Do what you fear

Huge fangirl who copes with anxiety and emetophobia on a daily basis. 29 y/o Loves to read, watch movies. Wants to be a writer, lets see if it will come true.

[justanerdalltheway]

I need Quarjake recommendations! Please!

Feed me all the Human!Quarjake, Recom!Quarjake you love!

[adrixagr]

✨Time can heal even the worst of wounds✨

[justanerdalltheway]

This is so soft, and warm, and beautiful, I can't. No oxigen remained in my brain. ❤❤

[burrowingdweller]

I got inspired so here's pre-mutation Victor and the reference I used 😋

[justanerdalltheway]

😍😍😍😍🔥🔥🔥🔥

[leatherjacketeddie]

Loustat Season 1 | Season 3

[justanerdalltheway]

Repeating the falling in love moments from season 1? Hello! They are falling in love again!

[proship-froggo]

Fandoms have a serious problem with how creators are being treated these days.

Fandom creators spend hours of their free time to create something to make fandom thrive...for free and for the love of the game.

And what do they get? A wholeass heap of fuck all. No reblogs, no comments, no nothing. And people are surprised that creators are dropping out left, right, and centre??

"Why is there no long fic anymore?" "Why did my favourite writer stop?" "Why is my favourite artist not posting anymore?"

I implore you to ask yourself: "What's the last thing I did to support my fandom? Does my favourite creator know they are my favourite? When was the last time I left a comment under something?"

[justanerdalltheway]

This is extremely true!

[justanerdalltheway]

Why do people say "Robert never loved Kev, look at him!"

I seriously don't get it.

Robert initiated their first kiss and clearly stated multiple times that he loves/cares for Kev.

Kev is not a saint, I know, but I still don't understand the hate coming from the fandom. 🤷🏻

[justanerdalltheway]

Shipping is shipping.

Reality is reality.

Do not mix the two.

Thank you, next

[burrowingdweller]

My AU in which Victor and Leon used to know each other when they were kids (I had to make Vic 3 years younger so that they could become friends haha)

[justanerdalltheway]

Why does every couple in every BL look like babies? Where are my men in their 30's and 40's?

Is it too much to ask for a BL where the couples aren't 14, 16, 18 years old?

Please, give me my silver fox couples!

PLEASE!!

[putrefae]

[justanerdalltheway]

It's like Ruben wanted Niall to be calm and at peace when he gives him his final gift.

Can you imagine?

The barn is quiet, they can only hear each other's breathing. The air is filled with acceptance, quiet tears slowly running down Niall's face while they look into each other's eyes. Ruben's eyes are tender and soft, his fingers are caressing Niall's hair, his other hand tight on Niall's mouth and nose making it impossible for Niall to breath.

But everything is alright because finally they are together, closer than ever before and at peace with all that has happened between them.

They are writing the last few pages of their story, no need for more violence and lies.

The only thing that remains is letting go. Ruben already accepted what the future in a few minutes is going to bring and while gazing into Ruben's eyes Niall realises that Ruben is right. They have to lose each other forever because that is the only way where they won't destroy the other and everyone else they love.

Niall's heartbeat starts to slow, his sight starts to blur. He raises his hand weakly to reach for the single tear on Ruben's face. Ruben's small smile is sad and tender at the same time, Niall can see how his lips move but the words evade him. He is too far gone.

But it is alright.

Because in his last moments this monster he always loved, and loved to poke, showed him what is hidden behind the hard surface.

Ruben can see the exact moment when the light leaves those gorgeus eyes. Can feel how the heart beneath his is valiantly trying to beat a few more times but ultimately gives up and goes motionless forever. Every warmth leaves his body like he is the one who just died and not Niall. He grows numb and the air leaves his lungs in painful bursts, saliva drips from his open lips.

His other half is gone and he gave him the most peaceful way to go.

They needed to lose each other forever to be able to live but without Niall he is unable to exist. So he does the one remaining thing that he has to do in this life.

He puts an end to it right there, next to Niall, to follow and find him in the next.

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[justanerdalltheway]

I need someone with the talent to cut and put together all the scenes in the barn in order! Wish I could do the work myself but I am an idiot who is uncapable of doing the work that has to be done.

[sofapup17]

excited to attend the barn wedding of niall kennedy and ruben pallister today!!

[justanerdalltheway]

If one dies I want the other to die with him.

[apricustar]

i do think ruben would be the type to wake up half asleep to instinctively pull niall and slip his dick inside again after they do the deed and maybe rock back and forth for a sec then falls asleep and waking up to niall riding him ehhh

i’m loving all the freaked out anons i’m getting HELL yeah

that scene in episode 1 where he’s choking niall and rocking them back and forth?? and it goes on and on and on because the only way to rationalize an embrace, having a desire for comfort, wanting to be held is through an act of violence Oh!!! anyway this is that turned UP and i’m fucking here for it you are so right !! like :( the safest, warmest spot for ruben’s cock is inside niall, duh! :(( it’s SOOTHING. and you KNOWWWWW niall can’t let that go to waste nooo way he loves waking up all full :D doesn’t even have to do anything except reposition and wait for ruben to wake up and take over yay!!!

[justanerdalltheway]

Who is going to write this fic??!! Fanfic writers, answer me!

[jiwoodawnstarnation]

It definitely feels like someone's going to end up dead in that Barn whether it be Niall or Ruben

Be it on accident or on purpose

Hell there's a possibility they both might die

Because if one dies the other one's going to be dead emotionally

Those two are bound together in life and death

Let's go all Hannibal with the ending

Or Romeo and Juliet

[justanerdalltheway]

Does Niall have the knife his mother gave him when he is in the barn with Ruben? This question keeps ringing in my head.

[justanerdalltheway]

Just finished reading Dune: Messiah (2nd book of the series) and now I am scared of Dune 3 (the movie)... I know we can't get a different ending but I wish we could...

[procrastinationeternal]

[olemisekunst]

The Night Manager Season 2, Episode 3 (2026)

[justanerdalltheway]

Did anyone notice how on the sixth gif Jonathan is lagging? Like Windows when the is trying to boot itself but somehow things just don't start up.

On the seventh he is like the brainfog was lifted and he realised he was staring.

Gif n.o. 10: Our man locks in!

Gif 11-14: on the eleventh gif at first we think the focus is on Roxana but oh, look at that! Roxana ducks down and from that moment on the focus is completely on Teddy! And we finish with the camera going from Teddy's hand to Jonathan.

Jonathan kept looking at Roxana but the cus was 100% on Jonathan and Teddy and their reactions to each other.