Statement.
Hello. I want to make a public statement.
It is about the document that was shared online on Tumblr addressing me directly.
I want to apologize for all the things that I have said and done, stated in said document, and anything else that has caused direct harm to the person and the people from the community of Amalgamate.
I do not want to say their name out in public. I want their privacy to be respected.
Major trigger warnings for mentions of: inappropriate talk, slurs, pet names.
ALL the things I have said that were in this document to this person and the community's people were taken too far and NOT ok. My actions have hurt people, and I am expressing that this was wrong and I never want to repeat these same mistakes again moving forward. I share below the steps I’m fully intending on taking to avoid a repeat of this whole situation.
I have already cut off contact. Permanently, with the person I have hurt.
NEVER engaging in any private conversation with people UNDER 18.
DO NOT EVER INTERACT OR ENGAGE WITH ME IF YOU ARE A MINOR.
You WILL be blocked. I never want this happening to anyone again. My behavior was unreasonable, this person was uncomfortable with the things I said and did. This is why I am blocking everyone who is under 18.
NEVER using hurtful/hateful language again at all, people are very upset with the racial slurs I have used, and I fully understand the consequences of these words, this was never ok.
Never speaking so disgustingly and making nasty comments about a fictional character to someone this young.
I fully acknowledge that all of this behavior was wrong and was completely unacceptable - all of the offensive language, and the slurs I have used. I should have always considered how much of an impact these words carried and I never should have used them in the first place.
I have also received the stuff they bought me. I am NOT discarding them out of respect. These items were not cheap, and it would be extremely disrespectful to just throw them away, like they meant nothing to me.
With these nicknames, I have always wanted to make him feel accepted and validated. I never had any bad intentions in my mind. One of them was too far, I will admit, that one was not ok for me to say. I have never wanted to cause so much harm with these pet names and nicknames.
The inappropriate stuff about Kokichi Oma from Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony I said to them was extremely bad behavior on my part. And was extremely disgusting, downright horrible, I never should’ve even said these actual inappropriate things. And I never should have just taken the creator of the game’s tweet as fact. This was my fault.
All of this has happened after I left the Amalgamate server. I was still friends with this person at the time I left. I should have never used such offensive and rude language, especially directed at the creator of the server. I can’t even begin to imagine how much damage and hurt this has caused to them, and to also speak ill of people, who I have realized were just trying to help me, and were actively trying to give me advice in real time, to improve myself as a person back then. I am also acknowledging that I have made past mistakes there.
This person I am talking about. They were a friend, and, I admit, I should have always considered their age. This was the biggest mistake I have made on my part. They are still young and immature.
And now just thinking about all of this, this was wrong for me to keep staying, I think I just didn't know how to tell them without hurting them in the process, that I should cut all contact. I knew they would take it badly. And I wish all of this never happened.
The first time I met them when things were still normal, I liked their art/sprite edits they made. I talked about how they were the first person to send me an ask on Tumblr, and the only reason I found them on Discord, was thanks to their banner, it had a sprite edit they made. I just wanted to know if it was them, so I asked and I complimented their artwork.
And, I am just now realizing, I should have never engaged further, I never knew things would get so bad, and so complicated.
I hope this has given some insight to why I was friends with them, from my own perspective.
I am sorry if I have offended, hurt and disappointed many people, with all of these actions. I want to take this moment to also apologize to anyone who has ever looked up to me, liked my artwork, or just followed me in general. I should know better. Being in the position that I am, as a creator on media. I owe it to people to do better, and for myself to do better as a person.
Thank you for reading this. @amalgamateofficial
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