Katsy

a regular person (insane)

[katsy-kitty]

I haven't been doing well and so I mostly don't come here since ~June.

Sorry if I haven't seen your @ or comment. Or haven't responded.

I'm just very, very. Very...

[katsy-kitty]

Is Hannibal still trending randomly

from time to time

please I need to know

I haven't been here in quite a time.

How's the fandom doing? I hope you're going strong as ever.

[katsy-kitty]

I'm alive btw

HEAVILY self-isolating and not able to respond to most people's messages.

I'm trying, though. Trying to get my life on track. What does it even mean?

Maybe I should atop. Just let things be. Deteriorate and see where that takes me. But I've been there before. And it's not pretty.

Anyway, the anniversary of my self-attempt is coming up this week, so I am *extra* v i g i l a n t of my mental state. And running from it, after being almost fine, almost great (relative), doing things and resting and giving myself grace.

I know progress is not linear. I know healing temporarily takes you back to the lowest moments of your rock-bottom. But this is kind of bullshit.

I'm tired.

Oh and I had a grand mal recently so I guess HANNIBAL REFERENCE, GUYS. Oh if only a Danish almost-psychopath caressed my face lovingly while I was seizing hmm....

A man can dream, I guess *sighs*

[katsy-kitty]

why have i been waking up in the middle of the night absolutely FAMISHED

what's up with that

[katsy-kitty]

imagine if "i don't smoke" was instead called "i don't vape"

[honeygrahambitch]

Season 1 in a nutshell:

[mistikfir]

1x02 "Amuse-Bouche"

[macgyvermedical]

Antidote Quiz 1: VX

Oh No!

Your action hero blorbo has been exposed to VX!

You have access to the following antidotes, but, crucially, no time to google it (your internet is like, really slow), which are you going to use?

Pick One:

Adrenaline

Atropine and Pralidoxime

Naloxone

Flumazenil

Voting ended onSep 2, 2024

[macgyvermedical]

Yay! They lived!

[mlekom3]

[katsy-kitty]

💖Just a gentle nudge to remind you that you're not just existing—you're thriving, even on days when it doesn't feel that way. You're a one-of-a-kind force in this world, bringing light and love in ways you might not even realize. You've overcome so much, and you should be proud of every step you've taken, no matter how small. The world is better with you in it, and you've already made such a difference just by being you. Keep going, keep growing, and never forget how important you are💖

WHO WROTE THAT thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou

Thanks so much :)))

(also oops this was sent more than 2 weeks ago ayayay)

(I am giving myself rest from social interaction, even nice ones, because I'm just so tired and overwhelmed

but I really so so so appreciate your kind words!!!

even if it took me so long to respond

it's in no way a reflection of my not caring or anything)

[cowboykirk]

was there a Hannibal musical episode or was that a dream?

[cowboykirk]

Well @katsy-kitty what I remember from my dream is that mostly everyone was participating in a Mozart opera à la Don Giovanni except a few people who were singing and accompanied in a completely different style and it worked! It’s basically the scene I linked with Hannibal as Don Giovanni and Jack as the Commendatore but with different props. Sometimes the transitions and dialogue with secondary characters were more Rossini than Mozart but it was pretty and set the tone well.

Will and vision of Abigail were singing earnestly, think The Light in the Piazza.

Freddie Lounds sang OUT OF TUNE and annoyed me even in my dream - she was gone (dead? I think?) by intermission. She and Verger + cronies all sang in the style of Linda Belcher sing-speak mimicking west side story but only from the part like 2:34 in the linked west side story scene. It was great. They were so unlikable.

I could totally write/compose NBC Hannibal a Musical if they wanted! It’s STUCK in my head 🙃 I really liked the parts where everyone in the lab was trying to put all of their clues together and it sounded like pick a little talk a little cheep cheep cheep from Oklahoma, but with an operatic inflection.

Let’s be so for real though - Chilton, Mason Verger, and Abel Gideon as characters were MADE to be in a musical. As characters Chilton and Mason scream theatre kid so loudly my ears are bleeding and Abel Gideon screams unironically good but hates theatre and theatre culture and suffers his way through a broadway career but hates his colleagues.

[mooredanxieties]

[katsy-kitty]

tfw you haven't been here in months(?) and you don't know how anything works anymore and who's still here

I am still in this world, by the way

[katsy-kitty]

I'm having a strong belief based on nothing but my own conviction that this weekend I'll finally respond to everyone here and irl that I've been neglecting because I've been feeling overwhelmed for no particular reason.

Have faith in me, please. I need it.

[rulez-of-disorder]

sometimes I just realise that Hannibal the show actually exists and was intentionally made by a lot of people who all knew what they were doing when they were making it and it is not just some fever dream I’ve been having and I let out a shaky breath and have to sit down for a sec.

[roemantics]

this is how my less than a minute photo op experience felt (I did actually demand Hugh hold my ear I’m so sorry Hugh)

[katsy-kitty]

feeling lonely af