The Ethos System

“I found faith leaking from the hole in Heaven’s skull” / C-PTSD, DID (System of 5+), MDD / Former Addict / 29 / Female

[maviyenot]

[xanaxfarts]

Arches National Park, Utah photo: Elliot McGucken

[tatzelwurming]

listen i consider myself an empathic person but after a certain point i get sick of other people’s problems. my friend is always talking about how the jewel-eyed skull on their mantlepiece is tormenting them w its sinister beauty and im over it. like dude i don’t want to talk about this anymore. get rid of the fucking skull

[e-102]

you’ are biased against my skull

[tatzelwurming]

i’m not having this argument again man

[bark-barkley]

I WANT TO LOOK AT THINGS MADE BY HUMAN BEINGS

[softwetmoss]

And also occasionally by pufferfish

[pileofknives]

Indigenous peoples of the great plains should've never told white people about tornadoes. "I don't know man that shit never happened before you showed up"

[subaru-copilot]

looks inside procrastination -> it's anxiety -> looks inside anxiety -> it's fear -> looks inside fear -> it's shame

[teaboot]

Surely these circumstances will improve with additional shame

[museify]

[dappermouth]

i can understand the trials but were the tribulations really necessary

[heartbreakhur]

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[donkeydickjess]

[scrantonpaper-deactivated201809]

me, watching a battle scene: please not the horses. leave them alone. they did nothing wrong. they are the only innocent ones. they don’t deserve this.

[fiyhi]

honestly this used to upset me a lot as a kid until my mom, who’s worked with horses for many years, told me about how they train the horses in those movies to do things like falling down, kneeling, crawling, or stay laying on the ground after they fall. and how it’s so tough to train a prey animal to do these behaviors and how hard both trainer and horse have to work. so now whenever i see a horse take a hit and go down in a movie, i just think “fucking superb you funky little horse actor”

[sebbytrash]

This perspective made my life 3000% better

[pukicho]

Pikachu chu train

chu chu train it’s a chu chu train

pika chu chu train ! chu chuu !!!

[parkernoir]

where’s it going

[pukicho]

Straight to Hell

[thebrokengenderqueer]

[hirohamada]

wearing a blanket around the house like

[puppyenergy]

some DID things i wish someone had told me sooner

tumblr is not a resource.

dissociation isn’t spiritual.

systems aren’t spiritual either.

other people won’t usually notice you switching but sometimes you won’t  notice yourself switching either.

you don’t have to know who was fronting at all times.

alters can influence you even if they’re not currently fronting (re: passive influence).

sometimes you won’t realize when an alter is co-con with you, other times you will but you won’t know who.

it’s ok if you don’t know who you are.

it’s ok if you don’t know how many alters you have.

your alters don’t have to have their own names.

it’s common to not know every little detail about your alters.

it’s also common to not have good system communication.

persecutors are traumatized, not evil.

every part of you deserves a chance to recover and be happy. treat your alters kindly.

you don’t have to identify as multiple people just because you have DID.

alters are parts of one whole.

you don’t have to have a system name.

you don’t owe anyone anything about your alters or trauma (but you should consider sharing with a therapist).

it’s ok to not know everything about your system.

it’s ok to be confused about a lot of things.

DID is confusing.

[kafkaesque-world]

“How lonely it is here, and how well it suits you.”

— Franz Kafka, The Blue Octavo Notebooks

[petite-frenchie-deactivated2020]