I Have Never Given Up.

"I walk slowly, but never walk backwards." - Abraham Lincoln. Currently transforming from an Aggie to a Mean Green Eagle. This is my last summer in College Station, and I'm currently doing long distance with my boyfriend of a year (and his dog who is pretty much my baby).

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by Owlturd

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Spend life with the people who make you happy, not the people who you have to impress.

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12 Food Monstrosities That Have Gone Entirely Too Far

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[krystallynn-2014]

I have to keep telling myself that if it won't matter in 5 years, I shouldn't let it matter to me now.

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Video: Celebrities Read Mean Tweets About Themselves #8

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Roman Ondak began with just a bare white canvas of walls. He was the first one to measure himself against the wall. The exhibit was then open to others who were also encouraged to add a piece of themselves to the artwork. He entitled it Measuring the Universe and soon the walls were covered in names of people with different heights and stories. An estimated 90,000 people have written their names to help contribute to the piece of growing and living art.

“I think it really does begin to make you think about ideas of space in the universal and the infinite in a really interesting way but it is also very, very personal and this sense of this kind of white void when the exhibition opened being slowly built by all of these points, these names and it is almost like a kind of constellation of stars.” 

(Images via MoMA)

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[krystallynn-2014]

You're lucky I'm on Adderall, or I would totally eat the rest of your ice cream right now.

Me to Charlie.

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Oh hey Tumblr. Once again I am crying my eyes out and need to blog my feelings in a place where no one reads what I write.

So, today sucks. Which is sad because I have having a wonderful day.

I'm currently making a 3.0, which is the highest my GPA has ever been, I started my Adderall and have been focusing better AND having less anxiety and depression.

Then, I found out that my Bonfire crew, the people I considered family, made the decision to end the Shadow line. The last year has been rough with my line and the rest of the crew, but at the end of the summer I left College Station thinking that all had been set right. The misunderstandings and the disagreements from last winter/spring were in the past, and we had all turned over a new leaf.

Unfortunately, I somehow am to blame (from 4 hours away) for the dropping of my entire line. I should have seen it coming, but I guess I felt that ignorance was bliss.

The signs were everywhere- people from my crew started ignoring my texts, snap chats, messages, etc, shortly after I moved. The only people from my crew that ever talked to me (for the most part) were the people in my line.

Apparently, this whole semester (and possibly before that) they planned on dropping the line, but, they let my "son" work and help them all semester, just to drop him less than a week before Burn. His best friends did this to him, and I can't help but feel responsible for this.

A line that is as old as this crew is now dead, and if you ask them why, they blame me.

If anyone is reading this, which is doubtful considering no one ever reads my stuff haha, I'm sorry if this seems waaaay over dramatic, but my line is my family. They are the only Bonfire family I have left considering I no longer have a crew. I fought and fought for this line for MONTHS last year, and today we became defeated. 

And I'm the one to blame.

Now, to decide if I want to go to Burn or not. I was so excited, but it looks like for the second year in a row, I won't be a part of a crew picture, I won't have laps with Neeley 14 (or anyone else Neeley for that matter), and I get to step back and watch all of the crews have fun and celebrate while I secretly cry. Again. Awesome.

Thankfully, I have the greatest boyfriend in the whole entire world who is trying to pick up the pieces (yet again), and the greatest line/family/support system a girl could ask for (along with my amazing friends I have made outside of the crew!). Thank you to my Shadow family for not blaming me for this, and I'm so sorry that this happened. I love y'all.

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I really hate my apartment complex.

I am so thankful to have super awesome roommates, but omg, my apartment complex SUCKS. I cannot wait to live in a house next year and to have a backyard for Much to run around in when him and Charlie come to visit.

Annnnd, speaking of visiting... This coming up weekend is UNT's Homecoming, and some of mine and Charlie's friends are coming to visit! I'm literally so freaking happy about this because I just haven't made many friends here yet. Sure, most of it is because i have been  super focused on school, but I also can't break out of my comfort zone the way I used to now that I have abandoned my Prozac. Although, I did meet a lot of awesome people at a Halloween party Charlie brought me to on Friday, most of whom live in Denton!

I just can't wait to start meeting more people. I am going to go through recruitment for the NT Sweethearts in the Spring, and I really hope I get accepted. I went from being in CS where I knew so many people (mostly thanks to Bonfire and working at Kohls haha), to living in Denton where I know my roommates and maybe 3 other people.

Other than all of that mess, haha, not much is going on in my life. I have started using My Fitness Pal again to track my food (thanks, Charlie), and am sticking to a workout routine. I have also told myself I won't eat after 7 during the week (unless something happens and I can't eat dinner until later). Let's see how this goes...

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Denton.

Alright, so I know I told y'all I was going to keep up with this to let everyone know how Denton has been, but I suck haha.

So, I'm updating now. Finally.

First of all, school has been crazy busy. I am doing well in my classes (A's and B's!), and I literally have no social life, other than weekends when Charlie and Much visit.

I am still madly in love with UNT and Denton in general. Moving here was the greatest choice I have ever made. With Stack coming up, I am getting more and more "homesick", but it will get better. Unfortunately, my anxiety medication started making me depressed shortly after moving up here, so I eventually stopped taking it. Now, instead of being depressed 24/7, I'm just constantly anxious and in a state of feeling like I'm having a heart attack, no big deal haha. Tomorrow I get test results on if I have ADHD, and and new anxiety test results, so hopefully these issues go away and I can start feeling "normal" again.

This weekend I'm going to a party (the first one in MONTHS) in Fort Worth with Charlie, so I'm finally going to be social again. I'm also going to be working soon, so I will be even more busy than I already am. Other than that, I have started a Craft Beer blog, which has been pretty fun.

Sooooo, that's about it for now. I get that this post was all over the place and the writing was crappy, but now I get to go stud for a marketing exam! FUN STUFF.

Oh, and I miss everyone in College Station and am super proud of my Neeley babies and the wonderful Nerds for getting perimeter poles. Congrats y'all (:

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So, I've been super happy about this and sharing it on every social media I have haha.

The photo on the right is super embarrassing and its from July when I was at the most I have ever weighed in my entire life. On the left is me today, after a ton of hard work and changing my eating habits. I'm not exactly where I want to be yet, but.I'm so proud I have come this far in such a short time, and I can't wait to see what more I can accomplish.

This is literally the first step to get me to dance tryouts. I'm so excited about this, and I'm so thankful for all of the people in my life being so supportive.

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My Journey to Tryouts.

Week One.

So, some of y'all know that this weekend I came to the decision that I want to tryout for the North Texas Dancers. I am going to make a "journal" of my experiences as I train for tryouts here on my Tumblr, so this is my apology if you really could not care less haha.

There are a lot of things I need to do before May; lose some weight, tone up, get my dance skills back, etc. Lucky for me I have friends in Denton that I can workout with, and a best friend in Canada who is helping me with all of this dance business (I was a cheerleader growing up, not a dancer, so some of this stuff is new to me).

I guess today is my "official" start of training, and I started it off by saying goodbye to fast food! I have already said goodbye to soda (although I had some this weekend, oops!), and goodbye to alcohol during the week (no more after school ciders for me haha).

So, that's really all I have to say about this for now. Here's to hoping I can not only make the team, but also make a positive impact on my body!

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