Just me, following things on Tumblr

[mcsryaoihell]

my bonnies

[star-shard]

Sometimes, fanfiction is carefully plotted out stories, with plot points and call backs and themes that all tie it up in a meaningful and exciting way.

And sometimes fanfiction is, ‘Watch me do a fucking KICK FLIP off this cool sentence!! Also here's some sex'

Both are beautiful forms of writing.

[star--nymph]

Maware maware Tsuki no merry go round Suzushige na paaru no doresu hirugaeshite Itsu datte mimamotte iru wa Moon moon princess

[wizardarchetypes]

anyway every time i post about ocd people start tagging the post like "wait this isn't normal?" and i always like to remind people that intrusive thoughts are normal. pretty much everyone experiences them. "what if i jumped off this balcony?" "what if i crashed my car right now for no reason?" "what if i yelled a curse word in the middle of this wedding?" everyone thinks these things from time to time. it's disordered thinking when the distress starts becoming intolerable.

"am i normal" is not as helpful question to ask as "are intrusive thoughts causing me frequent distress?" and "would my life be better if i could find a way to feel less distress/learn to tolerate the distress?"

millions and millions of people have ocd. having ocd is normal. you're normal. but what if you could feel better? what if living everyday in your own mind and body could be tolerable? is that something you want? need? these are questions to ask.

[books-tea-ghosts]

Had a hankering to do a redraw of the black and white alcohol inks I did like 8yrs ago. I fixed their poses and made them a bit bigger. I really like how these turned out!

[pretty-sailor-scout]

[targetedknowledge]

[mas-o-kissed]

“This kink is problematic when you think about it” ohhhhhh shit ok lemme head on over to the kink store and trade these kinks in for one that make my jackoff fantasies morally superior

[catchymemes]

[vtmb2spoilers-deactivated202112]

hope u dont mind me keeping ur tags because ur right:

[calmdowncalmdown]

I’ll reblog this every time I see it.

[funkylittlebats]

[ID: a reddit post from Marylandman101.

what does it feel like to do heroin

A reply from [deleted]

Actually this is an obvious question but it’s not what you might think. Let me explain it to you, I’ve been an opiate addict for a long time and tried many drugs. Drugs that are ‘uppers’ have the most ‘obvious’ euphoria. For example if you take adderall/coke/meth/speed/MDMA you will get this shining bright euphoria, self confidence, energy, and other drug-specific feelings (for meth like you are king or for MDMA like you love everyone). However, you owe these drugs back what they delivered to you. After a meth binge, or lots of MDMA use, or staying up all night on coke you will feel like shit. To an extent this aspect is similar to an alcoholic hangover.

On the other hand, for many people who experiment with heroin they are underwhelmed (not including IV usage, but most experimenters rarely ever IV first time). They just feel good, chill, happy, but they feel like this spooky drug ‘heroin’ hasn’t delivered. They are just mellow. Oh obviously it has all been a lie they will think. Heroin isn’t spooky, it’s chill. It’s not addictive like everyone else thinks. It doesn’t make you do stupid shit or stay up all day and hallucinate like amphetamines or coke. It doesn’t empty your serotonin like MDMA or give you a hangover like alcohol. People tend to just think oh, what a nice drug.

So the next day they wake up and everything is normal. No headache or shitty feeling–just a slight afterglow of that nice feeling. Oh it was cheap as well! It only cost $10 for a whole night of being high! I thought people said heroin was expensive? And then next weekend comes… There are all these drugs I could do but I liked heroin. It didn’t fuck me up,‘I could still think clearly. No hangover. No feeling like shit later. I still was awake. It just made me happy and content with life. Oh and it’s only $10! Well, I should get some more for the whole weekend. This is great! I will use Heroin on the weekends now!

Now let’s say this person works and has responsibilities. He knows he can’t go into work drunk, or on MDMA, or high. So he doesn’t. It’s actually simple. But heroin… Well the user might actually find they do better work on heroin. Instead of being sad or grumpy or depressed with his job… he is just… happy. Mellow. Content. Everything is fine and the world is beautiful. It’s raining, it’s dark, I woke up at 5:30AM, I’m commuting in traffic. I would have had a headache, I would have been miserable, I would have wondered how my life took me to this point. This point I’m at right now. But no, no, everything is fine. Life is beautiful. The rain drops are just falling and in each one I see the reflection of every persons life around me. Humanity is beautiful. In this still frame shot of traffic on this crowded bus I just found love and peace. Heroin is a wonder drug. Heroin is better than everything else. Heroin makes me who I wish I was. Heroin makes life worth living. Heroin is better than everything else. Heroin builds up a tolerance fast. Heroin starts to cost more money. I need heroin to feel normal. I don’t love anymore. Now I’m sick. I can’t afford the heroin that I need. How did $10 used to get me high? Now I need $100. That guy that let me try a few lines the first time doesn’t actually deal. Oh I need to find a real dealer? This guy is a felon and carries a gun–he can sell me the drug that lets me find love in the world. No this isn’t working, I need to quit.

To answer your question, heroin feels nice. That’s all, it just feels very nice. You can make the rest up for yourself. Attach your own half-truths to this drug that will show you the world and for a moment you will feel as clever as Faust.

Edit: Thank you for the kind words. I received help and I’m doing well now. Luckily I was able to pull up and get help right before I entered the deadly downward spiral. Some of my friends have not done as well. Sorry to steal the limelight from OP

A reply to this from Ifuxdalion

Reading that was more haunting than any anti-drug campaign that I’ve been exposed to. Thanks. A lot.

End of reddit post.

The third image are tags on tumblr. They read #anti-drug campaigns should be run by recovering addicts #cause like #how are you gonna talk honestly about how a drug affects your life if youve never done it #how can you really communicate what it does to your life if you ignore the reasons people do drugs in the first place? #i dont think anyone’s gonna believe you when you say a drug is bad if you never acknowledge the way the drug makes you feel good #tags

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[robotlyra]

The thing that kills me about this, is that it frankly discusses the general misery and malaise that we put up with in our regular sober lives, and it says straight up that the drug makes it BEARABLE. This is the clearest and most straightforward description of “drug addiction is not a failure of personal strength and character, it is an attempt to medicate and make survivable the horrifying sociocultural conditions that we are being forced to accept as the normal cost of living.” It’s the Rat Park drug addiction hypothesis demonstrated in humanity.

[eloiscbridgerton]

HACKS 5.06 – Quik Scribbl

[smokeydabear420422]

[pangur-and-grim]

I wonder if being bullied as a kid has any inoculating factors? like "I can do this now, because I could do this at 4 feet tall" type stuff. or does it just permanently make you into a quivery little prey animal? much to consider.

[pangur-and-grim]

oh yowch.

[kosmogrl]

[gay-hrithik-roshan]

[golyadkin]

you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life

[incognito-insomniac]

Some of the best advice I have ever gotten was from a creative writing professor. She said never apologize for your work. Never critic it before someone else does.

Her reasoning was you are the creator. You made your work from nothing and can see all the flaws and seems and holes. But your audience may not see any of it. Maybe they will; maybe they won't. But if you TELL them about the holes and the mistakes and the problems....they will 100% see them. So don't tell them. Don't sabotage yourself just because you think you're not good enough.

[idkstuffiguess]

I always say: “LIE THEY’LL NEVER KNOW, AND IF THEY POINT IT, BULLSHIT. UNTIL THEY PROVE OTHERWISE, YOU’RE GOD. DON’T LET THEM ON TO YOU”

[willgrahamscock]

Thought crimes of course aren’t real but uh. We know those aren’t just thoughts anymore once you’ve posted them publicly, yeah?

Then they’re just crimes.

sure, fictional crimes since nothing happened and no one was hurt. should we put the fictional handcuffs on? "sorry, you wrote about murder which is illegal, go spend 20 years in mind jail"

[lustcannibalism]

y'all make so much more fuss about shit in fanfiction than crimes in real life

[biglawbear]

Agatha Christie is serving 100,000 consecutive life sentences for all the murders

[evilwriter37]

Writing fiction (at least where I live) is not a fucking crime. The idea that it should be a crime is purely fascist. Trying to control fiction and censorship is making thoughtcrime a real thing. Y’all are fascist and need to get a fucking grip.

Also, can’t wait to serve my 1,300+ years with Agatha Christie.

[jayalaw]

China is doing this so, yeah. Don’t. Just don’t go down that path of thought crime

[silvermoon424]

A word about scanlation

I scanlate a lot of manga and doujinshi and am part of a couple of larger scanlation groups (I'm not really active in them rn though).

The scope of fandom has changed so much over recent years that I'm not sure some people are aware that, for the most part, scanlation (and translation in general) is a labor of love. It's unpaid volunteer work and often actually costs money because you have to buy the raw materials and maybe even software to do the typesetting/cleaning/etc in. I actually pay unaffiliated freelance translators to translate certain materials I desperately want to read but can't find a translator to collab with for whatever reason.

All of this is to say that you aren't supposed to be making money off of scanlation. Scanlation is technically illegal because it involves the unauthorized reprinting of copyrighted work, but many companies are willing to turn a blind eye to it because it lets them gauge interest about official translations. Scanlator etiquette does make allowances for donations towards raw materials like manga, artbooks, etc though (which is more than fair imo).

Anyway, I bring all this up because I've been noticing a trend of new scanlators wanting to monetize their work. This is EXTREMELY frowned upon in most circles but is becoming more and more widespread. In one of my scanlation groups, we had someone who asked "how much the role pays," and when they were informed it was a volunteer position they left in a huff.

There are entire scanlation groups now that lock their catalogs behind paywalls and threaten legal action against anyone who reuploads their work. Even though, you know, they're reuploading other people's work and are usually pumping out chapters so fast there's not a whole lot of quality control.

Also, reader entitlement towards scanlators is as old as scanlating itself, but I've seen an uptick of assholes who yell at people volunteering their labor because they aren't doing it fast or well enough. The vast majority of these entitled assholes have no fucking idea how to translate, or how to typeset, or how to scan/acquire raw materials, or how to clean/redraw scans, etc. They just feel entitled to other people's time and labor and instead of being grateful they get anything at all, they bitch about how it's not perfect.

I've been scanlating for a decade now and I only do it because I love it so much. I've sunk countless hours and a ton of money into it. And I really don't like how people are trying to capitalize off of it. It just feels like everyone is trying to monetize everything nowadays.

You don't need to make money off of your hobby!!! You can just do it because you love doing it and you love being part of a community!!!

Anyway, be nice to scanlators, y'all.

[meggsssart]