Havoc-Chaos

Age 22 Psychology Major

[tastefullyoffensive]

Purrito supreme

[le-immorte]

[uchanda]

therapist: how was your week?

me: mm.. i can’t remember

[havoc-chaos]

Every light casts a dark shadow even people carry their souls in each step they take with a shadow close behind that they can’t escape some people are lost in the darkness of this shadow others throw a match in the dark and hope it stays lit for at least a moment of absolute bliss

Scotty Knight (via havoc-chaos)

[moondhrop-deactivated20170604]

Mental Health Support Post

Hey guys here is a mental health support master post for both those struggling themselves and for friends and family of those struggling. Please feel free reblog to help your followers who may be struggling x

Support: - Online Forums - BeyondBlue - Online Chat / Support Line - BeyondBlue - Online Forums - Mind Australia - eHeadspace - Online Help / Support Line - SANE - Crisis Resources / Help - Mental Health Online - Find a helpline specific for your country - Immediate Support - MindHealthConnect - Crisis Chat - Chat Rooms - Mind UK - Help & Support - Time to Change - Support Forum - SANE

Informational Resources: - What is Mental Health - Depression  - Depression - Depression - symptoms, types, treatment  - Anxiety - Types of Anxiety  - Anxiety - Anxiety & Depression - Types of Anxiety - Anxiety - Types, symptoms, causes, diagnosis, treatment - Personality Disorder - Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) - Types of Personality Disorders - Types of Personality Disorders - Eating Disorders - Eating Disorders - Understanding & Managing Eating Disorders - Types of Symptoms of Eating Disorders - Bipolar - Bipolar - Bipolar - Self Harm - Self Harm - Schizophrenia - Schizophrenia - Schizophrenia - Tic disorders - Dissociation - Dissociation - Dissociation - OCD - OCD - OCD - PTSD  - PTSD Symptoms - PTSD Symptoms & Treatment - Factitious Disorders - Factitious Disorders - Overview - Factitious Disorders - Symptoms - Gender Dysphoria - Gender Dysphoria

Distractions: - Online Meditation - 12 Best Free Guided Meditation Sites - Positive Reminders - Movies / TV Shows / YouTube - Coping w/ Dissociation - Online Counselling College Tumblr - Super helpful tips posts! - Things to do When Feeling Suicidal - Self Harm Alternatives - Wanderlust - Plan a dream holiday - Bored Panda - Cute Animals - Light Sourcing Meditation - 12 Mobile Apps That Help Relieve Stress And Anxiety - Brain Training - Online Drawing Tool

If anyone has any suggestions / additions for this list please message me with them! :)

[havoc-chaos]

To think that words can be remedies must be lost in some mediocrity I know maybe some fallacy   My eyes are dark and scary I don’t know why I am so wary I fear I might be a bit angry consumed by my anxiety   At night I can’t sleep I wake up and panic some nights I don’t sleep even though this is a rarity I will lie awake afraid Afraid and in pain lost in disdain Wanting only to end the pain That this constant wave of anxiety creates

Scotty K (via havoc-chaos)

[feministism]

[treburg]

テンゾウのカカシ先輩フォルダシリーズ＠３枚目 - Kakashi’s Photo Album Series vol.3 by,Tenzou

額当てのズレを後輩の携帯の内カメラでチェックする六代目（寝ぐせは直さない）

[stuff-naruto-didnt-say]

Kakashi: What is your biggest weakness?

Sasuke: I can be uncooperative.

Kakashi: Okay, give me an example.

Sasuke: No.

[curlsandstems]

Hearing “I’m so proud of you” when you feel like you aren’t doing enough really does lift a lot of weight off of you.

[sugar-salt-n-spice]

my writing: please, please i’m begging just use normal punctuation for once in your terrible writing

me: haha time for another

comma

[kissmeharderbae]

[idontknowokayhelp]

Me: *listens to my own playlist*

Me: fucking masterpiece

[thoughts-in-shower]

Crying is how humans safely release stress. It’s why you feel better after crying: the release valve was triggered and you’re not pent up any more. That men are societally denied this release is both sad and dangerous.

[ismatscaff]

To add tho: if, while crying, you’re beating yourself up (i.e., I’m a terrible person, I don’t deserve to cry, this is my fault, etc.) the crying won’t be as effective.

Why? Because quite literally, your body is getting rid of built up chemicals from whatever is causing stress. If you’re beating yourself up while crying, all you’re doing is creating more of those chemicals that then build up all over again.

Crying is natural, don’t demean yourself bc you’re crying, even if it’s in public. Just let yourself cry. You have feelings and sometimes that shit builds up. Try to cut yourself a little bit of slack, even if it’s just for a short while.

[caterpillar-in-thetree]

Not just men are societally denied this release. I grew up being shamed any time I even showed pain, not even tears. To this day i still rarely am able to cry, and the only time I feel like I can show pain is when it’s unbearable. My physical therapist struggles because I can’t tell her when to stop the passive range of motion, and has to go based off of my natural reaction to guard against it. She asks me how to describe pain and I have no idea how, because I grew up stuffing it down and ignoring it.

I also have bpd and developed factitious disorder because of it (because I wasn’t allowed to show pain or negative emotions unless there was a damn good reason for it). It has ruined my life, and I have to try to fight against those instincts daily. I ruined the best relationship I had in my life, we barely speak now. I lied to a lot of people in order to justify (mainly to myself) getting help that I needed, but I can’t take those lies back and I can’t get past the guilt. Suicide is never off the table for me.

All because I wasn’t allowed to cry

[themanliness]

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[ana-depresssed]

“My anorexia is a slow method of suicide.”

— my fucked up brain

[havoc-chaos]

my therapist pointed that out to me

[spiraphobia]