Ciao, fellas
I’m taking an extended break from Tumblr. For at least three months.
I have reasons. I’ve been stalling my actual departure until I could articulate my reasons in a way that satisfies my writer soul. But the stalling has to stop.
Here’s the bottom line. Tumblr has become an environment that is, at worst, toxic, and at best, hindering my recovery from several months of emotional frustration, depression, and spiritual dryness.
The same communities that began as a support system for people suffering from some similar things to what I’ve been going through have become a swirling disaster of opinions, and being on Tumblr makes me angry, frustrated, angsty, depressed, and, worst of all, it makes me not want to get better.
That’s the real thing. I have to want to get better. I’ve recovered enough that I can see the person I want to be and I know I have to get better to be her. But I feel precarious, afraid, and still very much in danger of falling hard back into not wanting to be well.
You can’t get better if you don’t want to be better.
So I’ll see you all later, maybe. I genuinely enjoy social media and the fandom parts of Tumblr, but I won’t come back until I’m grounded enough to not be buffeted by every cranky loud-mouth speaking their mind. I won’t come back until I’m emotionally stable enough to control when and over what I get riled up.
