TW: abandonment, breakdown, self-hatred, possible panic/anxiety attack, self-harm implications. Please remember this is fictional, read with caution if you're triggered by any of these.
Ju has been staring at the table where the envelope was for over 30 minutes now. She finally stood up and went over to it, picking it up and then going to her bedroom, sitting on the edge of her bed, and opening the envelope. When she began readed the letter, she realized it was wirtten in Spanish, it was definitely Eira's letter, specially with that handwriting.
//writing the letter in english because I don't want to write it two times :3//
'Lee, I'm writing this letter to you to tell you that I'm sorry. I know you must be wondering why I decided to leave in the first place, i didn't want to abandon you, I wanted to protect you. I've done things I'm not exactly. . . proud of, and I know those things would've affected you. But I promise you it was not your fault, you did absolutely nothing wrong, Lee. I just wanted to let you know that I'm doing okay, still pretty cold if you ask me, and I'd like to ask you to please, stop looking for me. Believe me when I say that it will have a negative effect on your life if you ever find me, I'm. . . not the same person you knew four years ago. I'd love to see you again, trust me, but it's better if you stop searching for me. Just remember, I love you, Lee.
-Eira'
Ju stared at that letter. She couldn't believe what she just read. Her hands were shaking, she felt so many feelings in the moment she couldn't identify them. Did she felt anger? Did she felt sadness? Did they feel disappointment? Did he feel emotionally numb? They didn't know.
Whatever feeling she felt, it was certaint that those feelings had been bottled up for a long time, and they snapped at it. She threw the letter to the floor, tears falling down her cheeks hesitantly, as they were trying to hold them back.
Eventually she just bursted into crying, you could hear the pain in each sob and cry. Anyone would think they're just overreacting, but they aren't. Like, imagine: spending the past years trying to find your brother who DISAPPEARED, just to be told by him to just give up? Of course Ju's gonna feel this way!
All they ever wanted was to be able to reunite with her brother, with Eira, the only family she had left after they both left the place were they came from.
She was crying loudly, she was probably gonna get complains from the neighboors from making too much noise, but she couldn't care less in this moment. She was feeling suffocated by her own thoughts, it was difficult to breath, they were not in a good mindset, and were not in their five senses.
Everything felt suddenly too much for her to stand, she felt dizzy, she wanted to rip off her skin, bite it out until everything was better. She hasn't had a breakdown like this since Eira left.
She just felt hopeless after readint that letter
But it was not her fault, was it?
She couldn't be mad at him.
It was her brother after all.
But who knew that her own family could hurt her so much.
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