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I love eric so much my heart holds so much love for a dead man it's unsettling all day everyday all i can think about is eric i have hallucinations of him whenever I eat i ask myself "would eric eat this?" My soul is genuinely dedicated to him

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Old and ass art of the big eh im not proud of snymore but somebody might like it [ignore the anatomy it's ass I know]

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I chickened out of an attempt so here's my gay su1cide note

(Anything with [___] was replaced 4 privacy)

Im sorry im sorry im sorry I love you all so much but I csnt anymore I just cant I hold so much love in my heart for everyone I know even people who hurt me but my pain is stronger my pain is everywhere I cant stay clean from cutting myself or digging into my skin I want somebody to look at me and not see a crazed teenager going nuts and killing themselves because that's not what this is I might be crazy but that's not a bad thing im just tired im so tired of waking up and not having a reason to leave bed other than guilt and eric fucking harris im tired of crying myself to sleep cuddling some shitty stuffed animal pretending it's a killer im just tired im really tired I'm sorry if you hate me because I hate myself too I hate that no matter what I do the pain comes back ive been distracting myself constantly and I cant keep doing it im tired of everything

Maybe in another life I wasnt this pathetic and selfish to where I have to overdose to feel happy but idk what else to do cutting myself isnt working talking about my feelings isnt working writing isnt working nothing is working and im exhausted. I can't live with myself because im gross is impure and it's like those lyrics j am gross and perverted im obsessed and deranged ichave existed for years but very little has changed

I'll see Eric in hell ig since suicide = hell to Christians

Please read this at my funeral it'd be so funny

Dear [FRIEND],

I love you so much. You're the mom i never had and I'm forever grateful for that. You genuinely made my day a bit better whenever we talked please dont blame yourself I love you too much for that I still remember first talking to you it was so awkward lol

[FRIEND]

I love you. I love you in a way words cannot describe. You are one of my dearest friends and for that im forever grateful I remember hanging out constantly and all that lol it was so fun I loved hanging out with you again please dont blame yourself

[FRIEND]

Thank you for showing me how people were supposed to treat me. You were always nice to me and you cared and you didn't ignore me you have awesome humor im so glad you're empl*yed now lol

[FRIEND]

You helped me through so much. You made me realize not every person I meet is bad. That it isn't always a bad thing to reach out to people and you got me into so many fandoms like deltarune and twst I love you dude

[FRIEND]

I wasn’t aure how to word this before but I do now. Your music taste is awesome dude, don't give up on the guitar. You made me feel better whenever I was down in the dumps and you sent me stupid videos they probably didn't mean much to you but they meant the world to me

[SISTER]

Thank you. Thank you for showing me how people are supposed to treat each other. We don't always get along but God if talking to you didn't make me feel better I don't know what it was Thank you for helping me so many times I love you so much you're an amazing sister

Dad

I love you. You changed my life sk many times which sounds weird because obviously since youre my dad but you just treated me like nobody else did and I love yoj so much

Im sorry. Maybe in another timeline I didn’t have to leave. Maybe in another timeline I didn’t have to pump myself with medication to live. Maybe in another timeline my medication didn't make me feel numb and dull. Maybe in another timeline there was a version of me selfless enough to not leave you all behind. But that isn't this timeline. And I'm sorry if you thought it would be this one.

Damn this is a short suicide note my bad lol

And if anyone was wondering no mom and Matt don't deserve a section🖕

#actually mentally ill #mental illness #mentally fucked #passive suicidality #mentally unstable #suicidenote

Damn all the oomfs like this video💔

Im too tired for ts why am I drawing some chuds at 2AM

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The only good part of constant hallucinations is randomly seeing Eric and having him comfort you mid-freakout like kicking and punching walls freakout I bawled so hard the other day from it i need to get back on my meds but I haven't taken them for over a week

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I love eric so much ive read all of his writings from an archival site atleast 6 times every time I do something all I can think about is eric Ive had multiple dreams about him he's like a disease taking over my brain I need a lobotomy

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Sometimes I use my long stuffed animal thing and hug it and pretend it's eric I feel like a woman in the 30s while her husband is at war but im a trans guy and he's just dead

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i hate whenever antis see a case and look at the perp, and there first instinct is to make fun of the perps looks, the way they dress, how they acted, or really anything about them. and they're always saying "stop bullying" or "looks don't matter". you're part of the reason they did it!

I feel genuine grief for a man ive never met i miss eric so dearly and yet I would've never met him is that weird is that strange I feel like thats weird I miss him