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Day 1: Your Stats~

Hw: 216 Hw after relapse 186 Cw: 165 Gw: 150 Ugw: 125-135

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

Well im 5'5 and I used to think I was too tall for how old I was when I was younger but now I think im pretty content

Day 3: A picture of your thinspiration, what features do you like about this person?

I like how beautiful and dainty she looks. You get the sense she could get anyone she wanted and in the morning when they wake up they see a beautiful girl in their bed. That could be me one day. Wearing a beautiful dress with a perfect jaw, neck, and collarbone. Perfect arms and legs, never fearing clothes that cling to me ever again.

Day 4: Your greatest fears about weight loss

I'm scared I won't like how I look once I get thin. Maybe my body won't look good small or maybe I'll never be happy. I'm scared of hair loss, never getting kids. I'm scared of literal death from binging after fasts I'm scared this will all be for nothing. But nonetheles, I continue.

Day 5: Why do you really want to lose weight? Are you doing it for you?

Well I think it started because I just didn't like how I look. Now I've formed the belief that no one really likes me because I'm just so fat. I can get girlfriends but never a boyfriend. My friends like and include everyone in the group- unless they're fat. Maybe people will finally get crushes on me once I'm thin, and I think right now, thats the biggest goal.

Day 6: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I binge out of boredom. I open the fridge and grab the most unhealthy shit then it tastes so good that I just can't stop or pace myself. I've been good about it recently but this might just be a honeymoon phase I dunno..

Day 7: Do your parents know you are trying to lose weight? Do they care?

Well my dad helps me cause he thinks I'm being healthy and up until tonight my mom was unbothered.. that is until I told her I lot my period. Now she's saying I don't eat enough- which is deffo true

Day 8: Your workout routine

Well I haven't been doing it for a bit so fvcķkkk me but anyways here it is

Day 9: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Rarely but the times they did its still stuck in my memory

Day 10: What was your hardest thing you gave up during this weight loss?

Confidence

Day 11: Your favorite thinspo blog and why

Ieroscals, a real bestie lol

blackpowwer-blog

REBLOG: go to your blog and click the egg to see what hatches

jinglepancakebells

I got Sonic the Hedgehog.

Sonic the freaking Hedgehog.

Maybe I cracked the egg too fast.

pikachucastiel-deactivated20220

I GOT A SPARKLY NICHOLAS CAGE

ohwormbro

GUYS SO YOU GO TO YOUR PAGE OR BLOG AND THEN CLICK ON THE EGG LIKE IT US A PHOTO

mountain-dew-tickledpink

Sparkly Nicholas Cage

writeranon69

you know, none of these reblog tricks work on mobile

katabasis-incorporated

me trying to avoid self diagnosing

jaellaela

My safe foods / comfort food ideas / TW ED

-1 cup of puffed rice has 70 calories.

- Popcorn With 31 calories per cup.

-with 1 cup (128 grams) of raw carrots delivering just 52 calories.

- Bubble gum zero calories.

-Cereal bar, 100 calories less or more. depending on which I picked.

-Rice cake 1 cake has 35 cal.

The last one but no less important. green tea, ever best friend. I recommend you a lot puffed rice. but could be addictive , just buy the individual portion. drink water and take care of yourlself . first post that i write... <333

toastbutteregg

thoughtkick

“Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.”

— Charlie Chaplin in a letter to his daughter, Geraldine

amoreaiutamiacontarelestelle-de

✨ moonydreamy-n ✨

konoko

xxplosive

anadevilsworld

as a toddler they showed me pictures of disney princesses with waists the size of the quarters and said isn’t she beautiful ?

in elementary school they put everyone on the line and said the number of beeps you made it to in the pacer was a measure of your grade, worth, and health

in middle school they gave us each 10 m&ms and then we went on a walk, counting the steps until we’d walked far enough to burn them off

in high school my running coaches gave us a number that was the ideal weight for runners and worked harder for the girls that hit that number

in college i would come home to grandparents praising how much weight i’d lost and fondly calling me tiny

and then they all turn around and ask me why are you like this? why can’t you stop thinking about this? why are you so obsessed?

do you think this is beautiful?

no. but you told me it was