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Pascal Häusermann, Villa Barreau, Aspremont, Savoie, France. 1966-1971

#this fucking slaps #architecture #inspiration

one time we were listening to fleetwood mac in the car and my sister who was probably 4 at the time asked, without being prompted, “can girls marry girls?” and THAT is the power of stevie nicks

rockytheeridian

if any of you fuckers put that new Harry Potter show on my dash I am blocking your ass

Me as I am healing my mental health: I hope that me getting better and feeling more in control, won't take my love away for the dark and creepy and the body horror that has defined me so long. What if it was actually hurting me instead of helping?

Me once the period cramps hit: I AM CLAW AND TEETH THE GROWL IN THE NIGHT CARVE AWAY WHAT PRETENDS TO BE HUMAN RIP IN TO MYSELF I AM ARMS AND ARMS AND ARMS AND ELBOWS LET ME FLAIL MYSELF ALIVE AND STRANGLE MY CREAOR WITH MY SKIN CONSUME CONSUME CONSUME UNTIL I AM NO MORE

#body horror for ts #i am writing an email to my employer and i just want to hiss and then die under my bed

beaft

i am not a psychiatrist but i do find it really weird how autism checklists are so often focused on "outward" signs of autism rather than what is going on internally. i don't know how to explain it but "do you make eye contact with other people" feels like a much less relevant question than "how does it feel when you have to make eye contact with other people?"

beaft

while i'm here, the other one that always pisses me off is "do you interpret idioms literally, for example 'bull in a china shop'?"

well, no, obviously. i know what "bull in a china shop" means because that is a popular phrase with a clearly defined meaning. and if i hadn't heard it before, then i would still not interpret it literally, because it has the cadence of an idiom and i would probably be able to work out from context what it meant. what is the point of this question

beaft

third and final complaint: "are you good at noticing subtext?"

i feel like the problem with this question is best illustrated by a conversation i had with a friend a while back, where i said something like, "i feel very safe with you because you don't do subtle hints and you are always very straight-up with me about what you are thinking and feeling."

and he laid a hand on my shoulder and was like, look dude i'm gonna be straight up here. i am subtle with you constantly and you simply do not notice <3

beaft

@luckyybones hope you don't mind me screenshotting but you are actually so correct

#i was so scared of dbt because it sounded so much like well my childhood #you have big feelings and it is ruining your mental health #well this is how you geet easier to digest #but as a treatment you can feel it is developed by someone with bpd #because a lot of it is about letting go of the guilt you feel and about you trying to feel better #still the doctors slipped up and used ablelist language a lot #and doing it while trying to process the trauma of late diagnosis was .... a lot #when the doctor returned that refused to test me for autism i started disasociating in the courses a lot #i am being way to honest n the tagss again #but i cant really talk to anyone about this right now #what i wanted to say is #when you are in the diagnosis #do not censor yourself #and i know that is really hard after a lifetime #but tell them everything that comes up #tell them you see the bull and you know it is a idiom #tell them you like idioms #or maybe that you like the clarity of poetic parallels in them or you like knowing where they come from #honestly i had seen so much autism content and never apllied it to myself #until someone suggested it for me and then i was #oh i did train myself to make eye contact in school #and i have a set of facial expressions for work #and oh i can think of a feeling an i fell it in my face and can replicate it so muchm #that i will make a sad face and then be sad #i feel like the girl in that klicker story #autism #also so many girlies in my dbt need to be tested for autism #like you are nineteen and they told you you have inapropriately large feelings... mhhh

kosmogrl

the secret to life is always having something to look forward to

kosmogrl

to anyone saying there's nothing to look forward to, I'm not saying it has to be anything spectacular or huge. it could just be a song or a book that will release in a few days, a tv show, anything!! no matter how small it seems it can keep us going

samwisegamgeeee

Quick! Put in the tags what you’re looking forward to right now!

I’ll go first: Im gonna go out to try a new restaurant this week with a friend!!

#every now and then i think about matt fractions story about how wanting to read the next issue of a comic book saved his life #and i am like #yes #wanting to find the beat french toast is enough #the taste of honey and a crunch of toast #or the next locked tomb book #or my nieces next drawing she gifts to me #or my nephews giggle when i twirl him around #and that piece i am really proud of needs to be finished #or that route in the climbing gy #live for life itself babys it can be really small #life affirming #i want to live a vibrant life #but i want to die a boring death

sodiumvaporss

i do have to say that no matter how shitty any sort of media is or how shitty your own creations are. always remember

not-so-blue

And I don't expect I shall return.

THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING 2001, dir. Peter Jackson

#autistic burnout #late diagnosed autistic #lotr #tolkien #lord of the rings #not gonna lie i have been quoting this to my medical team

theocseason4

Everything is embarrassing if you live your life through the eyes of others btw

thevaultofretroscifi

#i wil allways be in love with this #bioshock #gaming #concept art

hungwy

theo van gogh was the one who suggested that his older brother vincent start seriously painting. as soon as theo was gainfully employed he gave vincent around 15% of his own yearly salary for art supplies, lodging, and food. about 2/3rds of vincent's surviving letters were to theo (including vincent's earliest and last letters), all of which were found stored in theo's desk. theo's child, vincent willem, was born on january 31st, 1890, and vincent was so delighted by his nephew that he painted almond blossoms for him. vincent shot himself half a year later on july 29th, 1890. theo's distress at his brother's death worsened his syphilis symptoms and he died half a year after his brother on january 25th, 1891 (four days before vincent willem's first birthday). theo was reburied next to vincent in auvers-sur-oise at the request of theo's wife johanna.

nutropes

Almond Blossoms, 1890, Vincent van Gogh

#van gogh #i was thinking about this post #thank god you hand delivered it to me #i am truly delighted by the notes coming from your deep dive

theotherwesley

He was as tall as he was tall, and his eyes were the color they were. To describe his hair one would say that he had some. His face had all the features you'd expect, and none of the ones you wouldn't. "There he is," people would often say of him, but only when he was there. And they were right.

#this read so pratchett or something #i love it #writing