O.R.T.

★ ★ ★ Kaiser/Star/Kill ★ ★ ★ || 2/10 || Male/Neutral || Horror + Cute Sombra main :^) ======== C-PTSD\Self Harm\Anorexia N. w/Mia subtype Cut free since: October 2022 ★ ★ ★

[stability]

i literally can’t stop thinking about this video and i lose it every time

[vexheart]

[papayathesecond]

BEETLE PATTERN

[unexplained-events]

The movement testing for the movie Mama

Video Source

[l4zarett]

abt my previpus post

[goshiii]

artblock is coming back oh nooooo

[babynapa]

[godzillabreath]

RIP Gandhi he would have loved dangerous TikTok challenges

[thotsfortherapy]

so for those of you who don't know, I was recently diagnosed with ADHD-I. So far, I think my favourite thing that I've learned is the idea of "embrace the pivot".

Have you ever found a productivity system that works for you (whether it be your Google calendar, bullet journaling, agenda-ing, etc), and you're so pumped because it's like finally! Now I can actually get some stuff done! But then time passes, days or weeks or years, and the novelty of it runs out, and then it kind of just... Stops working. It can be so frustrating, because this thing that used to work no longer works for seemingly no reason.

But, that isn't a failing of the thing, that thing worked for a certain amount of time, and that's good! I used a massive agenda in my first year of uni, and it kept me on track for all my assignments. My second year agenda? Barely touched it. Instead, I started to use a bullet journal, and that was the thing that helped me through most of the year. But as time went on, my spreads got less creative, and in the final term, I didn't even want to touch it because it was too much work. So I switched to Notion.

The agenda didn't fail me, and neither did the bullet journal, it just worked for a certain amount of time. And when that time inevitably runs out, you can just say, "thank you for serving me for so long, I'm going to pivot to the next thing." And then you do it without feeling like you should try harder or like that thing failed you.

This doesn't just have to apply to productivity either. Systems, tools, habits, hobbies, coping mechanisms.. They all serve their purpose. It's okay to let them go when the time comes.

[dianmz]

Some brain vomit before I head to bed. No thoughts, head empty:

1) Childhood has a smell, when I look at old photos I can smell the memories. The scent is fleeting and it makes me melancholy.

2) I know it’s illogical to (STILL) feel depressed as fuck about my green card/ visa situation because, well, first of all, there’s literally nothing I personally can do to make my case better; secondly, this case is, again literally, finalizing itself. So why in the world do I feel like I want to… lol, see #6.

3) Feeling pretty dead inside because I will get my green card after spending all of my 20s on this lil thing. Eh, I will live. I am done whining.

4) BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN I DON’T FEEL SAD AS FUCK ABOUT IT.

5) Okay I am working on it.

6) Therapist asked why I chose therapy this morning (*we meet twice a week) and I just answered: “Well I got backed into a corner, emotionally.”

Him: “What backed you into the coroner?”

Me: “Ehhhm….”

Like… I mean….. The fact that I want to grab my skin and rip it off from head to toe like I’m molting?

Me: “Is this normal?”

Him: “Why does it matter if it’s normal to other ppl? It’s your Normal. You do it, so it’s normal.”

Me: “I mean…”

What if I want to unhinge my jaw and swallow a chicken whole because the beast in my belly - No. Nope. I didn’t have enough courage to say this part out loud. I am a coward. A COWARD!!

7) I miss having free time. I have so much work. All I do is work. Work every day and I don’t have the mental bandwidth to do my hobby.

8) What’s funny is that, lol, both my hobby and my work are “art.”

9) Anyway.

10) God I love Star Wars.

[le-poofe]

Get Up

[crabanarchy]

i miss cd drives. how could you just take her pussy away. likes its nothing

[stonelions]

he thinks he's being so smooth with his little face on my leg. i SEE you, villain

[veryluckyclovers]

[emballs69]

Asa on wheels

[nerdygaymormon]

A reminder that sell-buy dates or best-used-by dates are not the same as expiration dates.

I love that a food bank is providing this info as they are experts in stretching food budgets and knowledgable in shelf-stable food items

[borrowmyshovel]

Too many of you conceptualize trans men as having access to all the advantages of cis womanhood and cis manhood combined, when the reality is that most of us just see the disadvantages of failed manhood and failed womanhood combined

[doberbutts]

All trans people are Schroedinger's Gender. You are simultaneously both and also neither male and female, man and woman, depending on what they feel would hurt you most at the time. This can change day to day, hour to hour, even minute to minute.

Examples:

Trans woman who is told she can't change her gender marker on her ID, takes off her shirt in a parking lot to change and is arrested for public indecency for her female-presenting nipple exposure, and is currently housed in a men's prison. What gender is she? The gender that hurts her the most at the time. Both and yet neither. Because fuck you that's why.

Trans man who requests to compete in boys' wrestling, forced to compete with the girls instead. Punished for "flashing" his bottom growth while taking a shower in the locker room. School's parents want him kicked out of sports because he keeps winning by a *lot* when he wrestles the girls, saying it's not fair to make the girls compete in strength with his testosterone. During yet another meeting where he requests to wrestle the boys, he's yet again denied *despite this* because he's a girl. Eventually beaten up by the boys at school mad that he's thrashing their girlfriends. Boys justify it by saying it's okay to hit him because he's not "really" a girl. What gender is he? Whatever gender he can be punished with at the time. Both and yet neither. Because fuck you that's why.

I didn't pull these out of my head. They're real people, real transgender stories I've been told either through news or firsthand accounts.