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[seb--moran]

hello yes i would just like to throw into cyberspace the idea of a hamilton au. sebastian as aaron burr, tony as hamilton, and tom as laurens or tanya as eliza, thank you and goodnight

[kathymoran]

ok but listen. this means that kathy is lost at sea when she’s very young, and sebastian’s life is all-around shitty all the time?? 

also consider: sebastian’s disgust @the reynold’s pamphlet because of his own father’s habits

[seb--moran]

kathy dies at 29 having already lost her son to a fever and pyotr and sebastian can barely even stand each other with the depth of their grief. so much pain and anger and loss, i love it. (also pyotr as a southerner from the carolinas, what the hell)

and sebastian has a shitty life, when does he ever not????? (’wait for it’ would be so perfect) (WAIT this is how we could fit chris in–he’s a british officer stationed in america) (do we want him to be annabelle’s husband like in real life? annabelle and sebastian have an affair during the war while chris is off fighting in georgia. after the war, annabelle and chris divorce b/c she’s pregnant and it’s not chris’ kid, and she and sebastian get married, but then she dies when kathy’s still really little, and chris comes to the funeral, and things snowball from there? idk, what do you think?) 

on the one hand, sebastian will admire tony’s candor in the reynolds pamphlet in a ‘omg i can’t believe he actually said that’ kinda way. but then he’s just disgusted. tanya’s a nice lady, how could he do this to her?? like he’s no stranger to selfishness but this is too much

and tom’s home in america during all this, and tony lowkey expects him to be on his side, but instead tom just rips into him and goes to comfort his sister

also consider: “this man will not make an orphan of my daughter”

[kathymoran]

daaaamn. kathy dies and leaves the twins behind?? they’re old enough to understand the concept of their mom being there before, but now she’s not here anymore, and they’re confused about what’s happened. so like, 4-5 yrs old. it slowly kills pyotr inside. this is some Good Angst right here

i think that’d work best if the chris/annabelle divorce wasn’t as angsty as it has potential to be? like, annabelle tells chris about the affair and he’s hurt over it, but ultimately they both know that they were never really in love and they respect each other too much to turn this into a huge incident. chris’ll respect her decision for a divorce, make sure that she knows that she doesn’t have to leave if she doesn’t want to – they can take care of the baby together – and annabelle marries sebastian before kathy is even born. maybe she and chris even keep up a friendly correspondence after a few years. he and sebastian never meet face-to-face, which gives extra angst to the funeral. ya feel??

the reynolds affair is probably some sort of coping mechanism or stress relief or something, which doesn’t make it any more right but at least it’s not coming from a malicious place? either way tony loses both tanya and tom in one go, and it’s awful

here is the thing though: tony really loves his children, and he truly cares for tanya. he knows that he is an incredibly lucky man to have this family, and to come home to tanya teaching their son to play piano, and he must know that she’s wonderful and clever and kind. so the withdrawal into work is only about 80% his compulsion to never stop writing, and the rest is overwhelming guilt at how unsatisfied he is. because tanya is the best of wives and the best of women, but she isn’t tom. tony is yearning for something he can’t have, someone who lives thousands of miles across the ocean, even though his life at home is near perfect. 

(how much do you want to bet that for the first few months after tom left, tony laid awake thinking about their goodbye and the look in tom’s eyes when he said “my anthony” and the pause that came afterward, like he wanted to say so much more but had to settle on a sad “don’t forget to write.”)

(bonus points if that’s the first time that tanya truly realized the depth of what had gone on between them, and what it was doing to tom. and what it was doing to her and tony’s marriage.)

[seb--moran]

pyotr adores the twins, he really does, but the loss of kathy is compounded by the earlier loss of andrew. it was two incredibly heavy blows back-to-back, and the twins are too young and hurt to offer any comfort, and you’re right, it’s going to slowly kill him from the inside out. sebastian will leave america for europe for a few years and he’ll take the twins with him b/c he doesn’t think pyotr’s able to take care of them. which is, like, kinda true atm, but that will only compound pyotr’s misery. 

even if annabelle and chris’ divorce is totally amicable, the funeral encounter will be awkward as hell. sebastian’s got kathy crying on his shoulder, various horrible moran relations milling around, the key leaders of the american republic throwing shade at him even here–and here’s annabelle’s first husband. sebastian will be going a bit crazy himself. he’ll be too numb to be snarky or rude or sarcastic. he’ll just accept that chris is here like oh. okay. that’s cool. now let me get kathy out of here before jefferson tries to tousle her hair one more time.

tony won’t ever see tanya cry about the reynolds incident. she’ll bring the children home from her parents’ place in upstate new york, so the public can see that the family is standing united. she’ll walk around town and make formal calls to the wives of her husband’s colleagues and take her children for walks in the park and publicly be a complete lady. but at home, she’ll barely even look at tony. she’ll lock her bedroom door at night and start openly taking and reading books from his library and lowkey flirting with the politicians who come for dinner. she’s spent years raising his children and being his wife and being ignored in favour of her brother; she’s not having this anymore. she’s reclaiming her mind and her life and tony can do whatever he likes. but then the breakdown of communication means that tony keeps quiet about their son going off to fight in a duel–until it’s too late, and they’re crying over their dying child, and tanya’s begging tony if he knew

(tanya knows what’s up with tony and her brother. and ‘my anthony’ was a dagger in her heart, but she puts up with it for a long time. it’s the masochism coming out–like in teen!verse, when tom knew he was sebastian’s second choice, but he just kept coming back for punishment again and again, no matter how much it hurt. until he finally snaps.) (tanya snaps after the reynolds pamphlet when it becomes clear that she’s not even second choice. she’s third or fourth, somewhere distantly ranked after whatever honey-trap tony feels like screwing.) (my child)

[kathymoran]

that means that the twins spend the next few years pretty much growing up without their dad, and wondering whether or not he even loves them. whether or not their mum loved them, too, because they both left. and meanwhile, sebastian is getting pretty much buried under politics and the never-ending backlash from the duel with tony

chris has zero motive to start shit or anything, and he’s here entirely because he cared about annabelle, so their first meeting is probably going to be polite and unremarkable. maybe he finds kathy later and introduces himself and tells her a few nice stories about her mum, ones that sebastian probably doesn’t know, and she tells sebastian about it afterward? i imagine she’ll want to spend time with people who knew her mother well, so talking to chris a little more might be a good thing for her

this might be the perfect time for tom and tony to have that “i love you but i love my sister more” conversation, in which they finally lay it all out on the table and tom furiously tells him that he’ll stand by his sister regardless. this might actually be the end for them? tanya will find the heart to forgive tony when they’re dealing with their grief together, but there’s no way that tom and tony can be buds after this

[seb--moran]

Pyotr will follow them to Europe eventually. Once he pulls himself together. He’ll write some stuff in defense of Sebastian, b/c he’s getting slammed in American politics, and then shut up the house in North Carolina and head over to France to bring the children home. Enough time has passed that Sebastian and Pyotr will get along fine, but there’s a mess to fix with the children.

Sebastian will have zero problem with Kathy hanging out with Chris. Annabelle told him how decent and good Chris was about everything, and Kathy seems to really like him, so it’ll be fine. He’ll offer for Chris to come over to the house and spend some time there. And Kathy will come to really love Chris, so I’m guessing it’s only a matter of time before he’s over fairly regularly. Sebastian will make a point of being out of the house at first when Chris is over, but they’ll eventually have to run in again.

the Tom/Tony talk is going to be painful as hell. to complicate this all, Tom is still married himself, and he’s been away from his wife for like a year now, and he’s got to go back to London. That’s actually probably for the best–he and Tony can talk, get all their crap out, and then Tom will leave for London. only Tony’s dead like six months later and Tom comes tearing back across the Atlantic again to help protect Tony’s memory

(also consider that Tom is buried by Tony in Trinity Church in NYC)

[kathymoran]

imagine how close the twins are here, though. they’ve pretty much had no one to rely on but each other for half of their childhood so far, they’ll stand united against or with Pyotr and it’ll be so heartbreakingly bittersweet

Chris will start to feel increasingly weird about spending time in sebastian’s house without sebastian there, so he’ll coordinate with kathy so that he arrives when ‘bastian is at home, and he stops by the bakery and brings a pie. and it’s kind of strange?? like, polite and proper, but he’s not really sure how to play this so he just. does something foolish and clumsy like break their coathanger by accident or ruin the carpet with tea. he’s v cute and embarrassed about it

i really want Tom and Tanya to talk it out, though. they carry on Tony’s memory together, and Tanya eventually comes to terms with their feelings to the point that she buries them side by side. so that’s one hell of a conversation

[seb--moran]

The twins are going to be so close, it’ll be great. (also imagine Anna becoming bffs with Tony’s daughter Livvy once they come home to America. awkward) Pyotr will know just how badly he’s screwed up where the twins are concerned, and he’s going to try so, so hard to heal the rift. Tell them stories about their mother, buy them nice things, bedtime stories, the whole nine yards. idk if it’ll fully work, but he’s going to try, at least. and he’s going to drag Sebastian back home to New York with them. he’s spent enough time skulking around in Europe, he’s got to face them all eventually. which is an ill-calculated move that will not end well.

and since Chris is arriving early, Sebastian and Kathy are still playing around in the kitchen, chattering away in French and laughing and joking while he’s teaching her how to make ice cream. So they’re still laughing when they come upstairs to see Chris, and that helps alleviate the potential awkwardness of the scene. Sebastian grins at how embarrassed Chris is and is like ‘u dork’ and tells him not to worry about it, he never liked the carpet anyways. the servants are all out at a travelling show in town, so if Chris wants to come down to the kitchen, they can totes have pie down there. and the ice cream will be ready in like another 10 minutes of cranking the machine.

I think Tom and Tanya would sit on their issues for about a year after Tony’s death. They’re too sad and hurt. but then Tanya starts tracking down and interviewing all the other men they served with in the army, and hearing all the stories about just how inseparable her husband and brother were during the war, and after like the 50th veteran tells her a story about them, Tanya will snap and confront Tom about it. and they’ll both cry and it’ll be awful, but Tanya loves Tom too much–and honestly, in a way, she always knew it. Tom won’t tell her about the comma sexting and all that, but he’ll make it clear that he loved Tony since they were glorified teenagers on Washington’s staff. And Tony loved him too. But Tom also knows that Tony loved Tanya too. Just differently. And Tanya will cry even more, but then she’ll pull herself together and be like, ‘okay’. If this was the secret making Tony so unhappy and inattentive throughout their marriage, then she’s glad it’s finally out in the open. And there’s nothing for her to forgive Tom for. They’ll continue doing their work in the knowledge that they both deserve it, as the people who loved Tony best. And like 20 years later, when Tom’s dying of consumption, she’ll promise him on his deathbed that he’ll be buried with Tony. and it’ll be such a painful and bittersweet scene, my children.

side-note: if we’re combining Tom as both Laurens and Angelica, do you think Tom and Tony ever slept together while they were in the army? they were officers billeted together in a tent for months on end; as long as they were quiet, nobody could have known. but if someone started to get suspicious, then that could be the catalyst for Tom to introduce Tony to his sister at a party. idk, what do you think?

[kathymoran]

chris + sebastian are going to get so close, so quickly if they start out their relationship in such an informal setting. the feeling of familiarity that it’ll breed will really bite them in the ass a few weeks later when they allow themselves to fall for each other so easily without noticing it. they’ll start hanging out without kathy pretty quickly, becoming friends not just for her sake but also because they really like each other

but wait! this is jumping a little bit back, but imagine the angst of Tom spending time with Tanya and Tony’s children. he’s their beloved rascal of an uncle, funny and charming and doting, and they love him so much. and then Tony dies and they love Tom even more, and it’s just! a lot! of! pain!

there’re really heavy implications for hamilton having done the doodly-do with both laurens and angelica, so that’s 100000% plausible to me. some after Tom had - ahem, quite literally - served under Sebastian (look, i know this isn’t historically accurate but w/e w/e), and probably has had some experience with screwing around in the field. which just allows him to pretend that this is just blowing off steam until it’s not, because nothing with tony is ever casual

[seb--moran]

hello yes i would just like to throw into cyberspace the idea of a hamilton au. sebastian as aaron burr, tony as hamilton, and tom as laurens or tanya as eliza, thank you and goodnight

[kathymoran]

ok but listen. this means that kathy is lost at sea when she’s very young, and sebastian’s life is all-around shitty all the time?? 

also consider: sebastian’s disgust @the reynold’s pamphlet because of his own father’s habits

[seb--moran]

kathy dies at 29 having already lost her son to a fever and pyotr and sebastian can barely even stand each other with the depth of their grief. so much pain and anger and loss, i love it. (also pyotr as a southerner from the carolinas, what the hell)

and sebastian has a shitty life, when does he ever not????? (’wait for it’ would be so perfect) (WAIT this is how we could fit chris in–he’s a british officer stationed in america) (do we want him to be annabelle’s husband like in real life? annabelle and sebastian have an affair during the war while chris is off fighting in georgia. after the war, annabelle and chris divorce b/c she’s pregnant and it’s not chris’ kid, and she and sebastian get married, but then she dies when kathy’s still really little, and chris comes to the funeral, and things snowball from there? idk, what do you think?) 

on the one hand, sebastian will admire tony’s candor in the reynolds pamphlet in a ‘omg i can’t believe he actually said that’ kinda way. but then he’s just disgusted. tanya’s a nice lady, how could he do this to her?? like he’s no stranger to selfishness but this is too much

and tom’s home in america during all this, and tony lowkey expects him to be on his side, but instead tom just rips into him and goes to comfort his sister

also consider: “this man will not make an orphan of my daughter”

[kathymoran]

daaaamn. kathy dies and leaves the twins behind?? they’re old enough to understand the concept of their mom being there before, but now she’s not here anymore, and they’re confused about what’s happened. so like, 4-5 yrs old. it slowly kills pyotr inside. this is some Good Angst right here

i think that’d work best if the chris/annabelle divorce wasn’t as angsty as it has potential to be? like, annabelle tells chris about the affair and he’s hurt over it, but ultimately they both know that they were never really in love and they respect each other too much to turn this into a huge incident. chris’ll respect her decision for a divorce, make sure that she knows that she doesn’t have to leave if she doesn’t want to – they can take care of the baby together – and annabelle marries sebastian before kathy is even born. maybe she and chris even keep up a friendly correspondence after a few years. he and sebastian never meet face-to-face, which gives extra angst to the funeral. ya feel??

the reynolds affair is probably some sort of coping mechanism or stress relief or something, which doesn’t make it any more right but at least it’s not coming from a malicious place? either way tony loses both tanya and tom in one go, and it’s awful

here is the thing though: tony really loves his children, and he truly cares for tanya. he knows that he is an incredibly lucky man to have this family, and to come home to tanya teaching their son to play piano, and he must know that she’s wonderful and clever and kind. so the withdrawal into work is only about 80% his compulsion to never stop writing, and the rest is overwhelming guilt at how unsatisfied he is. because tanya is the best of wives and the best of women, but she isn’t tom. tony is yearning for something he can’t have, someone who lives thousands of miles across the ocean, even though his life at home is near perfect. 

(how much do you want to bet that for the first few months after tom left, tony laid awake thinking about their goodbye and the look in tom’s eyes when he said “my anthony” and the pause that came afterward, like he wanted to say so much more but had to settle on a sad “don’t forget to write.”)

(bonus points if that’s the first time that tanya truly realized the depth of what had gone on between them, and what it was doing to tom. and what it was doing to her and tony’s marriage.)

[seb--moran]

pyotr adores the twins, he really does, but the loss of kathy is compounded by the earlier loss of andrew. it was two incredibly heavy blows back-to-back, and the twins are too young and hurt to offer any comfort, and you’re right, it’s going to slowly kill him from the inside out. sebastian will leave america for europe for a few years and he’ll take the twins with him b/c he doesn’t think pyotr’s able to take care of them. which is, like, kinda true atm, but that will only compound pyotr’s misery. 

even if annabelle and chris’ divorce is totally amicable, the funeral encounter will be awkward as hell. sebastian’s got kathy crying on his shoulder, various horrible moran relations milling around, the key leaders of the american republic throwing shade at him even here–and here’s annabelle’s first husband. sebastian will be going a bit crazy himself. he’ll be too numb to be snarky or rude or sarcastic. he’ll just accept that chris is here like oh. okay. that’s cool. now let me get kathy out of here before jefferson tries to tousle her hair one more time.

tony won’t ever see tanya cry about the reynolds incident. she’ll bring the children home from her parents’ place in upstate new york, so the public can see that the family is standing united. she’ll walk around town and make formal calls to the wives of her husband’s colleagues and take her children for walks in the park and publicly be a complete lady. but at home, she’ll barely even look at tony. she’ll lock her bedroom door at night and start openly taking and reading books from his library and lowkey flirting with the politicians who come for dinner. she’s spent years raising his children and being his wife and being ignored in favour of her brother; she’s not having this anymore. she’s reclaiming her mind and her life and tony can do whatever he likes. but then the breakdown of communication means that tony keeps quiet about their son going off to fight in a duel–until it’s too late, and they’re crying over their dying child, and tanya’s begging tony if he knew

(tanya knows what’s up with tony and her brother. and ‘my anthony’ was a dagger in her heart, but she puts up with it for a long time. it’s the masochism coming out–like in teen!verse, when tom knew he was sebastian’s second choice, but he just kept coming back for punishment again and again, no matter how much it hurt. until he finally snaps.) (tanya snaps after the reynolds pamphlet when it becomes clear that she’s not even second choice. she’s third or fourth, somewhere distantly ranked after whatever honey-trap tony feels like screwing.) (my child)

[kathymoran]

that means that the twins spend the next few years pretty much growing up without their dad, and wondering whether or not he even loves them. whether or not their mum loved them, too, because they both left. and meanwhile, sebastian is getting pretty much buried under politics and the never-ending backlash from the duel with tony

chris has zero motive to start shit or anything, and he’s here entirely because he cared about annabelle, so their first meeting is probably going to be polite and unremarkable. maybe he finds kathy later and introduces himself and tells her a few nice stories about her mum, ones that sebastian probably doesn’t know, and she tells sebastian about it afterward? i imagine she’ll want to spend time with people who knew her mother well, so talking to chris a little more might be a good thing for her

this might be the perfect time for tom and tony to have that “i love you but i love my sister more” conversation, in which they finally lay it all out on the table and tom furiously tells him that he’ll stand by his sister regardless. this might actually be the end for them? tanya will find the heart to forgive tony when they’re dealing with their grief together, but there’s no way that tom and tony can be buds after this

[seb--moran]

Pyotr will follow them to Europe eventually. Once he pulls himself together. He’ll write some stuff in defense of Sebastian, b/c he’s getting slammed in American politics, and then shut up the house in North Carolina and head over to France to bring the children home. Enough time has passed that Sebastian and Pyotr will get along fine, but there’s a mess to fix with the children.

Sebastian will have zero problem with Kathy hanging out with Chris. Annabelle told him how decent and good Chris was about everything, and Kathy seems to really like him, so it’ll be fine. He’ll offer for Chris to come over to the house and spend some time there. And Kathy will come to really love Chris, so I’m guessing it’s only a matter of time before he’s over fairly regularly. Sebastian will make a point of being out of the house at first when Chris is over, but they’ll eventually have to run in again.

the Tom/Tony talk is going to be painful as hell. to complicate this all, Tom is still married himself, and he’s been away from his wife for like a year now, and he’s got to go back to London. That’s actually probably for the best–he and Tony can talk, get all their crap out, and then Tom will leave for London. only Tony’s dead like six months later and Tom comes tearing back across the Atlantic again to help protect Tony’s memory

(also consider that Tom is buried by Tony in Trinity Church in NYC)

[kathymoran]

imagine how close the twins are here, though. they’ve pretty much had no one to rely on but each other for half of their childhood so far, they’ll stand united against or with Pyotr and it’ll be so heartbreakingly bittersweet

Chris will start to feel increasingly weird about spending time in sebastian’s house without sebastian there, so he’ll coordinate with kathy so that he arrives when ‘bastian is at home, and he stops by the bakery and brings a pie. and it’s kind of strange?? like, polite and proper, but he’s not really sure how to play this so he just. does something foolish and clumsy like break their coathanger by accident or ruin the carpet with tea. he’s v cute and embarrassed about it

i really want Tom and Tanya to talk it out, though. they carry on Tony’s memory together, and Tanya eventually comes to terms with their feelings to the point that she buries them side by side. so that’s one hell of a conversation

[seb--moran]

hello yes i would just like to throw into cyberspace the idea of a hamilton au. sebastian as aaron burr, tony as hamilton, and tom as laurens or tanya as eliza, thank you and goodnight

[kathymoran]

ok but listen. this means that kathy is lost at sea when she’s very young, and sebastian’s life is all-around shitty all the time?? 

also consider: sebastian’s disgust @the reynold’s pamphlet because of his own father’s habits

[seb--moran]

kathy dies at 29 having already lost her son to a fever and pyotr and sebastian can barely even stand each other with the depth of their grief. so much pain and anger and loss, i love it. (also pyotr as a southerner from the carolinas, what the hell)

and sebastian has a shitty life, when does he ever not????? (’wait for it’ would be so perfect) (WAIT this is how we could fit chris in–he’s a british officer stationed in america) (do we want him to be annabelle’s husband like in real life? annabelle and sebastian have an affair during the war while chris is off fighting in georgia. after the war, annabelle and chris divorce b/c she’s pregnant and it’s not chris’ kid, and she and sebastian get married, but then she dies when kathy’s still really little, and chris comes to the funeral, and things snowball from there? idk, what do you think?) 

on the one hand, sebastian will admire tony’s candor in the reynolds pamphlet in a ‘omg i can’t believe he actually said that’ kinda way. but then he’s just disgusted. tanya’s a nice lady, how could he do this to her?? like he’s no stranger to selfishness but this is too much

and tom’s home in america during all this, and tony lowkey expects him to be on his side, but instead tom just rips into him and goes to comfort his sister

also consider: “this man will not make an orphan of my daughter”

[kathymoran]

daaaamn. kathy dies and leaves the twins behind?? they’re old enough to understand the concept of their mom being there before, but now she’s not here anymore, and they’re confused about what’s happened. so like, 4-5 yrs old. it slowly kills pyotr inside. this is some Good Angst right here

i think that’d work best if the chris/annabelle divorce wasn’t as angsty as it has potential to be? like, annabelle tells chris about the affair and he’s hurt over it, but ultimately they both know that they were never really in love and they respect each other too much to turn this into a huge incident. chris’ll respect her decision for a divorce, make sure that she knows that she doesn’t have to leave if she doesn’t want to – they can take care of the baby together – and annabelle marries sebastian before kathy is even born. maybe she and chris even keep up a friendly correspondence after a few years. he and sebastian never meet face-to-face, which gives extra angst to the funeral. ya feel??

the reynolds affair is probably some sort of coping mechanism or stress relief or something, which doesn’t make it any more right but at least it’s not coming from a malicious place? either way tony loses both tanya and tom in one go, and it’s awful

here is the thing though: tony really loves his children, and he truly cares for tanya. he knows that he is an incredibly lucky man to have this family, and to come home to tanya teaching their son to play piano, and he must know that she’s wonderful and clever and kind. so the withdrawal into work is only about 80% his compulsion to never stop writing, and the rest is overwhelming guilt at how unsatisfied he is. because tanya is the best of wives and the best of women, but she isn’t tom. tony is yearning for something he can’t have, someone who lives thousands of miles across the ocean, even though his life at home is near perfect. 

(how much do you want to bet that for the first few months after tom left, tony laid awake thinking about their goodbye and the look in tom’s eyes when he said “my anthony” and the pause that came afterward, like he wanted to say so much more but had to settle on a sad “don’t forget to write.”)

(bonus points if that’s the first time that tanya truly realized the depth of what had gone on between them, and what it was doing to tom. and what it was doing to her and tony’s marriage.)

[seb--moran]

pyotr adores the twins, he really does, but the loss of kathy is compounded by the earlier loss of andrew. it was two incredibly heavy blows back-to-back, and the twins are too young and hurt to offer any comfort, and you’re right, it’s going to slowly kill him from the inside out. sebastian will leave america for europe for a few years and he’ll take the twins with him b/c he doesn’t think pyotr’s able to take care of them. which is, like, kinda true atm, but that will only compound pyotr’s misery. 

even if annabelle and chris’ divorce is totally amicable, the funeral encounter will be awkward as hell. sebastian’s got kathy crying on his shoulder, various horrible moran relations milling around, the key leaders of the american republic throwing shade at him even here–and here’s annabelle’s first husband. sebastian will be going a bit crazy himself. he’ll be too numb to be snarky or rude or sarcastic. he’ll just accept that chris is here like oh. okay. that’s cool. now let me get kathy out of here before jefferson tries to tousle her hair one more time.

tony won’t ever see tanya cry about the reynolds incident. she’ll bring the children home from her parents’ place in upstate new york, so the public can see that the family is standing united. she’ll walk around town and make formal calls to the wives of her husband’s colleagues and take her children for walks in the park and publicly be a complete lady. but at home, she’ll barely even look at tony. she’ll lock her bedroom door at night and start openly taking and reading books from his library and lowkey flirting with the politicians who come for dinner. she’s spent years raising his children and being his wife and being ignored in favour of her brother; she’s not having this anymore. she’s reclaiming her mind and her life and tony can do whatever he likes. but then the breakdown of communication means that tony keeps quiet about their son going off to fight in a duel–until it’s too late, and they’re crying over their dying child, and tanya’s begging tony if he knew

(tanya knows what’s up with tony and her brother. and ‘my anthony’ was a dagger in her heart, but she puts up with it for a long time. it’s the masochism coming out–like in teen!verse, when tom knew he was sebastian’s second choice, but he just kept coming back for punishment again and again, no matter how much it hurt. until he finally snaps.) (tanya snaps after the reynolds pamphlet when it becomes clear that she’s not even second choice. she’s third or fourth, somewhere distantly ranked after whatever honey-trap tony feels like screwing.) (my child)

[kathymoran]

that means that the twins spend the next few years pretty much growing up without their dad, and wondering whether or not he even loves them. whether or not their mum loved them, too, because they both left. and meanwhile, sebastian is getting pretty much buried under politics and the never-ending backlash from the duel with tony

chris has zero motive to start shit or anything, and he’s here entirely because he cared about annabelle, so their first meeting is probably going to be polite and unremarkable. maybe he finds kathy later and introduces himself and tells her a few nice stories about her mum, ones that sebastian probably doesn’t know, and she tells sebastian about it afterward? i imagine she’ll want to spend time with people who knew her mother well, so talking to chris a little more might be a good thing for her

this might be the perfect time for tom and tony to have that “i love you but i love my sister more” conversation, in which they finally lay it all out on the table and tom furiously tells him that he’ll stand by his sister regardless. this might actually be the end for them? tanya will find the heart to forgive tony when they’re dealing with their grief together, but there’s no way that tom and tony can be buds after this

[seb--moran]

hello yes i would just like to throw into cyberspace the idea of a hamilton au. sebastian as aaron burr, tony as hamilton, and tom as laurens or tanya as eliza, thank you and goodnight

[kathymoran]

ok but listen. this means that kathy is lost at sea when she’s very young, and sebastian’s life is all-around shitty all the time?? 

also consider: sebastian’s disgust @the reynold’s pamphlet because of his own father’s habits

[seb--moran]

kathy dies at 29 having already lost her son to a fever and pyotr and sebastian can barely even stand each other with the depth of their grief. so much pain and anger and loss, i love it. (also pyotr as a southerner from the carolinas, what the hell)

and sebastian has a shitty life, when does he ever not????? (’wait for it’ would be so perfect) (WAIT this is how we could fit chris in–he’s a british officer stationed in america) (do we want him to be annabelle’s husband like in real life? annabelle and sebastian have an affair during the war while chris is off fighting in georgia. after the war, annabelle and chris divorce b/c she’s pregnant and it’s not chris’ kid, and she and sebastian get married, but then she dies when kathy’s still really little, and chris comes to the funeral, and things snowball from there? idk, what do you think?) 

on the one hand, sebastian will admire tony’s candor in the reynolds pamphlet in a ‘omg i can’t believe he actually said that’ kinda way. but then he’s just disgusted. tanya’s a nice lady, how could he do this to her?? like he’s no stranger to selfishness but this is too much

and tom’s home in america during all this, and tony lowkey expects him to be on his side, but instead tom just rips into him and goes to comfort his sister

also consider: “this man will not make an orphan of my daughter”

[kathymoran]

daaaamn. kathy dies and leaves the twins behind?? they’re old enough to understand the concept of their mom being there before, but now she’s not here anymore, and they’re confused about what’s happened. so like, 4-5 yrs old. it slowly kills pyotr inside. this is some Good Angst right here

i think that’d work best if the chris/annabelle divorce wasn’t as angsty as it has potential to be? like, annabelle tells chris about the affair and he’s hurt over it, but ultimately they both know that they were never really in love and they respect each other too much to turn this into a huge incident. chris’ll respect her decision for a divorce, make sure that she knows that she doesn’t have to leave if she doesn’t want to -- they can take care of the baby together -- and annabelle marries sebastian before kathy is even born. maybe she and chris even keep up a friendly correspondence after a few years. he and sebastian never meet face-to-face, which gives extra angst to the funeral. ya feel??

the reynolds affair is probably some sort of coping mechanism or stress relief or something, which doesn’t make it any more right but at least it’s not coming from a malicious place? either way tony loses both tanya and tom in one go, and it’s awful

here is the thing though: tony really loves his children, and he truly cares for tanya. he knows that he is an incredibly lucky man to have this family, and to come home to tanya teaching their son to play piano, and he must know that she’s wonderful and clever and kind. so the withdrawal into work is only about 80% his compulsion to never stop writing, and the rest is overwhelming guilt at how unsatisfied he is. because tanya is the best of wives and the best of women, but she isn’t tom. tony is yearning for something he can’t have, someone who lives thousands of miles across the ocean, even though his life at home is near perfect. 

(how much do you want to bet that for the first few months after tom left, tony laid awake thinking about their goodbye and the look in tom’s eyes when he said “my anthony” and the pause that came afterward, like he wanted to say so much more but had to settle on a sad “don’t forget to write.”)

(bonus points if that’s the first time that tanya truly realized the depth of what had gone on between them, and what it was doing to tom. and what it was doing to her and tony’s marriage.)

[seb--moran]

hello yes i would just like to throw into cyberspace the idea of a hamilton au. sebastian as aaron burr, tony as hamilton, and tom as laurens or tanya as eliza, thank you and goodnight

[kathymoran]

ok but listen. this means that kathy is lost at sea when she’s very young, and sebastian’s life is all-around shitty all the time?? 

also consider: sebastian’s disgust @the reynold’s pamphlet because of his own father’s habits

[gingermalarkey]

Yeah, homes

[aheardnews]

[pyotrfyodorovich]

Your life is a lie. You kill, that’s who you are, that’s what you know, that’s what you do. You grind people into dust. You have no heart, no soul, no conscience. Your hands are covered in blood. Do you care about anything? Do you love anyone?

—

Moscow, 1961. Pyotr Fyodorovich Yussupov and Ekaterina Sebastianovna Moranova are paired up for a long-standing undercover mission. Pyotr and Ekaterina have never met before–but in a matter of hours, they’ll be flying to America as newlyweds. On Moscow’s command, they’ll have children together, raise a family, play the roles of good, clean-cut middle-class Americans–but it’s on Moscow’s command too that they’ll spy, fight, lie, fuck, and kill for their country. The KGB officers next door. Personal feelings notwithstanding, they have a role to play for their nation. Love for the motherland is the only kind that matters. Anything else need not come into it.  

Washington D.C., 1981. Peter and Kathy Jennings have three beautiful children, a thriving travel agency, and lovely home in the suburbs of the nation’s capital. They might never have learned to love each other, but who cares? Love or not, they are the crown jewels of Moscow’s Illegals Program. What happens behind the scenes of their perfect suburban life need only concern them and their handler. Everything is going perfectly–until FBI counter-intelligence agent Christopher Ralston and his son just so happen to move in next door.

[negasonics-deactivated20160815]

‘Your tracker’s not sending a signal.’

[kathymoran]

Are they still following us?... Is there one of them?... Is he looking at us?... Does he have just one hand on the steering wheel?... When you hear something that sounds like a gunshot, drive.

In the aftermath of WWII, at the height of Cold War’s arms race, Kathy Moran is trapped on the east side of the Iron Curtain with only her German citizenship to protect her. Born in Frankfurt to British parents, her mother long dead and her father forced to work for the Nazis and then sheltered in America, Kathy is a car mechanic with an ugly background and a beautiful skill-set.

Chris Ralston gave up the glory of being a soldier to smuggle stolen artwork during the war, and emerged from the wreckage as one of the best thieves in the world. The CIA caught him by sheer luck, but they would have been fools indeed to let him rot away in prison. In the space of a year, Ralston went from a brilliant thief to a brilliant special operative, his loyalty held on a very tight chain.

Pyotr Yussupov spent his life atoning for the disloyalty of his father to the Soviet Union’s government. The youngest man to ever join the KGB, then become their most promising and deadly asset in 3 short years, he belongs to Russia heart and soul -- he has to. He has a sickly mother to protect, and the shadow of his father to bear.

When an Italian criminal organization snatches Sebastian Moran from America and forces him to work on developing an atomic bomb, the best way to get to him can only be through his daughter. Ralston’s mission is simple: get Kathy Moran over the Iron Curtain. Yussupov’s is even simpler: stop them both. But with the threat of illegal nuclear development looming over the world, USA and the USSR have no choice but to work together. What could possibly go wrong?

pyotrfyodorovich

[fasterfood]

what happens if an undercover cop posing as a drug dealer deals to an undercover cop posing as a drug buyer

[aspen-queen-deactivated20160106]

I read about where something similar to this happened except they were investigating prostitution and they arrested each other and like a year later ended up getting married. 

[zeldaxsnowcrow]

it sounds like the plot of a fanfic

[controlyourface-deactivated2018]

Not a single man came back the same