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shock

why must life have a grand purpose? is it not enough to have some basil, and mozzarella?

humansofnewyork

“Adults guess and assume that I’m not going to understand things just because I’m a little kid. And it can be frustrating. Cause, like, I really want to know stuff. Or even when they do talk to me about things, they’ll always try to ‘tone it down to my level.’ They especially avoid the heavy themes like sex and death and cannibalism and stuff. But that’s stuff I want to talk about. I’m really fascinated by the Donner Party. The entire expedition, really. What did it feel like to eat people that you knew? I’m also fascinated by how the human mind deals with death. It’s like people shut down the idea of death completely, and insist that heaven and hell are places after death. But death is death. And everyone after death is dead, because consciousness is just your brain. And even if there is evidence of life after death, it’s difficult to assess. We’re going to be incredibly biased toward any information that suggests there’s something more. Because we are so desperate to believe it.”

Uh, why are her parents not supervising their child’s content consumption on the fucking Internet?

An elementary school girl finding out about “sex and death and canniablism and stuff” is one thing; a little girl expressing to a complete stranger she is fascinsted by these things and wants to know about them seemingly above anything else “adult” related? Ummmmmm. This ain’t it, chief.

zoobus

It is possible, plausible, and realistic for a child to gain an interest in these topics with or without the aid of the internet. I understand you want to protect children but the gut reaction to a child showing a clearly advanced and nuanced interest shouldn’t be to clamp your hands around their ears and cry out there too young to know these things - it’s never a good idea to punish or frighten a child for being curious, and that’s what your reaction does.

Also you can read about these things in books, like the Donner party isn’t some obscure hushed event only the grown ups know about, cannibal isn’t a word you learn in middle school

earlgraytay

I read Moby Dick in the fourth grade (mostly because people told me I couldn’t) and spent way too much time trying to figure out why a dude would share a bed with someone he knew was a cannibal. And I was a sheltered kid!

A singular anecdote is just a data point, but….

wolffyluna

I don’t know if these are as much of a thing in America, but there’s a book series called ‘Horrible Histories’– which maybe doesn’t contain any sex, has an awful lot of violence and cannibalism. And I wouldn’t be surprised if one book or another covered the Donner Party. That book series is a) aimed at primary school kids, and b) *beloved* of primary school kids. Because of the violence, torture, death and shit.

kawuli

Dude when I was idk 10 or 11 I read obsessively about the Holocaust and my favorite artist was Frida Kahlo and I was having a secret existential crisis about the fact that my baby-scientist brain didn’t know how to believe in God and so I was A Bad Person probably?

…and the internet wasn’t even a thing! (I mean, the www may have technically existed in 1993? But I sure didn’t know about it)

“oh no this child Knows Disturbing Things, that’s terrible” is the kind of attitude I’d expect from my Christian-homeschooled cousins, for fucks sake

star-anise

When I was a little kid I read the World Book Encyclopedia. Like, on rainy days, I’d pull out a volume and page through it to see what looked interesting. It ABSOLUTELY had entries for sex and death and cannibalism and the Donner Party. (I was 7 during my own WWII fixation).

Adults saying, “You’re too young to know about that, stop asking,” did no good whatsoever for my mental health. They didn’t stop me from wanting to learn, they couldn’t prevent me from using my school library’s reference materials, and they didn’t take away my concerns or anxieties about topics I didn’t know how to handle.

What helped me was adults who helped me talk through what I was learning about. Who helped me connect the weird, incredible-sounding things I read about to real life. Who let me perform science experiments and build backyard treehouses and try new foods because I’d read about them. Who hugged me when I came downstairs late at night crying because a character in a book had died. Who didn’t shame me for my interests or tell me I was wrong or weird for wanting to soak information up like a sponge.

amadeussystem

Omega here with an unpopular opinion according to MD’s sister: SYSTEMS ARE NOT INHERENTLY DANGEROUS. ALTERS ARE NOT INHERENTLY DANGEROUS. MENTAL DISORDERS IN GENERAL ARE NOT INHERENTLY DANGEROUS.

Thanks for listening.

multiplicitymemes

wenchyfloozymoo

tlirsgender

You ever try to write romance and you just feel like this image

tlirsgender

Me: ok so then they kiss. Word it

My brain, gay and also stupid: ttheir lipsps……..

Me: go on

Brain: hhdhfbfhhf kis

owlet

big fat reminder

you do not owe your diagnoses to anyone but your doctors!!! there’s a reason HIPAA laws exist; you have every right to consider your medical history to be private, sensitive information.

you do not owe it to your employer! you do not owe it to your family! and you sure as hell do not owe it to a stranger on the internet!

vanillagloss

people who hate 80s music don't interact

mjalti

I’m a simple girl. I awake from restless ancient slumber haunted by the shadows of my forgotten names and I’m hungry

mindflamer

when i was depressed those “reasons not to kill yourself” lists never helped.. maybe they do for some people but for me they actually made me feel worse. it was like….here’s a reminder that there are all these things other people find joy in that you can’t. with a sprinkle of guilt because “your family/friends will miss you.”

what i needed to hear, and so what i’ll tell any of you reading this who are in the same situation, was: a lot of people recover from mental illness and go on to live full lives. it’s quite likely that with treatment, a time will come when you won’t want to die anymore and you’ll find joy in everyday life. yes, you. stay alive for that possibility.

gumbootsoup

that supergirl lesbian kiss where the girls look like they are going to quit after that take is the polar opposite of the scene in brokeback where alma sees jack and ennis making out and heath ledger almost broke jake gyllenhaals nose

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