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Shrinking

I work to get it all done

But things keep coming

I strive to stay happy

But the emotions grow stronger

I long to be loved

But the crowd doesn’t see me

I grow and I progress

But it’s never fast enough

I try so hard to stay in step

But the worlds so fast

I can’t keep up

You all move forward, cultivate and thrive

But

I’m shrinking

#shrinking #failing #college #struggle

I’m afraid to be alone

Not in the way that you think. I’m not afraid in your typical way where you’re afraid that someone else will do something to you. I’m afraid because I feel like I might do something to myself.

I’ve never told anyone about it but I’m not sure how well I’m going to do when school starts . Or when school ends. I’ve also never said it out loud but I’ve never thought I would actually make it this far into my life. I’ve thought so many times I’d be gone from here. I would talk about the future with my friends, with boyfriends, with coworkers... but in my mind I’ve always thought... nah. That’s not gonna happen. I won’t make it that long.

It’s felt like an accomplishment up until this moment in my life. My head is so fucked up and I wish i could just feel normal.

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These aren't the ruins of a dystopian world after a vicious attack... These are the present day streets of Syria torn apart from war. The fact that this exists in the world today without any form of media coverage or notice disgusts me. We're too busy worrying about how we look, what we're going to do this Friday, etc. that we completely overlook this horrible disaster that's taking place right before us. This is one of many places being devastated by war and turmoil today and yet... We don't seem to care longer than the two week span that the news actually covers once in a while, but two weeks after that it's back to what the kardashians did for us this week... What was it? Oh... That's right they did absolutely Nothing that could possibly benefit the generations of children that must live in this world after us.

#syria #dystopia #why