Kaliboo

Mommy. Girlfriend. Student. Business Owner.

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New Love

I’m in love. I’m in love with someone new. It scares the hell out of me, it excites me, and it warms me in every way. I didn’t consider when I’d fall for someone new after being with my ex-boyfriend for almost 4 years. I didn’t even consider that I would be able to move on because I knew I had a lot of stuff I had to work on for me and my baby girl. I knew I wanted to date and go out, because I…

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I'm Back and I'm Single!

I’m Back and I’m Single!

The last time I posted on my website, it was to express my feelings about my suicide attempt. Months later, I get to say that I’m single now. It isn’t a proud moment but a wake up call. I’ve never been one to take a break up hard but I never had a long or real connecting relationship with anyone like I had with Craig. I figured once he ended it, here is going to come the depression and…

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Yesterday, I attempted to commit suicide.

Yesterday, I attempted to commit suicide.

I’m going to say that this post may trigger some folks and I apologize. This post is to get my feelings and thoughts out because I don’t feel comfortable with really communicating about it. I’m feeling okay and I’m feeling overwhelmed at this moment.

Yesterday started off different than my usual days because I woke up at someone else’s apartment. I booked a pet sitting with a client from Wag!…

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My Birth Story

I love to hear women’s birth stories because no story is the same. I love to hear the kind of experiences that we all endure and deal with just to have a mini human tell you off, because you got Cheerios instead of AppleJacks. I’ve learned a lot from other mothers’ experiences and definitely a lot from my own. So here is my birth story! It is pretty lengthy :]

I gave birth to my daughter on March…

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Potty Training; Mom-Shaming

Mom-shaming is getting even more petty and ridiculous. I was going to say I hate to match petty with Petty Betty…but I enjoy being Petty Betty…however, it is usually the non-existent, no custody-having parents or people who only have nieces or nephews that have a lot to say. I’ve been shamed for having my daughter potty trained “too soon” and “forcing her to do things she doesn’t want to do”. I…

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I'm Medicated and I Love Fortnite.

I’m Medicated and I Love Fortnite.

I have always been scared to say that, that I am medicated. I feel different, I feel somewhat free. I am taking Abilify. I’m still also on my Levothyroxine for my Hypothyroidism. I’m feeling like I can think straight and that I have some control over myself. My dreams, on the other hand, are killing me at night and I cannot get the rest I really need. But honestly, Fortnite helps me. It may be an…

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I hurt myself

I can’t handle any stress, any criticism. I woke up in a good mood for 2 seconds. Money issues. Without being told to my face, this is all my fault.

I spent money to wash clothes. I spent money on food, for me and my daughter. I’m the one that messed up the money. I don’t work. I don’t provide value for my life or my family.

I know many people will not care about my feelings, my take on this.…

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My hair caught on fire when I was in elementary school.

Did you read that right? Yup, it happened. Damnedest thing too, it happened in the first floor apartment in this building almost 20 years ago. My mom, sister and I used to live here in the second and first floor apartments when we were in elementary school.

It was just us, my mom wasn’t with her husband and my brother didn’t exist. My sister, Martika, and I fought all the time. I am sure it is…

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I Have PTSD and Mood Disorder

I Have PTSD and Mood Disorder

I will be upfront and raw, I haven’t started getting to the real body of this blog and I am already crying. This may be a trigger for someone with PTSD, please be warned, my apologies.

I need to do this to let this frustration and fear that is bottled up in me, out to the world. So let’s start with the fact that I have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and Mood Disorder. I neverconsidered myself…

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My Anxiety Attack

This happened at work of all places.

I felt crazy, I probably looked it, too.

Everyday when I get up to get ready for work, I get anxious. It doesnt matter what job it has been for, how many short or long hours it consists of, I just always get anxiety before and during a job. I’ve lost jobs because of this, I have to admit that now. I want to cry for having to admit that.

I wake up in a bad…

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Toddler Abuse

My toddler abuses me. And I know she enjoys it a lot, too.

During the weekend, I’m sitting on the edge of my bed across from our PS4. Alaina is goofing around and moving her feet in all silly ways kids do, and she proceeds to knock over the game system onto my right foot. I got mad, I was in pain, but I knew it wasn’t a big deal because it was accidental. I moved the USB cable from where she…

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The Real Meaning of Thanksgiving

The Real Meaning of Thanksgiving

I used to have all the time in the world to visit friends and family. Many times that I didn’t it was just because I didn’t feel like going anywhere. Now with having my own family, I barely have time for myself it seems. We have a national holiday to spend time with our families, friends, and potentially shop/work. Even on a day meant to be spent with family, it is impossible to accommodate when…

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Happy Sunday Vloggin'!

Happy Sunday Vloggin’!

I can’t believe it has been 5 months since I posted on my YouTube channel. I really felt quite nervous, scared, and intimidated about posting another video. I’m sure that is the insecurity causing me a ruckus. But here’s the link before – I hope everyone checks it out and leaves some feedback 😊.

PS Alaina really steals the show 😏

The Kali Mom Vlog

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Happy November!

I am beyond excited today.

IT IS NOVEMBER.

First of all, this means Thanksgiving is weeks away. Secondly, Christmas is approaching its heels. And I really love the cold weather, the changing colors of the leaves, and better excuses to see family. Did I mention the cold weather? My toddler loves the cold.

Yesterday, Halloween, we avoided trick-or-treating for Alaina. It was much easier to go to…

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Do You Think Mothers and Fathers are Equal?

Do You Think Mothers and Fathers are Equal?

Why are fathers praised more for doing things they are supposed to do? Why are mothers criticized for needing time away from their kid(s)?

I am guilty of this, too.

I will praise Craig [or any other fathers for that matters] for doing the simplest things because I didn’t have to do it. Sometimes, I am happy he does things for our daughter because he is a guy and guys aren’t looked at for…

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Can I promote Black Empowerment while being Multi-racial?

While I was growing up, I’ve encountered many forms of racism. I won’t go into so much detail, but I will provide the basics – I’m White, Black, and Hispanic. I’ve always thought it was so cool to be a mixture. I liked my skin color. I liked my hair – no matter how many times it gets frizzy and fails on me. I may not have had the confidence about my physical self. I always thought that no matter…

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Happy Saturday!

Today maybe Saturday but today is MY Friday! Welcome to another post! This isn’t about anything specific. I will probably do one about Alaina in a few days. She currently has ringworm on her scalp. She’s doing fine! But the process to clean it sucks.

I have work in less than 2 hours. So for now, I’m cooking breakfast for my family. It is very basic…bacon and eggs. Craig will tell anyone with…

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