just holding on

hi im shawna locey im 15 years young like every other teen girl. Ive been thru alot, follow me. Promise you wont get bored!

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Really honestly hope i die in my sleep tonight :(

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Chapter 2- A SIMPLE girl with a hard BREAK-UP

Hey, my names shawna locey, im 14 years old and i just want to end the pain. Lately i have been getting help with the break-up and suicidal thoughts.. Its some what helping.. I fine as much as i explain it NOONE absoloutly no ones going to help me stop wanting devon back. NOONE can feel or know how much that boy is to me! People have been telling me left and right that im "stupid" or "blinde" for wanting him back. Everyone reminds me of how he hurt me. They dont realize im the one that has to wake up every morning feeling the pain he has brought to me! To be honest somethings telling me not go let go yet till im satisfied. Just the other day i popped 20 tynol. Why,? Because i have no feeling in my body! Im doing stupid stuff.. Im just not in the right mind. Yet again comes back to the drugs. I feel numb. My heart feels empty. So empty. Just a black whole. Sometimes i stair off into the distance and think what its like to be happy again. Then it turns into like one of those movie scenes where its all slow motion of memories with the boy i fell in love with and the slow memories of us laughing again. Hey, im shawna locey, im 14 years old and i kinda have a problem.

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Im just tired of crying; its time to smile! well at least try

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Can i just kill my self right now?

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Im done.. I dont wanna go any further in life :'( It hurts :(!

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This is me.. Wow.. I actually felt beautiful.. Only lasted 24 hours and now im back to feeling ugly..

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All im doing is walking into disappointment.. 😒😞

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People say " how the fuck do you think your ugly?" Well because i see a different image in my head when i look in the mirror I see a monster

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Want more personal/relatable?

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AMENNNN

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Chapter one of my book

Teenage year heartbroken & stupid

One girl only wanting to be happy

Hey, my names shawna locey, im 14 years old

And i just recently got out of a pretty serious but lying relationship We went into that relationship wanting it to last for ever, but getting out of it with a broken heart and not even wanting to talk to eachother I loved him and well supposibly he loved me too.. He cheated on me plenty of times while he was promising he wouldnt.

Im very insecure like most people are! I get called fat,ugly, slut. Etc.. Thats life! I may smile and trust me try and and laugh it off all the time and it may seem like theres NOTHING wrong when EVERYTHINGS wrong! I sometimes have really bad thoughts.. Who dosent right? No one is ever proud to say it and noone should ever be.. I have thoughts of suicide or as some people say ” the easy way out” Im scared though.. Im scared to actually die and see whats on the “other side” I cant do that to my family.. Who would find me? Your all probably wondering why i dont want to live anymore, right? Im scared of getting hurt again and because i want to end the pain! Yet again ” the easy way out” I loved him and i got nothing back! Hes so happy without me! And well look at me.. A mess Yes i do drugs to help me get thru it. When im high it feels like i dont have to worry about a thing! But who dosent feel that way when there high right? Im going to be honest here, i dont feel wanted ever since me and devon broke up.. I think thats only normal cause i spilled my heart out to that boy, i started feeling that someone actually wants me, then it ended just so quickly. I just want the pain to end. I dont want to be seen. I cant eat! Yeah you guys must think its silly! Im 14 i have a long ways to go! I dont wanna grow up! Who does? Im terrified to go any further in life! But i cant stop a thing! Id take him back! But not the cheating and lieing! I loved him and yes as bad as it is its not going to be my last! Right now im looking at todays matter! All i ever did was try and make him smile! That handsome smile! Its the end.. Time to move on..

Hey, my names shawna locey, im 14 years old and well my life.. Sucks!

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Hey, im shawna locey im 15 and im becoming an alcoholic ..

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Follow me on twittter!!! Shawnna loceey

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Pickked up the blade tonight.. Slice I love you I need you :( Only if it was easy to cut my heart out :(

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Quit

Quit they sayed "Okay"* thinking not that easy* Promise they sayed? "Yes:(" * what they dont know is that icant just just quit this moment on.. Cutting is what i do for other pain* How long has it been , they sayed " a month" * last night * Whats making you so happy today? They sayed " in a good mood everythings going right finially ever since i stopped cutting" * fake smile just wanna leave*

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this is one of the most beautiful things i have ever read

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