Tw: Eating disorders - I am going to be transparent with you. I have seen this topic come up quite often in our community recently, so I wanted to give you my take. The first time I restricted my food, I was 10. The first time I purged my food I was 12 years old. The first time I had a full binge eating sesson I was 13. The first I blacked out due to lack of food I was 15. Surprisingly enough it was not until after I turned 20 years old I got officially diagnosed with bulimia. Finally I went to a mental health professional for help. I had known I had it for many years. Finally being diagnosed felt like a relief. For many years my therapists knew what was going on, and I always was told it's normal. Well telling a 15 year old that hurting themselves was normal is never okay. Now I am working everyday to heal my relationship with food. I am using food as a tool to build my body. Reframing how I see food has helped me quite a bit. For the full story I will be posting a video on my channel (Link in bio, live 7pm Wednesday) - How has your relationship with food changed throughout the years? - #ftmfitness #tw #bodydysmorphia #bodydysphoria #transbodybuilding #ftmbodybuilding #transyoutuber #kadecooks (at Sandy, Utah) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9PxoWFj1wc/?igshid=129mutl151ldn