Feyre archeron

Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Ongoing recovery from binge ed. Only trying to be positive here. Please don’t follow if anything related to the above could be triggering to you. ♥️

[financeprincess]

Sorry to break it to you but you literally have to face your fears and slaughter them. Otherwise you will live a small life that you do not want. You literally have to view your biggest fears and attack them head on. You have to fall into the abyss to find your way out. The easy path does not exist. There is no get out of jail free card. You have to allow yourself to die a spiritual death over and over again in order to reinvent yourself into the person you are actually supposed to be. And you have to be painfully honest with yourself and the people around you. It’s horrible but it’s truly the only way.

[julliett-warner]

I really feel like I’m cursed. I am a really big failure.

I disappoint my family again and again. When I was younger, I used to be one of the gifted kids. I was so smart and fast, and everyone praised me for it. I have lost that in adulthood. Fell from grace. I feel like everyone who used to know me 5 years ago, they all laugh at me now, seeing how I have managed to ruin my life and waste my potential.

Everything is fucked

I hate myself to the core. There is not one thing that I like about myself. All I am is a waste of space.

[cryyxstar]

Dear body,

If you're hungry then there's a lot of saved energy right inside those humongous thighs so please don't hold back and start b¡ng¡ng on that f4t already!

[julliett-warner]

I want to be the skinny friend for once in my life😞😞

[julliett-warner]

For me, the best motivation to get thin is scrolling on zara. Their models are bone thin and most of the clothes are made to fit someone who has no body fat🎀

[julliett-warner]

Thank you to everyone who got me to 2500 likes!

[julliett-warner]

I want to superglue my lips together 🫠

[feelingbloo]

talking like an addict when i binge "noooooo no its fine. i can stop whenever i want, its not like its gonna affect me or anything. im in control." anyway i dont wanna know how much i weigh rn

[julliett-warner]

Late nights are always the hardest when restricting. Like I did so good today and ate <800 cals the whole day and at 1 am I suddenly get so ravenous😭 But I didn’t eat anything so proud of me for that one.

It’s so unfair how easy it is to gain weight and how difficult it is to lose. People just say don’t eat, but you don’t know how my brain works. Sometimes I get so hungry that not eating is not even an option. I lose all logic and reasoning. I get so anxious, and my mind will not slow down until I eat something. It usually happens once a week. But still thats a lot. I really hate my mind, even more than my body.

[julliett-warner]

Hot girls don’t binge.

Hot girls feel full after eating greek yogurt and a banana.

Hot girls get nauseous after seeing something fried and oily. Hot girls can’t even finish a burger in a single setting.

Hot girls do pilates every morning.

Hot girls have great skin because they eat clean.

[julliett-warner]

Lost 2 kgs in about 4 days. Im happy but also scared that it will come back as quickly as it was lost.

[julliett-warner]

Hey today Im just going to rant about life 🫠

I feel like I can’t even do one thing right in my life. Like I am not doing great academically, and I can’t seem to lose weight either. Life is too hard sometimes and I don’t understand how for some people, everything just happens easily. If you’re born rich, have good genetics, then you’re u just have an advantage from the start. And I have to word twice as hard as everyone to be in the same playing field. It’s not like I’m lazy or im not doing enough. I know I am doing my best, but its still not enough. I tried thinking positively, manifesting and blah blah but I can’t seem to achieve any of my goals. Why? I know no one likes to hear someone complain but today i don’t want to be positive or productive, I just want to complain about everything. I wish I was skinny, blonde and pretty so I could just find a man and be a trad wife at home, not having to worry about grades or jobs. It really sounds amazing.

[julliett-warner]

Does meanspo ever work? I feel like it pushes me into a self hatred cycle and then I break and stop caring about everything and stop trying to be healthy, as if rebelling against the bully (who’s me 90 % of the time).

As someone who’s been fatshamed in real life, I really really hate it, and it feels the same here when I see people posting random peoples photos as what not to be (fatspo).

Tumblr was fun at first but now its starting to take a real toll on my mind. Whenever I open it I just feel intense self hate. It’s not all because of tumblr, but it definitely has gotten bad. Can someone relate?

I don’t know if its even supposed to work. I often feel like its a way for people to bully themselves and others on this site.

[julliett-warner]

I just want to cut all the fat on my body with a scalpel.

I want my soul to be transferred to a skinny body.

I want a brain transplant, a new brain which isn’t fucking depressed and anxious all the time.

I am at a point of my life where I don’t like one thing about myself. Not even one.

[julliett-warner]

The biggest motivation is seeing results for your actions. I just lost 1.5 kg in 2 days because I got sick and had no appetite.

It’s literally so easy to lose weight, all you have to do is not eat. My appetite has been controlling me for a long time, but now I need to control it.

[julliett-warner]

I got sick today out of nowhere. I think its food poisoning?? I vomited 3 times. Whatever I ate today just came out. And I have zero appetite.

my mentally ill mind convinced me that its a good thing and I actually feel so good and clean on the inside now that I know i have no food in my stomach!! Ed is weird.

[julliett-warner]

Was scrolling through old photos and omfg I used to be so thin and then I got depressed and ruined everything by pigging out and gaining weight. In my deep depression phase I literally didn’t care about anything, and got so fat that I don’t even recognise myself now.

Why couldn’t I get hot girl depression where they are pretty and sad, with no appetite 😭 I would always choose to be sad and depressed if im pretty and skinny. But this just feels like god hates me imgonnakms 🫠🥲