hey guys. i’m sorry if this totally invalidates the previous posts i have made in this thread, but i believe i was wrong when i considered myself a 3w4. i’ve been away from tumblr for a while. since then i’ve done some reading about enneagram, talked to some people about it, and i’ve since retyped as a 4w3...
i think the main reason i didn’t think 4w3 was my core is my status as a ti-dom in mbti. (how often do you see istp 4s?) people who know me well think that istp is the best fit for me, and i agree. i do vibe fi because of my fashion and artistic interests, but overall when it comes to processing the world and making arguments, my ti shines through, with a hint of inferior fe.
therefore, i think that my emotions are fairly devalued compared to many 4s because of my emphasis on "thinking.” it was hard for me to realize that i have them, and i have a lot. but now that i know they’re there, and they’re important, i’m kinda ok with them ngl
there’s some things about 3 cores to which i could never relate, but i don’t know if it’s because descriptions of that type tend to be shitty. but here are the three main reasons why i think i’m a 4:
1. i can’t fucking move on from shame. i heard 3s try to ignore it, don’t want to deal with it at all, but i dwell in it constantly, and for years, whenever i’m alone, and sometimes when i’m around people. the shame makes me feel inherently different and even if i’m trying my best to appear “normal,” there is a barrier between the others and me, keeping me a separate entity who sometimes can’t cope
in addition, my main “coping mechanism” for shame is to constantly self deprecate. no need for me to hide those things, i’d rather them be out in the open instead of someone else discovering it without my disclaimers.
2. i tend to identify with my pain. much more than my successes. i can’t separate myself from bad things that happened to me, and bad things that make me, me. like i can’t move on from shame, i can’t move on from trauma in general, it hurts for years, sometimes still as strong as it was in the moment it happened, if not more.
3. i’ve read about the coping mechanisms by enneagram type, and introjection resonates with me the most. i don’t even remember what the one for type 3 was, but it wasn’t as relatable
anyway, i feel really bad for my complete flakiness. i’ve never been an active user, only making a few posts here and there. and now i’m just throwing away my accuracy by saying i was mistyped when i made the posts that gave my blog any sort of attention. i’d delete my old posts, but that feels like i’m hiding something. if anyone is reading this, i’m sorry, but i hope that i still have insights that could be useful for people into typology. i guess the new theme of my blog will be “thoughts from a ti-dom 4″ or something like that
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