality For the things that went wrong inside of you My mind has departed from the regret  You beat into me To feeling like my whole being was the reason

j.s.

[deviika]

Jane O. Wayne // Kate Jacobs

[jswrites]

I am certain that this grief will last a lifetime

To replace the one you’ll never have

j.s.