Lesbian radfem made the trauma from my fresh abuse worse.
I found radical feminism after dumping a very abuse ex and the trauma from being r@ped and was very confused about my sexuality. I thought I was bi and was told the most misogynistic slurs I have ever heard by lesbians and told it was "lesbophobic" to even defend myself. It was ongoing, I was in a radfem bi server and others would share the horrible things lesbians said about straight and bi women. Every online space where radfems gathered, I was never spared, I was an evil "bihet cumdumpster, cum brained, tainted by penis etc". That "there is no feminism without lesbianism" and to "get out of lesbian spaces" aka feminism cause only lesbians are the true feminists.
The straw that broke me was on ovarit and a radfem lesbian said basically just being around men, breathing the same air, just in the same room, "osa" women "absorb male energy and sexuality and lesbians can sense it". A bi woman argued this is just saying we are tainted by men like not being a virgin and the lesbian justified her stance. I just recently lost my father when I read that and was heavily mourning his passing.
(plus I was yelled at and berated ovarit admins for even asking for a bi only space)
Being in these spaces made me suicidal, hate myself, hate my body, be insanely hyper scared of any male, got sexually abused again this time by a woman, on top of freshly escaped a abusive relationship. I left all radfem groups, deleted my ovarit and left all radfem discords
After some healing (still in the process, day by day it's hard with my cPTSD) I'm straight and I feel so much more relief accepting being straight as normal and not a curse lesbians and lesbian influenced bisexuals made me to feel daily.
My unpopular take: lesbians were right. There is no feminism without lesbianism especially modern feminism. It's a Marxist cult which is destroying society. As a black women, 2nd wave feminism had a hand in the destruction of black America, influencing black women to "don't need no man", destroy the black nuclear family, created a baby mama matriarchal culture of where single mothers raised broken men(and women) and the demonization of black fathers, demonize marriage, demonize the nuclear family and even worse, planned Parenthood was run by a marxist racist Margaret Sanger who believed in destroying black people by aborting us in the womb, which in America, the most aborted unborn babies are black. So feminism supports the destruction of black people. Why would I take advice from a bunch of racist lesbian feminists who tell me I'm tainted because I like men?
Literally they proved to me they are the man hating feminazi that I thought wasn't real.
Take it or leave it but 2nd-4th(?) Wave feminism is absolutely Marxist filth. I know one may say my abusive ex is proof to "kill all men", but I love my father and maybe they just got daddy issues idk, plus it was a man who I was with who was so gentle with my abuse, flashbacks, was there when I wanted to off myself. Lesbian radfems encourage suicidal intentions by telling me I'm evil cause of my "osa". That I deserved my abuse cause I choose to be near men and deserve future abuse if I do it again, that I was looked at like shit in the sidewalk cause I said "I'm bi' and told I'm disgusting cause I dated men. It was lesbians feminists who made me feel worthless when I thought they "supported all women". They wanted "osa" women to worship them and their sexuality.
It's a Marxist cult. Modern qFeminism is Lesbian Marxism. A matriarchy is communism and it's beginning in the west.
It hates heterosexuality, hates the nuclear family, demonizes motherhood but worships the empty womb, practices sexual purity on women, blames women for their abuse, uses black women for their own agenda just like all woke ideologies.
I'm sure lesbians and other lesbian influenced feminists will twist everything l said like women usually do. , but I needed to get this off my chest and what better place is radbr, the garbage dump echo chamber that got me into this fucking mess.
This is a lot. Ovarit is pretty tame, so I am not sure I believe you although I know many radfems are super weird and bigoted.