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Prompt: Post Season 11 - Scully's feeling shy about how big her tummy is getting. Mulder, however, is completely turned on by it and decides to show Scully how into it he is. NSFW optional. Thank you!!
Tagging @today-in-fic
To start with Mulder fears he’s done something wrong. Afterall, the past few months he’s been so used to seeing Scully naked that somedays it’s a shock to see her even wearing any clothes, so for her to suddenlyshy away from him makes no sense. Then he has another thought, maybe it’s justhormones. He’s both heard about and experienced the joys of the secondtrimester in pregnancy, and figures that all good things must come to an end.But that doesn’t exactly make sense. Hormones may explain why she’s no longerjumping into bed and spreading her legs faster than he could say “Flukeman”,but they don’t account for Scully now barricading herself in the bathroom toget ready for bed each night, or pushing Mulder away whenever he tries to pushup her nightdress to check out her blossoming baby bump.
And then suddenly he knows why. Scully isn’t pushing himaway solely because she doesn’t want to have sex, though of course that is afactor. Her doctor has advised her to rest up over the last few weeks of herpregnancy given her age and the added risks. No, she’s pushing him away becauseshe’s self-conscious about the way she looks.
It hits him one night when Scully’s soaking in the tub aftera long day in the office. She’d spent the best part of the afternoon in theautopsy bay, and at almost seven and a half months pregnant, that’s no meanfeat. She’d done it before of course, back when she was pregnant with William,but she was also eighteen years younger then, she’d reminded Mulder on severaloccasions. When they’d arrived home Mulder had offered to draw Scully a bath,bring her a cup of tea and wash her back. She’d taken him up on the first offerand declined his other suggestions, so while she soaks in the tub, Mulderstretches out on the bed to relax.
It’s not until he hears the water drain and Scully shufflingbehind the door that it finally clicks. He sits up on the bed and waits forScully to emerge from the bathroom. As the door opens he sees his wife beforehim, wearing her typical nightwear of late, black leggings, a long, grey shirtthat Mulder is pretty sure was his at one time, and her white towelled bathroom,no inch of skin in sight. He knows she must be uncomfortable, especially as it’son the warm side this evening, and even with the air con she’s been claimingthat their house has been like a furnace for weeks.
He watches as she crosses the room towards the dresser andthen he reaches out, taking hold of her hand, and gently tugs her towards him.She goes, albeit reluctantly. “Mulder.”
“What?” When he looks up at her he notices she doesn’t quitemeet his eye. “What’s with this?” he asks, moving to loosen the belt of Scully’srobe, not entirely surprised when she bats his hands away.
“I’m cold.”
“You’re like a sauna Scully.”
“There’s a chill in the air.”
“There’s no chill in the air.” He tries again, reaching forher belt and this time, again reluctantly, she lets him untie it. He peels itaway from her slowly, revealing the swell of her abdomen. He leans forward andkisses it, waiting for her to pull away and relieved when she doesn’t. “I knowwhat you’re doing Scully.”
“What?”
“You should know by now that you don’t have to hide from me.”
“I’m not hiding from you.”
This time he slips a hand underneath Scully’s t-shirt,sighing as she pulls away abruptly. “That’s not hiding from me?”
“No, I just…” She hesitates and Mulder takes the opportunityto continue.
“Scully, I haven’t seen you in weeks.”
“I’m right here.”
“You know what I mean.”
“I’m sorry I’m not in the mood to have sex right now.”
“This isn’t about sex and you know it.”
She’s quiet, her silence telling him that his suspicions arecorrect. “You’re hiding from me because you don’t want me to see you. Don’tthink I haven’t noticed the way you shut yourself in the bathroom to get readyin the morning or undressed at night, or the way you lock the bathroom doorwhen you take a shower in case I decide to join you. There’s a heatwave goingon outside and you’re still wearing layers.”
“You don’t want to see me like this.”
“Pregnant?”
“Fat.”
He manages not to smile, well aware that for Scully it’scertainly no laughing matter. “You’re not fat.”
“I am.”
“You’re eight months pregnant Scully. You can hardly noticeyou’re pregnant from behind.”
“I can’t bend down, I’m too fat to shave my own legs, Ican’t even remember the last time I could see my toes.”
“I’ll shave your legs for you, I’ll even paint your toes foryou.”
“That’s not the point.”
“Scully, you’ve been pregnant before.” He knows it’s agamble, to bring William – or Jackson as he goes by these days – up now, awarefrom experience that due to her hormones, sometimes even the mere mention oftheir son’s name will have her in tears. It’s happened more so recently, afterJackson took off again. They haven’t seen him in weeks, and though Mulder figuresthat his son is likely feeling out of place with the imminent arrival of thenew baby, he knows Scully is scared they won’t see him again.
“I know that,” she replies, thankfully remaining composed. “ButI’m even bigger this time.”
“If by “even bigger” you mean “still tiny” Scully…” Shedoesn’t look convinced. “…you’re a doctor. It’s common in your secondpregnancy. Your uterus muscles have already stretched and…what?”
Scully isn’t exactly smiling, but she looks amused.
“You’re not the only one preparing for this baby Scully. I’vebeen reading up on what to expect when we’re expecting.” She knows that ofcourse, she’s spent the past seven months humoring him as he’s informed her ofyet another fact she already knew.
“So you know everything now?”
“Maybe not everything, not quite,” he concedes. “But I knowyou’re beautiful.”
“Fat.”
“Beautiful.”
“My ankles are the size of an elephant’s.”
“Beautiful.”
“I’ve put on almost forty pounds Mulder.”
“It’s all baby and water because you certainly haven’t putweight on anywhere el…” he trails off, glancing up at her chest, then shootsher a playful smirk. Scully follows his gaze and sighs.
“I can’t remember the last time I wore a regular sized bra.”
“Don’t you dare complain about your breasts Scully, becauseI’m certainly not. The pregnant version of you is an incredible turn on.”
Her eyes narrow. “So the non-pregnant version of me isn’t?”
“I didn’t say that.”
“You implied it.”
“Dana, you’re a turn on all of the time, pregnant or not.”
“But my body’s not the same anymore. I appreciate you haveneeds which I can’t fulfil anymore, and that you might be tempted to lookelsewhere.”
“What? Scully, are you implying I’m seeing someone else?”
“No, I’m just saying you have urges.”
“And I also have restraint, not to mention my right hand.”
“There are lots of beautiful women around.”
“And I happen to be married to one, happily married,” hestresses. “You’re it for me and not because you’re some kind of consolationprize, but because I want to be with you. You’re the jackpot Scully, and itdoesn’t matter how many stretchmarks you have or if you tell me we’re neverhaving sex again, you’re stuck with me. You’re beautiful Scully, I know you don’tfeel it, but you are. You’re pregnant, you’re carrying a little person insideof you, a little you and a little me, and I’d say that’s pretty damn awesome.”
“I know that,” she replies, placing her right hand on herstomach. “This little person has almost outstayed her welcome.”
Smiling, Mulder rests his hand atop of Scully’s, satisfiedwhen she doesn’t pull away. “Every stretch mark you claim you have which I can’tsee is a reminder that your body has carried two miracles against the odds. Idon’t care if you put on forty pounds or four hundred, you look amazing and I’min awe of you. Although,” he adds with a smirk. “If you put on four hundredpounds it’s going to be hard to fit you in the car when she does decide to makean appearance.” Scully lifts her hand to slap him and Mulder laughs, slippinghis own beneath her shirt, feeling their daughter shift against his touch. He’llnever tire of this. “You don’t have to hide from me Dana,” he repeats. “I knowthat last time I gave you every reason to doubt me, but this time it’sdifferent.”
“I know.”
Feeling her begin to relax, Mulder slides his hand higher,pulling Scully’s shirt up with him. When her belly is finally revealed heshoots her a reassuring smile, then leans forward to press a kiss to her skin. “Ididn’t get to say it enough last time, but this is awesome. You’re amazingScully, and you’re beautiful.” He pauses, suddenly looking pleased withhimself. “You’re amazingly beautiful.”
“Are you drunk?”
“Drunk in love. Isn’t that what Beyonce said?”
“You’re a Beyonce fan now?”
“We’re about to have a baby Scully, I need to get up to datewith modern popular culture so she doesn’t think I’m old.”
“We are old Mulder.”
“You’ve got this Benjamin Button thing going on Scully. You’reageing backwards and it’s adorable.”
“Adorable?”
“Alright, hands down you’re the hottest woman I’ve ever seenin my life and I’m counting down the weeks until I can show you just how muchyou turn me on. Is that better?”
She smiles. “I’m sorry I can’t take you up on that offer.”
“Doctors orders. It wasyour doctor who told you that, wasn’t it? You’re not just telling me thatbecause you don’t want me to see you?”
“Of course it was, it…” Scully trails off, realizing he’sjoking with her.
“I know. Come on,” he says, kissing her belly and pullingher top back down into place. “It is a sauna in here this evening. Take offyour clothes and come to bed you hot, sexy momma.”
“Excuse me?” She giggles, clearly amused at his words.
“Wait, no. You’re a MILF.”
“What’s a MILF?” she asks, tugging down her leggings.
“Don’t ask,” Mulder replies as he helps her out of them,then shifts over on the bed. Within moments she’s in bed and on her side facingMulder, smiling as his hand gravitates back to her stomach. The baby’smovements slow as she settles down for a rest, and Scully begins to feelherself drift too. As Mulder kills the light and shifts in the bed, he hearshis wife’s voice beside him. “I guess that means you’re a DILF.” He could hearthe smile in her voice.
Smirking, he closes his eyes. “I hope so.”
Somebody Likes a Math Geek
by: mldrgrl Rating: PG Summary: Look, I was supposed to be off running errands today since I was gone this weekend, but instead I was at home staring at my dog all day, so while he slept, I wrote some post-Millennium fluff.
Mulder expected a knock on his door the next morning, he just didn’t expect it so early. He opened the door with a sheepish look on his face, smears of shaving cream on his cheeks and bare chest. He’d intended to prove he was capable of functioning like normal, even with the use of one arm, but obviously he’d failed. He couldn’t even button his jeans all the way, let alone shave. He didn’t know what he was thinking.
“What were you thinking?” Scully asked, clearly reading his mind. She dropped a white paper bag he knew contained bagels from the corner deli onto his table.
“I thought I could manage,” he grumbled. “You’re early.”
“It’s already nine.” She took his arm (the good one) and led him towards his bedroom. “Let’s get you cleaned up. Did you take your meds yet?”
He shook his head. She chastised him with her eyes and then turned her disapproving glare to the state of the bathroom. There was shaving cream on the mirror and the knobs to turn on the faucet. A large puddle surrounded the base of the sink. Wet towels and yesterday’s clothes were strewn about the floor.
“Mulder,” she said, and stopped at his name. She didn’t have to go on, it was obvious neither of them knew what he’d been thinking.
“I hear beard is the new black.”
“Wait here.”
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AU where Mulder delivers William instead of Reyes
1.When Mulder begins to shuttle her to the passenger’s seat she looks up at him with utter terror in her eyes. “Mulder, no. Please. Don’t leave me.”
He hesitates and quickly pulls her into his arms.
“It’s safer this way,” he murmurs into her hair.
“No, I can’t do this without you. I can’t,” tears at the edge of her voice.
“Alright, it’s okay. It’s gonna be okay,” he assures her.
2. She starts laboring before they even get out of Virginia. She is quiet about it, doesn’t let on right away. It could be a false alarm or dehydration, after all. She tries to relax and let herself sleep a while. She’ll need her energy if it turns out to be the real deal.
A couple of hours and countless contractions later, Mulder reaches for her.
“What are they? About five minutes apart now?” he asks, palming the swell of her belly.
“Yeah,” she sighs, realizing he’s been aware of what’s going on this whole time.
“We should find a hospital,” he says. “This place is still two states away.”
“No, keep going. They’re not even that strong. It could be hours, a day or more, even. Just keep going.”
3. It the late morning light, somewhere in South Carolina, she is moaning softly through each wave, unable to stop herself from vocalizing.
“Talk to me, Scully,” he asks his, voice low and gentle.
“Pull over. I just need to move a little,” she murmurs as the latest contraction ebbs.
He eases the car to the shoulder and quickly exits to help her up. It’s as if he’s been waiting for this moment, the one where he gets to rub wide circles on her lower back and whisper encouraging things to her. They pace around together for a while, she lets herself sag into him as the contractions come. She feels better, being able to get up and move.
“You okay for a minute?” he asks.
She responds by kissing him and nodding reassuringly. He dashes off into a wooded area to relieve himself, calling over his shoulder that he will be right back.
She stretches her fingertips to the sky and tips her chin up to the sun. Not thirty seconds pass before a hard, deep contraction hits her and she has to lean on the car, pressing her forehead against the door frame and groaning from deep in her chest. She feels a pop and gush and the rusty dirt at her feet becomes saturated as the amniotic fluid runs down the insides of her legs.
She didn’t even hear him come back, but there he is.
“We’re finding a hospital,” he says.
4. She’s in the back seat, laying on her side and the road ahead just keeps going and going. There’s no sign of much at all, let alone a place to stop and deliver this baby.
“How you doing back there, Scully?” he asks, trying to catch her eyes in the rearview mirror.
“They’re right on top of eachother, I can barely catch my -ohhhhhhhhhhhh,” she breaks off as the contraction takes over.
She’s shaking, her teeth chattering. But she swears she’s too hot, the AC is on full blast and she is down to her tank top and underwear. He thinks she must be going into shock.
He pulls the car over again and brings it to a stop on the side of the road. He’s dialing 911 as he throws open the back door and kneeling at her feet.
“I can’t,” she gasps. “I can’t do it.”
The phone beeps and a “no signal” message appears on the murky green screen. He cusses under his breath and drops the phone on the floor board.
“You don’t have to do anything,” he says, keeping his tone even and calm. “Your body knows what to do. Just let it happen, Scully.”
“It’s coming,” she eakes out, gasping and groaning.
5. Their son is born on the side of a North Georgia highway. Pink and slippery and screaming. Scully laughs, Mulder cries.
He drapes Scully’s discarded jacket over the two of them and waves down a Highway Patrolman who is in for a big shock when he takes a look in the back seat.
He is on his radio, asking for help. He claps a hand on Mulder’s back and chuckles.
“That’s a good looking boy you have, strong,” he says.
“He gets it from his mom,” Mulder replies as he climbs in the back seat and helps Scully sit up a little. He gets the two of them situated so she can lean against him and kisses the top of her head.
She’s bleeding. And it’s a lot. Too much. The ambulance is on the way.
She is barely conscious when it arrives and Mulder helps her keep her arms around their son. He looks up and sees that the highway is now crowded with stationary cars, people are standing, craning their necks to get a better look. They watch expectantly, with an intensity that sends a chill up his spine.
The ambulance pulls away. She is on the gurney, bundled under blankets and buckles. He sits with the baby in his arms, wrapped in a crinkly space blanket. As they draw away from the scene, he sees a lone figure standing in the middle of the road. Billy Miles slowly disappears in the distance. His attention is drawn back to the bundle in his arms.
“It’s okay,” he whispers. “I’m going to protect you.”
AU where most of the events of the struggles take place in like 2008/around IWTB
this is… not my favorite it was written in such a hurry but i hope you like it anyway 💕
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1. They’re taking a break. Not a break-up—Scully is very clear about that—but a break. They’d had a fight, a bad one, a couple of weeks ago, and Scully had called from her shift at the hospital the next day and told him in a quiet voice that she was going to stay at her mother’s for a little while. Just a couple weeks, that was all. Mulder had been hurt, incredibly so, but he’d told himself that it’d be okay, it was just for a little while, she’d come back and he’d apologize again and again. But then he gets the call from the hospital.
He finds Scully unconscious, pale with a spot of blood at the corner of his mouth. He takes her hand and it is cold in his. Her doctor tells him that she’s had a seizure, shows him the monitor of her brain. It’s almost like a one-sided communication, but Mulder has no idea who it could possibly be. He excuses himself to go and sit with her, knotting her fingers with his.
When she wakes up, she is panicked, fumbling up with one hand to cup his cheek. She tells him he has to go and find the Smoking Man, who he thought for sure was dead. She tells him that she has seen how it begins, the apocalypse in 2012, but it’s nothing like the way they expected; it’s a plague. She tells him that he is dying, her voice breaking, and that she can’t save him without stem cells from their son.
Mulder isn’t sure that he believes it, any of it (as much as he wants to), until he hears that. Their son, who will be nine next year. Their son, who continues to haunt him every goddamn day. “William?” he whispers in horror, and she nods.
“We need to find him,” she whispers.
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Do you take prompts? I thought you might be the person for this one! Season 9 doesn’t exist AU. William is a 5-6 years old now. He starts developing strange abilities. Mulder finds him sobbing to himself in his bedroom because he saw into Mulder’s memory of his sister’s abduction and feel his sadness. He wants to make daddy feel better but doesn’t know how.
Vision
Rating: PGTags: mild angst, kidficWords: ~1100
A/N: No beta as usual, sorry. It’s kidfic but not super fluffy, I hope.
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He has brown hair and freckles, and he is putting together a Lego t-rex on his bedroom floor. The chomping jaw is giving him trouble—his fingers are not quite nimble. His parents are downstairs, drinking coffee and making plans for the day, for their Sunday, and William hopes they will go to the park with the bigger slide, the one that curls all the way down. It is November cold, but still sunny, and he has promised to wear mittens. He is working to fit the little bar of the bottom jaw into its hinge, pushing it, concentrating so hard, when something breaks behind his eyes and the t-rex clatters to the floor.
There is a boy, older than him but with hair like his and he knows—he knows—it is his dad, and he is so so scared; both of them are scared. And a little girl in a night dress whose hair is even browner, whose hair falls down her back like silk and she is scared too, and she says “Fox!” but then there is a terrible light and the boy cannot move at first. Dad’s gun, dad’s gun—William hears him think it and he tries so hard to get it, to point it at the light but—NO! No, Samantha! She is floating—is she dead?—she is floating to the window and he is screaming screaming her name and it comes out slow and strange and then the light is gone and so is Samantha…
William has shoved himself under his bed and he is shaking in terror. He wants his mom, wants his dad, but he is too scared to call out so he just hugs his knees and cries.
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Mulder’s coffee grows cold on the kitchen table; he is lost in remembering. Tomorrow is the anniversary of that terrible day, and it will have been 29 years, which means that in one year and one day, it will have been three decades since he last saw his sister. Beside him, Scully reads a medical journal, underlining, circling, putting notes in the margins. She hears the clatter of the t-rex hitting the floor above them and looks up.
Mulder doesn’t hear. He’s thinking about the past and the future at once. He’s thinking of William at twelve and of this new baby they will have soon, a girl, who will be six when William is twelve. Will he call her a pest? Will he feel protective of her? Will they grow to adults together, as he and Samantha hadn’t?
Scully’s voice breaks into his thoughts. “Mulder,” she says for the third time, but it’s the first time he hears.
“Hmm?”
“Will you check on him? It’s too quiet.”
Mulder nods, kisses the top of her head as he moves to the stairs. In William’s room he sees… nothing, and he panics. There are Lego parts all over the floor, a small green pile carefully sorted, and the scattered mess of the dropped dinosaur.
“William,” he says. “Will, where are you, buddy?”
Nothing at first, and then a whimper from under the bed.
“William?” He crouches, and the small boy is curled up and crying amidst dust bunnies and outgrown shoes. “Hey, hey, what happened?” Mulder reaches under and pulls his son out, dusts him off, sits the boy on his lap beside the bed. “What happened, bud, why you under the bed?”
William’s eyes are wrenched shut and he grips his father’s t-shirt. He is quiet, remembering shaking. “Daddy, who’s Samantha?”
And the words hit Mulder like a gutpunch. “What?”
“We remembered her. I mean, I… you remember her? A little girl who floated in the bright light?”
“Oh, Jesus, William,” and he’s holding his son’s face between his hands, looking at his so-blue eyes. “You saw that? You can see that?”
William nods, and there are tears now. “It was scary, daddy. And you were there, but you were… different.”
Mulder rocks him and kisses his head. They’d been afraid of this, waiting for it maybe. “Can you hear what we think? Me and mom?”
William buries his face in the t-shirt again. “Only sometimes.” His breath hitches in his chest. “I’m sorry.”
“No, no, it’s okay. It’s okay.” He strokes the child’s back. “Samantha was my sister.”
“And she got taken away?”
A pause, and then, “Yes.”
“And you miss her?”
“Yes.”
“And mommy knows?”
“Yeah, sweetheart, mommy knows. It happened a long long time ago, but I think about it sometimes.”
“And you worry… do you worry it will happen to my sister too?”
Another punch to the gut, and it’s like someone is ripping his heart out of his chest this time. He’s holding William so tight and he wants to say the right thing but also not to lie. “No.” He looks down at the boy whose eyes seem so afraid. “No, that won’t happen. We won’t let that happen.”
William nods, believing.
“But if you see something like that again, if you remember with me and it’s scary, you try to stop okay? You try to think about something good, and if you can’t do that, you tell us. You tell us every time, whether you can stop it or not.”
“Okay.”
Mulder’s hands are in the boy’s hair, cupping his head that is so full of secrets. He will need to tell Scully, now, and she will be terrified. He remembers another boy full of secrets, and the nightmare stitching around his poor head after those butchers got hold of him. He remembers the boy’s secret life in the desert, and he wonders if they could find that boy again (a young man now, he thinks). He begins scooping the green Legos, piling them carefully on a sheet of cardboard.
“You want to bring these downstairs to work on them? Have a snack, maybe?”
“Yeah,” William says.
They bring the toys carefully to the kitchen table, put some carrots and a handful of crackers on a plate, and then Mulder takes Scully’s arm and guides her to the next room. Her eyes are wide with worry. He places one hand on her swelling middle and another on her cheek, and he tells her what happened. She cries. She nods. They hold each other, and then they forge ahead as always.
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All she can focus on is the warm rasp of his hands gliding up and down the length of her back as she rides him, supportive and loving. She’s in heaven…it’s a Saturday night, she has a good meal in her stomach, Mulder changed his sheets, and they have absolutely nowhere to be. Nowhere except perhaps on his couch, wrapped completely up in each other’s bodies. She can’t bear to draw her mouth from his.
His hands glide to her backside and grasp the meat of her ass—hard—and she groans into his mouth, rocking her hips in an attempt to ram him even deeper into her. She feels full and whole and wonderfully fucked…they’re so damn good at this, how did it take them so long to get to this point?
He’s nuzzling the little scooped dip between her collarbones and the gentle brush is such a delicious contrast to how stretched she feels between her legs. She murmurs his name…then freezes.
Why did her voice come out sounding like a muffled version of Frohike?
“You think he’s gone out?”
“Naw, he’s in…his car’s in the drive.”
Oh God. The Gunmen are heading down the hallway, barely twenty feet from where she and Mulder are tangled on his sweat-moistened couch.
One look at Mulder’s face and she realizes he had completely forgotten he’d made plans tonight. Icy, cold dread fills her veins as she realizes there is no way in hell they can become presentable in time for either of them to answer the door. Even now, half undressed it’s painfully obvious her partner is enjoying a good polishing…and any number of the boys might have keys.
Without a word she scrambles off his lap, grabbing her shirt and bra and tearing for the bathroom. As if choreographed Mulder jumps up, throwing her discarded jeans after her just in time before she shuts the door. Through the door she can hear the jingle of him refastening his belt just as there’s a soft knock and the boys come clambering in. She breathes a sigh of relief, figuring he can’t look too disheveled if even Byers hasn’t made a remark on his appearance. Maybe they got away with it just in the nick of time.
She moves to slip on her jeans, then freezes. The tips of her fingers go numb when she realizes she’s missing an integral piece of clothing…one that she remembers was left lacy and crumpled on Mulder’s coffee table.
She hears Langly pipe up.
“So…Scully’s here, too?”
the IVF works!!!!
since i’ve already written an ivf story (canon compliant), this is gonna kind of be an interpretation of that
1. The IVF arc happens in the space between Amor Fati and Millennium, in the space where they know they are in love with each other but haven’t confronted it yet. Neither of them know what will happen if the IVF takes, but they both know that they hope they can do it together.
2. Mulder can see the look on Scully’s face when she walks in, tremulous and uncertain and eyes red with tears; he’s cautious, but he can read her well enough to tell that she isn’t upset. “Did it take?” he asks carefully, and nothing can prepare him for the astonishment that courses through him when she nods. “It… it did?” he says, and she nods again. “You’re pregnant?” Another nod, and she’s smiling, and he’s across the room in half a second, wrapping her in his arms, scooping her up and whirling her around in utter joy.
3. Scully is set to leave for San Diego the next morning for Christmas. She asks Mulder to go with her–after the giddy night they spent together, punctuated with giggles and sloppy kisses and holding onto each other like the world was ending, it only makes sense. They don’t tell anyone that they’re pregnant–the thought of it almost unimaginable, with Maggie’s surprised expressions and Bill’s suspicious ones–but they go as a fresh, new couple, even if Mulder sleeps on the couch. Scully sneaks down some nights to sleep there with him. Every time Matthew climbs up on her lap eagerly, tugging her hair with sticky fingers, Scully has to swallow back eager tears.
4. It takes them almost the entire nine months to move in together. It’s ridiculous, looking back on it, but they both realize that they are new romantic partners in addition to new parents. Mulder spends almost every night at Scully’s house, helping her set up the baby’s room, filling all her midnight cravings, suggesting names slyly over the comforter. They share a hotel room on cases. But they don’t move in together until the eighth month, Scully’s stomach round and portruding under her t-shirt. Mulder’s head is in her lap, his hand over her stomach and his cheek pressed to the baby’s kicking foot, and she mentions it casually: “Mulder, are you ever gonna sell that apartment of yours?” He grins and kisses her stomach. “Oh, Scully,” he says. “I thought you’d never ask.”
5. Mulder is there at the hospital. Mulder cuts the cord and holds Scully’s hand and supports her throughout the whole thing. And Mulder doesn’t go to Oregon. He stays at home with his family, Scully and their baby who is only a couple of months old.
20. Why are we even doing this anymore?
It’s their third try.
The first time, she’d been so hopeful, even knowing the odds were stacked against her- against them. Really, she’d been far more nervous about the prospect of asking him the dreaded question, of having what she sincerely hopes will be the most awkward and nerve-wracking conversation they’ve ever had- which is really saying something, for them. Her remaining concern had been for what would come after, for the inevitable conversation about what he wants, how involved he’d like to be, what he’d prefer to tell Skinner, to tell her family, to tell his mother.
She’d barely stopped to consider that the procedure was likely to fail… and when it had, she’d consoled herself with the knowledge that she had enough money in her savings account for one more try. She’d put herself through it again- the doctor’s visits, the hormone injections, the discomfort, the stress- and he’d been right there with her, a staunch ally. Solicitous of her health, encouraging and reassuring her whenever her doubts had begun to overwhelm her, joking and flirting even more than normal to distract her from worrying.
The first time, Mulder had stayed in their basement office during the procedure, and later, when she’d learned that it hadn’t taken, she’d informed him by phone. The second time, he’d driven her to the doctor’s and waited in the car. He’d offered to come in with her, but she’d turned him down. There had still been no discussion regarding what they’ll do if the procedure works- she hadn’t seen any point in making any decisions when they didn’t even know if it would be necessary- and with his potential involvement still undecided, she’s not completely comfortable having him there.
Not to mention, she really, really doesn’t want the first time he sees her flat on her back with her legs in the air to involve stirrups and a speculum.
When the procedure fails the second time, she tells him in the living room of her apartment, where he’s been waiting for her. He’d sounded disappointed on the phone, the first time… but this time, she can see first-hand how badly he’d wanted it to work.
“Never give up on a miracle,” he says gently, holding her to his chest, and she’s so moved, she comes within an inch of kissing him… but at the last second, she presses her lips to the corner of his mouth, instead.
“Mulder,” she says, leaning against him, “it’s not that I don’t appreciate the sentiment… but this is it. I can’t afford another attempt.” He draws back and leans his forehead against hers.
“Let me pay for it this time, Scully,” he says. Her eyes widen.
“I can’t ask you to do that,” she says.
“You’re not,” he says. "I’m asking you to let me. Please. I really want this, Scully.“
“I know you wanted to do this for me, but Mulder, you’re not under any obligation to-”
“You’re not hearing me, Scully,” he says. "I’m not saying I want this for you. I’m saying I want this with you.“
As his words sink in, she raises her gaze to his… and the love she finds there in his eyes blows her away. This time, she really does kiss him, kisses him the way she’s longed to for years, takes possession of that enticing lower lip that has been the star of so many of her fantasies.
They live out at least half of them in her bed that night.
And so here they are now, awaiting the results of their third try. Scully has a mild panic attack as they wait in chairs across from the doctor’s desk, convinced that this is futile, that it can’t possibly work.
“Why are we even doing this anymore, Mulder? Why are we putting ourselves through this again?” she asks, twisting her hands together in her lap. He reaches out and takes her hand in his own, squeezing it, bringing it to his lips.
“We’re doing it because if it works, it’s going to be amazing,” he says. “And if it doesn’t… there are other ways, Scully. I’m willing to do whatever it takes.” Behind them, the office door opens, and they both whirl to face the doctor as he enters the office and sits down at his desk, across from them.
And smiles.
May I request a prompt? Mulder being confused at why Scully is actively avoiding sex after having been cleared to, post s11 baby, and it's because Scully just doesn't feel sexy
Starting Over: fic
A/N: Just putting a trigger warning for PND here. This story is set after the events of season 11. I don’t think it’s exactly to the prompt, but it’s what came out, anon. Tagging @today-in-fic
She stares at the paper. The kettle is boiling. Rumblingwater, hissing. She glances over, sees the shape of the steam on the window,ragged at the edges and slowly disappearing into itself. Fading away so itnever was. She rubs the underneath of her nose, catching the dribble. Outside,it’s snowing. Noble flakes gathering, so, so quiet. It’s always so still whenit snows - like nature’s comfort blanket. She stares until the buzzing in hermind softens until it resembles the white outdoors.
“Scully?”
Shetilts her head towards the sound.
“Scully?”
It’sMulder. She drags her gaze from the window and smiles at him. He’s holding thebaby.
“She wascrying,” he says, walking to the kettle and pouring it into the jug where thebottle is standing. “I still don’t understand why you don’t just nuke thesethings.”
There’s a clip in his tone thatbrings her to the present. She pushes herself up, steadies herself against thetable. One of the Kardashians is smiling out from the pages of the magazine, aglamorous photo shoot of the happy mom and new baby. She tucks the paper insideand closes the pages.
“It’s just that…” She doesn’t evenremember why she’s against microwaving the baby’s bottle. She just knows it’sthe right thing to do, heating it through this way, checking the temperature onher wrist, hugging the baby while they wait. It’s become a ritual. “She prefersit that way.”
“Do you?” Mulder says, nuzzlingEsther’s downy head. “Your mom thinks it’s unsafe to use modern technology toheat your food yet she lets me stuff my face with salted caramel popcorn andthe last three hot meals I’ve eaten have been Lean Cuisine lasagnes. Why is itokay for me to turn neon green with radiation, but it’s not okay for you,bubby?” He kisses his finger and presses it on the baby’s nose and she chuffsout a mewl somewhere between a chuckle and a cry. He tests the water and takesa seat at the table, feeding Esther. Scully hears the greedy suckling andthere’s a hot pain inside her. How long had she left her crying in the crib?
“How was your day, Mulder?” sheasks, trying to remember where it was he had gone.
“Nowhere near as demanding asyours,” he says to Esther, whose tiny hands clasp at the bottle but it’s toowide for her and she balls her fists in frustration. “She’s starving, Scully.Look at that, the bottle’s drained. Should I give her some more?”
Scully’s nipples tingle as Estherstarts to whimper in his arms. “The book says that we have to be careful not tooverfeed her. Especially not when we’re weaning her off the breast.”
“But what do you think, Scully?” His voice sinks to the pitch that he used backin the day, when he’d solicit her opinion on a case. Funny how she can stillsee him, shirt sleeves rolled up to the elbow, long legs crossed, footbouncing, hands steepled at his chin, eyes daring her to call out his bullshittheory. She’s held on to those details but she can’t remember when she putEsther down and when feeding time was scheduled.
“I think we need to follow theinstructions,” she says, pouring herself a glass of water.
“She’s a baby, not an electronicdevice, Scully.” He’s not quite laughing at her, but it’s close. She tenses,trying to retrace what she’s done. Outside, she sees the snow is falling moreheavily, whirling around on a rising wind. “You said instructions, Scully,”Mulder says, standing behind her. “I think you meant guidelines. And as youwould know, guidelines are always open to interpretation.”
He laughs so suddenly that shedrops the glass and shards scatter like the flakes outside, spreading the coldliquid across the floor. Esther screams.
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Scully slaps Mulder after he says something about William. Very heated argument, but also comfort later? Pre-revival. Please...love your work!
Sorry: fic
This is quite long, so some is under a cut. Trigger warning for depressive anger. Tagging @today-in-fic
There is rain on the way. The low rumble of thunder spreadsthrough the house, cracking in the rafters. Mulder has talked for years aboutdoing the roof but on days like this she kind of enjoys the way the weatherslips through and reminds them they’re not alone out here.
She looksout at him, hunched over in the garden pulling out weeds. He needs more vitaminD, she thinks as she fills the kettle. Cooped up in the office, skin sloughingoff onto old files and photos, his DNA marking everything. On his knees, hestretches up, cricking his neck and when the first pelts of rain hit, he holdshis arms up, supplicant. On most days now, she understands there is no God.None who would have knowingly allowed their lives to have played out like theyhave; abductions and cancer and lost children and death, so much death. But ifMulder is willing to pray, she won’t deny that. Her science cannot soothe hisbattered spirit from the darkness, meditation, medication (both spiritual andalcoholic) have not provided him, or her, with any hope. If the weather cansalve his withering soul, she’ll let it.
Later, heslides into bed as the lightning filters through new morning cloud. His skin isdamp and the aroma of earth fills the room.
“Were youout all night?” She hears the irritation tugging at her words.
He rollsaway from her and doesn’t answer. Staying is hard, but leaving is harder.
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Pink Glazed Donut
Title: Pink Glazed Donut Author: @piecesofscully Rating: Explicit Timeline: Post Season 10
A/N: Just a random little drabble for funsies. No beta, so blame me if I missed something when editing quickly. NSFW.
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By the Law of Averages
by: mldrgrl Rated: R Summary: It’s not going to be fireworks every time. A post-ep for Je Souhaite, but also nothing to do with the episode.
Her right hand is on his shoulder, the left behind her on his knee. Both of his greedy hands are on her ass, clutching, pulling, kneading. Her thighs are spread wide over his lap and her knees dig into the soft leather cushions on his couch.
Her head is tipped up, eyes closed, mouth slack. She can feel a trickle of saliva slowly making its way down from the corner of her mouth to her jaw, but she is too concentrated to lick it away. Beads of sweat slide down the length of her spine to her tailbone. She feels dewy and slick with exertion, but her body is too occupied with his to even care.
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