Well, she's not present on this blog, so you better brace your indecisive ass.
Then fuck off.
You want to leave? Like, genuinely? With no take backsies and no last look into my direction?
Fuck off and don't ever try to crawl back to me again, because I will ruin you beyond all recognition, mercilessly transform you into a mindless puppet that has nothing in its stupid fucking noggin other than to please me and earn my attention, unable to ever leave again.
You want to stay? Like, on good terms? You want this to work and want me to respect you on eye to eye level?
Then stay.
No more fucking stunts. No more ghosting, no more lies or hiding. No more leaving. No more hopping off our train for someone else. If you want to stay, then put your fucking part of the devotion into it and keep it up. Or I'll destroy you, torture you, bring pain upon you the likes of which I would never have dared to fathom bringing upon any of my loved ones on purpose, ever.
You know I am able to do either of these punishments. So choose your way and stick with it, or I'll break your fucking mind until you can't do anything other than drool and nod anymore.
Make a decision and pull the fuck through, or you'll get to know the flames of my personal hell in their full heat, no more sugarcoating and self-sacrificial bodyblocking anymore.
I'm willing to make arrangements. To put in extra effort. I already am, actually, even if you can't seem to see that.
Same as you're tired that your efforts aren't good enough, I'm tired that my efforts are unwanted. So choose I guess. And tell me your decision. Don't act like you didn't see this post.
HAH no shit. Guess what, I'm conducting an "experiment". I like to call it: "How long will I remain sane enough to not kms while in this relationship?"
It's been several months, my sanity may be questionable, but I'm still here, so the experiment shall go on
Love not being able to close my eyes for half an eternity because in my mind there are disgustingly violent fantasies, just so I have to go to work on two hours of sleep and no breakfast
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