#suicidenote

[kn0ckoffchuc2ss]

I chickened out of an attempt so here's my gay su1cide note

(Anything with [___] was replaced 4 privacy)

Im sorry im sorry im sorry I love you all so much but I csnt anymore I just cant I hold so much love in my heart for everyone I know even people who hurt me but my pain is stronger my pain is everywhere I cant stay clean from cutting myself or digging into my skin I want somebody to look at me and not see a crazed teenager going nuts and killing themselves because that's not what this is I might be crazy but that's not a bad thing im just tired im so tired of waking up and not having a reason to leave bed other than guilt and eric fucking harris im tired of crying myself to sleep cuddling some shitty stuffed animal pretending it's a killer im just tired im really tired I'm sorry if you hate me because I hate myself too I hate that no matter what I do the pain comes back ive been distracting myself constantly and I cant keep doing it im tired of everything

Maybe in another life I wasnt this pathetic and selfish to where I have to overdose to feel happy but idk what else to do cutting myself isnt working talking about my feelings isnt working writing isnt working nothing is working and im exhausted. I can't live with myself because im gross is impure and it's like those lyrics j am gross and perverted im obsessed and deranged ichave existed for years but very little has changed

I'll see Eric in hell ig since suicide = hell to Christians

Please read this at my funeral it'd be so funny

Dear [FRIEND],

I love you so much. You're the mom i never had and I'm forever grateful for that. You genuinely made my day a bit better whenever we talked please dont blame yourself I love you too much for that I still remember first talking to you it was so awkward lol

[FRIEND]

I love you. I love you in a way words cannot describe. You are one of my dearest friends and for that im forever grateful I remember hanging out constantly and all that lol it was so fun I loved hanging out with you again please dont blame yourself

[FRIEND]

Thank you for showing me how people were supposed to treat me. You were always nice to me and you cared and you didn't ignore me you have awesome humor im so glad you're empl*yed now lol

[FRIEND]

You helped me through so much. You made me realize not every person I meet is bad. That it isn't always a bad thing to reach out to people and you got me into so many fandoms like deltarune and twst I love you dude

[FRIEND]

I wasn’t aure how to word this before but I do now. Your music taste is awesome dude, don't give up on the guitar. You made me feel better whenever I was down in the dumps and you sent me stupid videos they probably didn't mean much to you but they meant the world to me

[SISTER]

Thank you. Thank you for showing me how people are supposed to treat each other. We don't always get along but God if talking to you didn't make me feel better I don't know what it was Thank you for helping me so many times I love you so much you're an amazing sister

Dad

I love you. You changed my life sk many times which sounds weird because obviously since youre my dad but you just treated me like nobody else did and I love yoj so much

Im sorry. Maybe in another timeline I didn’t have to leave. Maybe in another timeline I didn’t have to pump myself with medication to live. Maybe in another timeline my medication didn't make me feel numb and dull. Maybe in another timeline there was a version of me selfless enough to not leave you all behind. But that isn't this timeline. And I'm sorry if you thought it would be this one.

Damn this is a short suicide note my bad lol

And if anyone was wondering no mom and Matt don't deserve a section🖕

[unexpressedthoughtsanddesires]

Cease to be

In the dim light of my despair, I see your shadow everywhere. I can't unsee you with him.

Giving up on us means giving up on me, Because you are everything my heart desires.

If your heart belongs to another, My life shatters, There's no purpose for me to discover. A hollow shell, a ghostly frame, Without your love, I'm lost. I am nothing.

I wander through the empty streets, A soul adrift, no heartbeat meets. The world, a blur, a distant cry, Without you, I have no reason why.

I thought my love for you was strong, But now I see, it was as fragile as glass. Glass, you dropped on the floor when you slept with him.

You told me you were not looking for love, When the truth was you were not looking for it from me. You accepted the love from him, And left me here, with nothing true, wondering what is wrong with me.

So I'm giving up on life, You see, For without you, there's no me. A void, a chasm, deep and wide, No light, no hope, just endless night.

I write these words with trembling hand, A final note, a last command. To love you was my only goal, But now, I surrender.

In the silence, I will fade, A memory, A ghostly shade.

For giving up on you means giving up on me, And in this darkness, I'll cease to be.

[night-full-of-roses]

How do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?

Doc Luben -  "14 Lines from Love Letters or Suicide Notes"

[quotespiration]

I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times.

Virginia Woolf 

[violagiacobone]

kurt cobain suicide note

[yeetmeat]

This is it. This is where I am going to say goodbye, life is too good for me. I'm tired, I'm overwhelmed. So I'm leaving.

I know it might seem selfish, but it's for the best. Everyone will be happier when I am gone, when I'm no longer alive. I know you're all tired of me, annoyed with me. In some way or another, you have a negative opinion of me. I understand.

You should just forget about me, and I will be fine with that. You should move on with your life, don't let me hold you back. I'm not worth it.

My time on this earth was nice, sometimes, thanks to everyone I knew.

I wish you well in everything you intend to do with your life,

Quinn