scumbag steve said hi and i died but i‘m fine

i don’t know any more than you do

[butternaan]

theindianexpress / pascalchampion / hozier, ‘to noise making’ / titanic (1997) dir. james cameron / my chemical romance, ‘sing’ / abc news / dead poets society (1989) dir. peter weir / bertolt brecht

[rarusaur]

I remember in Spain people played music at loud and everyone would go to the balconies or open the windows and sing or dance or just enjoy it in silence it was nice :)

[apocalyptic-cake-deactivated202]

Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

[bo0zey]

 i tried to be funny and it backfired miserably

[bo0zey]

not this being my digital foot print😐…… ok if this godforsaken post ever reaches 500k notes i’ll pay tribute n recreate it & hopefully 14yr old me can finally be put to rest alongside mcr

[buthowaminotdeadyet-deactivated]

new rule, anyone who sees this pinned post must reblog it at least once, thank you, that is all

[stereotrauma-remade-deactivated]

it’s a lovely night on tumblr and you are a horrible goose

[bo0zey]

OMFG WHAT IS THISMSKSK??????

[dzamie]

homie’s trying to get you to 500k all by themselves

[lastnightwasntreal]

it’s been a while

like several months

and now i’m single, have been for a couple months now, and my best friend is leaving for school on sunday, and i’m lonely, and i don’t have a job anymore, and i barely know what to do with myself, and

i want someone to hold me and to love me and to tell me that i am someone and i am someone that is loved and that i can let go and know that they’ve got me, and

why can’t i just be happy, and loved, and in love, and at peace, and

i have no direction, and life is starting to feel so unbelievably monotonous, and i wish i felt worth the effort, and i wish i felt like i was worth loving, and i wish i had someplace to go, and

[lastnightwasntreal]

i’m just trying to function, but i’m back to school tomorrow, and i’m having an anxiety attack tonight over missing the shitty excuse for a prom that my school is putting on bc none of my friends want to go, but hi i have legitimately crippling fomo like you wouldn’t believe, and trust me i’m not wanting this anxiety attack by the longest shot recorded in history, but here i am, and all i can think about is how i want to call him bc he was the one i called on my birthday when it was this bad, but i can’t, because we’re not friends anymore.

[spitblaze]

having adhd

[whitepeopletwitter]

[paranetics]

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.94

ten days left of school

let’s all say it together

ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left ten days left

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.93

online school?

not extremely difficult

am i still struggling?

yes

why?

untreated ADHD and depression made me their bitch and have made themselves my god and i am forced to bow down at their will.

b u t

y k n o w

it’s just like that sometimes

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.92

i’m trying my best to be okay but, yknow, things happen

i broke up w. my boyfriend last sunday bc it was an unhealthy relationship and he was constantly making me feel guilty for doing very human things (late to hang out, can’t hang out bc of a busy schedule, forgetting to text him back, etc.) and ngl i had a dream this morning that i saw him and he said “i’m so glad we’re getting back together!” and i said to him “we aren’t” and he started crying and i just left. i’m done with his bullshit.

my friend is leaving for the navy at the beginning of september and ik there’s a lot of time between then and now but i’m losing my mind because i don’t know what i’ll do when he’s gone

my best friend’s dad is getting remarried on saturday and i honestly want to break his nose because he lowkey kinda ruined my best friend’s life (in a way) and he’s honestly just been nothing but an asshole to her since he divorced her mom. he is a sad excuse for a father, if you can even call him that.

i’ve started losing interest in more and more stuff, and i think it’s interesting that they say that a sign of depression is losing interest in activities that you enjoy, when it’s also loss of interest in general activities that you didn’t mind doing before. i can barely do my work during my classes, i’ve lost interest and motivation to actually be present (mentally) in my classes.

my mental health has been getting worse faster than the coronavirus. i sat in my classes today and i just wanted to stop existing, so that’s nice.

[parchmentcomforts]

Questions I wished I asked you

1. What do you hate about people 2. Who are you waiting for 3. Are libraries, malls, bookstores dying 4. What is your favourite memory 5. What memory are you afraid to lose 6. Do you feel lonely in the city 7. Where is society going 8. What disappoints you most about the world 9. What do you think about when you look at the sky 10. Sunsets or sunrises 11. Do you think the arts can save people 12. How does the arts hurt people 13. What do you fear losing 14. Do you believe in fate, or is everything just a coincidence 15. Do you panic easily 16. Do you save the best for last 17. What does it mean for something to be worth it 18. Who from your past would you want to meet again 19. Which parent are you closer to 20. If you could change anything about how you were raised what would it be 21. If you’re in a bad mood do you prefer to be alone or with someone 22. Do you believe in second chances 23. How does moving affect you 24. Language or music 25. Most exciting thing that happened to you this year 26. If you could change one thing about the world what would it be 27. Describe one of your darkest, taboo thoughts 28. Is home a place or a feeling 29. Have you ever had dreams about a past life, what would your past life be like 30. Hello or goodbye 31. Would you rather love or be loved 32. How do you define beauty 33. Compared to happiness, how important is truth and reality 34. Do you find it easy to manipulate people 35. Where does happiness come from 36. Do you believe yourself to be truly free 37. Sea or land 38. Are you easily persuaded 39. When is lying important 40. Does a person’s name influence who they become 41. How much does language affect our thinking 42. Are you sacrilegious  43. Do you find it hard to let go 44. Why do we romanticize pain 45. Are you more responsive to eye contact or touch 46. Does distance make the heart grow fonder 47. Do you ever think about the memories you can’t remember 48. What was a friendship you wish you could’ve still kept 49. Does the truth set you free

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.91

“she feels bad for everything”

i don’t feel bad about anything i did anymore, you manipulative wench.

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.9

it’s confusing but my friend just found out last night that a girl he hooked up w. a few months ago had a miscarriage fairly recently and it was his, and he’s torn up about it and it’s tearing me apart seeing him go through all of this

ahh

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 9.8

tried to fix it with my friend

she said “i forgive you” and then basically said “but i’m still cutting you out of my life because you’re the worst and this can’y be mended”

she was like “i want us to be on good terms”

good terms isn’t telling me that it’s all my fault and that you forgive my for MY faults and then REFUSING to admit that you were at fault

thank you for that

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 2.97

i think the hardest thing for me to come to terms with in reference to my struggle with depression is the fact that i don’t know when it started.

[lastnightwasntreal]

mass 2.96

it’s a snow day because snow and ice

but i like just want to do something

idk like the things i want to do i can’t, for whatever reason, and so now i don’t know how to make up for the fact that i can’t do what i want to do

but, a list of things i want to do:

go swimming (need i explain)

go sledding (no one to sled with)

watch scooby doo mystery incorporated with my boyfriend (rodes are too icy for driving)

go see a movie (i’m broke)

go shopping (i’m broke)

bake something (there is nothing stopping me aside from the fact that i don’t think my parents would appreciate me baking when there aren’t enough people to eat baked goods (my parents are gluten/dairy free), but also i don’t like washing all the dirty dishes)

so instead of doing any of that i’m going to sit around and waste my time until i am sad that i wasted all my time when i could’ve done something