BasementPoetry

☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ 𝕚 𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕚 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞, 𝕚 𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕚 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕤𝕝𝕖𝕖𝕡… 𝕚 𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕙 𝕟𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕟 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕒𝕥 𝕡𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕖

[koalitypoet]

they say to hide our pain…

that we’re glamorizing it, it’s insane

how are we making beauty out of our sadness

we write what our feelings are in this madness

this world is a dark and painful place

people taking their lives everyday

you call that beautiful?

when they die, eternally youthful

never getting to grow up and see the beauties life has to offer

all because you couldn’t be bothered

to listen to their story and sympathize with them

instead you crucify and shame every last gem

because that’s what they were….

a treasure to be on this earth

have you ever wanted to die

no longer able to fight…

you say it’s the easy way out

but you have no idea what you’re talking about

[koalitypoet]

i’m stuck…

i used to give a fuck

i used to care if i lived or died

but now i could care less if i even tried

nobody acknowledges the effort you put in

the constant battle that goes within

your body and your core

but nobody cares anymore

people have lost their touch to empathy

it’s a foreign word, there’s no memory

it’s like the word never existed

i tried to stay persistent

but ive lost my fight

i no longer care enough to try

nobody cares if i live or die

[koalitypoet]

i cant stop myself from drinking

i feel like im shrinking..

becoming nothing and no one

no longer human

just an empty shell

no longer living for myself

only living for the ones we love

but will it ever be enough?

how are we supposed to get by?

if we’re only here for those we don’t want to see cry

another cigarette, another shot..

i forgot

how hard it is to stay sane

without something numbing the pain

[koalitypoet]

as much as you say we have a voice

we don’t have a choice

but to say we’re okay

that we’re happy at the end of the day

if we don’t we’re considered inconvenient

telling us “you need treatment”

maybe all we want is for someone to listen

not be here, under conditions

but the way this world works

you’re made to feel worse

told to get over it and move on

yet were preyed upon

it’s an endless cycle

fighting for survival

but hey… smile

[koalitypoet]

i love you i really do

but a man meant more to you

you could’ve saved your kid from hurt

but you kicked me to the dirt

if only you could see what i’ve seen

from watching you get beat

to getting beat myself

it was a living hell

getting spit on

unable to run

nowhere for me to hide

i wish it was all a lie

the pain i endured as a kid

nothing anyone should have to deal with

what happened to that unconditional love?

what is this love you speak of?

[koalitypoet]

why did you do this to me

when all i ever tried to be..

was a friend

down to the very end

i tried to excuse your behavior

you were once my savior

my hero, i looked up to you

you were younger too

it didn’t matter

now you’re my attacker

the villain at the end of a story

a plot twist i never saw forming

why did it have to be you

to turn me black and blue

the bruises are healed

the memories haunt me still

how do i put myself back together..

will i be broken forever?

[koalitypoet]

i had a dream about you again…

does it ever end?

or am i stuck in this infinite loop

unable to find a different route

no path to follow

what happens tomorrow?..

the thoughts they linger

blood covering my fingers

this world is dark and lonely

i’m dying slowly..

how do i be normal again?

positive… somebodies friend…

i have no one in the end…

just me

a nobody

[koalitypoet]

when there’s nothing but pain and darkness

you’d think you were harmless

the words you say they make a difference

they can hurt us in an instant

they’re everywhere

you are losing hair

the stress weighs too much

they constantly judge

what you’ve been through means nothing

not when they’re judging

your feelings they don’t matter

because judging you makes them feel better

so maybe, i’ll just disappear

run away from this atmosphere

[koalitypoet]

but how?

how could i be worthy of someone like you?

someone i never even knew

how could i be worthy of your love?

when everything is telling me you’re way above

way above me and you show no flaws…

the sound of your laughter… really made me pause

pause for a second as i regain my composure…

i felt myself fall in love with you and that im sure…

but you’re better than me in every single way

but you’re the person i want to spend the rest of my life with….

every. single. day.

[koalitypoet]

the tub, your only true sanctuary

where you can sleep in peace, not wary

scared of whose going to come into my room

scared of what they’ll do

if they find me there

i wouldn’t dare…

make a sound

don’t want to be found

hide in the tub that’s where its safe

nobody dares to look for you in that place

so you curl yourself into a cocoon

falling asleep as you stare up at the moon

the skylight shines down with all the stars

you dream of a place far

far away from all the darkness

no longer cautious

[koalitypoet]

i can’t stop myself from thinking

no longer blinking

people who are weak

scared to speak

we’re depressed and self loathing

and everyone looks at us without knowing

they don’t listen, some don’t even care

they want you to shut up and don’t share

nobody really cares anymore,

they call you an attention seeking whore

nobody cares what you have to say

or if you even stay

that’s all i hear people say…

they all just want me to go away..

[koalitypoet]

everywhere a battleground

nobody ever hearing a sound

the cries for help

the pain constantly being held

becoming an empty shell

a shell of who i was

what was i to become?

what happened to sympathy

where is the empathy?

for our brothers and our sisters

where are our listeners?

answering our prayers

wondering if anyone is truly there

to save me

save humanity

[koalitypoet]

what do you see

when you look at me

when you stare into my eyes

do you see the disguise?

the way i shield my pain from others

nobody even bothers

searching deep inside

seeing the outside as a complete lie

knowing all the happiness i share

is nothing but a facade, im full of despair

hatred and loneliness has taken its toll

my heart grows cold

nowhere left for me to go

no place to call home

[koalitypoet]

i can’t breathe

everyone hates me

for the drunken things i have done

i’m not even that person…

i never wanted things to end this way

in such disarray

full of so much hate…

people wanting me to kill myself

not caring if i needed help

i never meant to hurt anyone

but the damage is already done

now i sleep with one eye open

the other eye swollen

[koalitypoet]

how do i get past this, how do i pretend?

that the person who was once my friend

turned evil in the end

your hands roam places where they shouldn’t

i said stop and you wouldn’t…

couldn’t stop touching me

touching my body

i felt violated by you

your roommate was there too….

he heard my screams, did nothing at all

sat there eating his food down the hall

the happy, positive person i once was

there’s no words for the damage he caused

[koalitypoet]

it’s dark outside

i can hardly see the lines

“all you do is cry”

and i wonder why….

the nightmares im forced to live with every night

i try so hard to be there and fight….

fight what’s happening sweat it out

but nothing works, i wake up and shout

i beg for help, my screams go unanswered

then i remember nobody can save her

nobody can save someone like me

i’m left drowning

[koalitypoet]

everyone judging, telling me to shut up

you’re being mean just for fun…

nobody said you had to read my bullshit

might as well have a bullet

take me out if you hate me so bad

i don’t want to be here anymore anyway.. is that sad?

i would pay to be taken out of this game

nothing has come of it, other than pain

now that i found a place where i felt safe

anonymous monsters have come to take

take my soul, take my heart

take everything i have built from the start

my confidence shot feeling no reason to write

when everything is shit at least that’s what i’m getting from this site..