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You can try to move on, but you won’t get a clean slate while you’re still fighting past battles.

It passed but you never really let it leave. (via misconstruction)

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These gross additives are listed on food labels as things like natural flavoring.

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Jack Kerouac was fucking gay you guys. All you shitty dudes who carry unread copy’s of On the Road in your messenger bags: he was a fag. In fact, all your faves were gay and trans and a good number probably whitewashed POC. Like, no plain old fuckig dude ever made one good thing. If there’s a good thing in the world, someone you shit on put it there.

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You're a fucking asshole.

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Honus honus portrait I finally finished. Took about a week of working on it little by little. :)

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Sketch a day, 36/365.

Today's post isn't really a sketch, but some halloween costumes I made for my boyfriend and I. In the photo is just my shirt and leggings, both pairs of shoes, and both masks we wore. I'm not sure where his clothes are, but they came out really cool as well:

We were the universe, which I thought was a really cool idea because Brian wanted to wear a mask and still be comfortable in regular clothes. He didn't want to be TOO dressed up, but also not too dressed down. I wore stance socks with a silver cuff, leg warmers, a galaxy necklace and earrings, and made my make-up purple, blue, and silver in color to match. Brian wore his galaxy hat with his. I thought it was creative, because I searched online for a galaxy costume, but there was no such thing. We got stopped a couple times and asked about it.

All-in-all, the adventure of everything we did was crazy. We did some acid and that made the experience even crazier. It kicked in while #manman started playing, which was perfect. However, I backed into a girl standing behind me on accident and I apologized but she said, "no I'M sorry," with a huge smile on her face and then started rubbing my back and massaging my shoulders for some odd reason, for a really long time. Because I was so fucked up, I didn't even know what to do at all. Or say. We seemed to get out of there really quick as soon as Man Man ended, and then walked the streets most of the night. Everything was so colorful and shiny and the sky was crazy to look at considering it had just rained, making everything really shiny and the clouds in the sky moved so fast and the colors from the buildings were super vibrant. As we were walking the streets, we saw a homeless man sleeping in the middle of the sidewalk. I had almost stepped on him which startled me, and then we saw some creepy "window-shopper" at like 2 in the morning just walking around talking to himself, which creeped us the fuck out, so we crossed the street  to get away from him. Also ended up seeing some woman who came off to me as a prostitute in a "costume" that looked to me like more like underwear. Odd. Basically, we learned that Philly really knows how to get weird at night. Hahaha. 

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Sketch a day, 35/365.

I don't know, man. This only took me about two hours... I'm a little skeptical because of it. I'm not sure if its done, though.

Also, I'm gonna be in an art show soon. I've never done anything like it before. I'm hoping things go well. Its time to try and get out there.

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Another from the same day. Sketch a day, 34/365.

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Fox sketch from the other day. Sketch a day, 34/365.

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Sketch a day, 30, 31, 32, 33/365.

I am counting all six of these drawings into three days, because I did the first two in a day, the second two in another day, and the third two within a few days (but I'm only counting them as a day anyway). I have just not really been around to post them on here, and it doesn't really work well with my phone unfortunately.

^ These two guys were just ideas I sketched out over a year ago an decided to just finish them to see if they came out alright. I also just wanted to keep using my colored pencils that I'm obviously obsessed with haha. I'm not really a fan of the second drawing, though.

^ As I am writing this, I've decided I'm going to count the bird and the second drawing of these two into two different days because it did take me two days to draw the bird, because I needed to buy a silver paint marker to do the barbed wire nest. So, this post has now turned into four days of drawings haha.

^ The drunken owl... I showed a co-worker my drawing of the bird and she told me she wanted me to draw a drunk owl and she would tattoo it on her. I'm not sure if she thought I would seriously do it until I sent her a photo of the first drawing. She loved it, but wanted my to change the beer mug to an xxx bottle from those oldschool cartoons. So, that's why I drew the second one. I also decided I needed to make his belly look more like a beer belly because the first drawing did no such justice, and just made his feet look wrongly placed, since owls don't really sit like that. So, I added a little tail-feather and enhanced his feet. I didn't decide how to really do it until I already drew the feet, so I'm actually in the process of drawing him a third time, and hopefully placing the feet a little bit higher and hiding some of the tailfeather, because it doesn't look as natural as I'd like it to. I also added a little bit of detail, but will probably add more to the third one. I also need to shade him, as well. Hopefully third time's a charm.

I have to say, I am incredibly happy lately. I have to thank the love of my life, Brian, for pushing me to draw more and be more positive and less stressed out about ridiculous things. He is such an inspiration. I think the only thing that would make me happier is getting a place with him and joining yoga again. But we have to take this one day at a time for now.

I work tonight, so I probably won't get the owl redrawn unless I get out at a decent time. So I'll probably work on him tomorrow because I have off all day. Hopefully I'll remember to post him on here!

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Sketch a day, 29/365.

Slacking already on this sketch a day blog. Good thing I decided on not letting myself skip days. 365 pieces it is ! Here's my pig, all finished:

A little sloppy on the coloring, but figured it didn't matter because I might just add a background to it or redraw it altogether. If I do just add a background, it'll probably be darker with more of a galaxy-type feel to it.

For right now, I've been reading up on a lot of tattooing stuff. I've realized if that's what I'm going to strive to do, I better get with it. So, now I've got lots of ideas and inspiration for things to do, art-wise. I basically just need to draw anything and everything. I'm a little nervous about doing traditional flash drawings, because I'm completely un-interested in traditional style tattoos to the point I think I'd be horrible at doing them. But, I guess we all have to do things we don't want to do. And I'm going to have to work on drawing more than one piece every day. But before I do anything, I've got to hit up the library and grab every single tattoo book I can possibly find. And probably some children's books for things to draw. I've also got some portraits in mind, and I'd like to learn how to do graffiti.

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Inspiration. Having a hard time gathering my thoughts lately. Came across this bad ass street art today.

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Sketch a day, 28/365. Not quite finished. Kind of stuck out how to work out this color scheme. Gonna draw a bunch of these guys in different colors. Have a couple portraits in mind, as well. ;)

its so good to be back, by the way. Its been such a long summer, I seriously couldn't even begin to explain. I do really miss yoga though. I might join again, but I'll probably have to go to a different place altogether. I moved back home but still work where I used to live, so its a pretty tough decision. Especially working two jobs on top of it. I'll end up where I need to be, I suppose.

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Back on that sketch a day grind ! DAY 27.

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Sketch a day delay.

It's been daysss since my last post. Unfortunately, I started both of my jobs this week and so I haven't really had any relaxation time. I would just scribble a little sketch on my notepads, considering i'm a server and i always have one and pens, but I don't want to sit around drawing at work during my free time when I could be keeping busy and impressing the boss. ;] haha.

Also, I'm trying to save up some money to pay my phone bill so I can get an upgrade and finally have a working, easy to use camera. It's hard to take pictures on my macbook because the quality sucks and for some reason i can't find my battery charger for either one of my cameras.

SO. As soon as I have one of those things, I'll be back on track. In the meantime, I decided I'll continue each post until I have 365 drawings, rather than letting myself skip days. Just because it sucks to have a couple weeks of no drawings in between my challenge.  Also I'll probably post a few sketches if I have a chance or a day off to do anything. I'll just settle with the poor quality mac photos.

Also, yoga ended for me. :( So I'm gonna check out a new gym that offers classes and see if I like them.

Well, that's a summary of what's been going on so far. I'm bummed about the lack of drawing, but I'm happy to finally have a foundation in my life again: two jobs ! And the best part is so far, I really like both of them. I have two really cool bosses (complete opposites though) and my customers, so far, have been really, really cool. I even ran into a few of them that used to come into my old job!

It was pretty exciting to see some familiar faces. I'm not used to that, considering I knew absolutely NOBODY at my old job when I first started working there. Probably because I came from New Jersey, where I knew absolutely everyone, and then I moved to PA, where I hardly know anyone except the select few people I run into here and there that came from the same area. I'm happy I've gotten to know more people, though. And really different people, at that. I feel unaccepted at times, but I think that's either my occasional insecurities, or if I really am just different than most of the people around here. Mostly, I feel different. Not so much insecure.

I just hope I meet more GOOD people. There isn't enough of those in this world.

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Sketch a day, 26/365.

So, this morning I decided to look up the Firefly Music Festival again, because I really want to go. It's not until June, but I figured I'd check out their facebook and, holy shit, I found a poster contest! It's due by May 10th, so I'm happy there's at least still a week left. Somebody probably has a better idea for it, but I came up with some ideas myself. I just hope it turns out good in the end. It's worth a try considering I doubt I'll have the money to even go, and the winner gets two free VIP tickets and they will use your design on their merchandise. Also, each artist gets a copy of your design, and you get can get your poster signed by your favorite artist. SO EXCITING. There's also a fan winner, too.

I'll be pretty unhappy if I don't win, but its definitely gonna be cool to say I tried. Here's a rough sketch of some of my ideas being put together:

Unfortunately, my phone is still shot so I took this on my macbook. The picture is flipped the opposite way, too. I'm gonna keep working on my ideas until I'm happy with it. I'm allllmost happy with the firefly, but I think I'm gonna draw more and take away the mouth and maybe change up the colors a bit, see what I like best. I chose those colors because most of their posters have a color palette of blue, teal, chartreuse, light blues, and like a cream color. I think I'm gonna experiment with staining a piece of watercolor paper for it in a minute and then hit the gym.

I should have some time after my meeting tonight to work on it, too.

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Sketch a day, 25/365.

I'm so mad at myself for missing another day of drawing. But to be honest.. I really can't help it right now. There are so many things occupying my mind I can't even be creative.. The weird part is, normally, when I'm in this state of mind I'm even more creative.. But I guess I'm in a really deep and confusing place in my mind right now. But, I'm convinced I'll get through it. I know I will pick up the pieces someday.

Yesterday was the most perfect yoga class I've been to, yet. And so, I think this instructor is most definitely my favorite. She smiles at me, often. She reassures me, often, as if she almost can literally read my mind. Every single class I take with her always seems to be so relevant to my life at that moment. And its almost like she knows it, too. I know there is definitely a reason for it.. and I'm glad that someone is indirectly helping me through my every day personal battles.. whether they know it or not.

Her mantra went something like this.. "Our body is a river.. flowing.. changing.. every cell is a drop in that river.. changing, always.. No matter what obstacles you're facing at this moment.. whether it be between you and another person.. or you, yourself.. forget them for now.. it is only your body, mind, and soul.. if you find your mind wandering at any point tonight, just say to yourself, 'i am breathing in.. i am breathing out.. that is all there is in this moment'.. Just know that everything is as it should be." To be honest, my eyes welled up with tears even though they were closed. So, I dedicated my entire yoga practice to myself, only, this time. They always say to dedicate your practice to a word or phrase or to somebody who you think needs it right now. And last night, I felt as if it was okay to finally dedicate something to myself for once. I'm glad I did, too.

And every time my mind seemed to take over, its almost like she could tell.. Because I could feel myself not completely cooperating and giving her my full attention. Kind of forgetting a part of a pose.. So, she went over the pose a second time, making sure we were all on the same page. But I could tell she was definitely directing it more toward me.. Kind of pushing me to keep myself in the here and now. And I really appreciate that, even if she wasn't really directing it to me, exactly.

There were a few times during our practice when she said, "if you're saying really cruel words to yourself right now and beating yourself up inside, lift the corners of your mouth. You're doing wonderful." That made me laugh inside. What positive energy somebody can bring you in a time of need.

There was another point where we were doing a full body twist, and my hips kind of locked, so I couldn't really do it at all.. she she came over and moved my body for me, even though it sort of hurt.. but she told me I was doing a beautiful job, despite my mind begging to differ.

I guess yoga last night made me so happy because I'm not really used to anyone being so patient with me when I need it most. When I'm putting myself down and feeling insecure. I'm not used to somebody giving me direction even if they know I'm not cooperating or I'm a mess inside, still telling me I'm doing a beautiful job. And that everything is as it should be.

UPDATE

In yoga tonight, we started with a perfect meditation practice focused on facing our fears. We had to recognize an obstacle or a problem we're facing, feel the emotions, and then give it space and allow warmth inside of us. She said, "Understand that bad things happen for the greater good." Even though it was a different instructor this time (my other favorite of the ones I've had), it was perfect for my day.

We did a lot of hip opener poses because its the time of year where abundance and creativity are flourishing. You know, how its the beginning of spring and everything is blooming.. Well, apparently my hips are really, really tight, and that explains a lot about me. Because apparently when your hips are more open, you tend to allow yourself creativity and to believe in the abundance of everything.

"The abundance of everything" is supposed to mean for example, in times of crisis, where we really start to bring ourselves down when everything is going wrong in our lives, we tend to think there isn't enough of anything. Whether it be love, money, friends, etc. But really, there's an abundance of everything. Everything is all around us and there is enough for everybody.

I think I must have gotten something out of my practice because first off, I definitely feel much better than I did before class. I started to see and recognize all the people in my life who love me, and I tend to forget about them when I'm feeling unloved. I also remembered the couple of jobs I'll be working shortly, and that soon I'll be back on my feet again. I became a little bit more grateful for what I do have, and that brought peace in my mind.

I also remembered an idea for a drawing I had a while back, and I finally decided to start sketching out my idea. So, I sketched a few flies and a rose. I definitely need to start drawing more roses apparently, but its just some practice so I can put together the real project. It's going to be based on a Neutral Milk Hotel song.

I really think that yoga has saved my life. I don't think I could ever stop doing it.