jncredible

It doesn't matter how they think about you. How you think about them is all that matters.

[lazydreamer03]

The Missing Piece

It was another sleepless night. Another night when I thought I could keep this fire inside. Just when I thought I could find it from something that usually kept me on fire, and somewhere else, I haven't.

Until I got tired— I laid in bed and I realized it's not something I should find. It was always there. The one I didn't choose. The one that is supposed to stay forever.

[lazydreamer03]

If it's not the last, then stay.

I understand. And if that's what it makes for us to be compatible, then we can just be friends. I wish I should've told you not to tell anyone, not even your BFF. Because she doesn't see the way I see you. Also not the way I see myself. Maybe I was just too revealing that made you feel that way. But if it’s meant for the honesty you need to see that you deserve someone like me, then I have no regrets. Yes you can leave, but you’ll lose me. You’ll lose person that chooses you to reach the highest transformation of a human could be. And yes, there are still things that I still haven't told you, not because I shouldn’t, but because it is for both of us to figure out the person that we will be spending the rest of our lives with. If you think that I am selfish just because I can’t set you free, then I think you still need to find out what it means to exist. We all have different beliefs, but if you ever believe that Eve is created from Adam’s ribs, then it’s enough to realize that we can only be whole by the interconnectedness of masculine and feminine energy. I believe every human consists with both, but the gender itself is a proof that we are incomplete. And for me, each of us should meet a certain level of energy that is exactly what we need to make life to the fullest. The energy that is compatible enough for us to have what we called a home to live. Not only in a physical form, but also in spirit. Maybe we are not made as a piece of a puzzle that is only meant for a specific human being. We have the freedom of choice, and we also have the right to live without anyone else. But if you would ask me how I wanted to live, I would always choose to be completed. Not to be alone. Not with someone else. But only with someone who’s carrying the feminine energy that I would always choose to be with. And I already told you who she is.

[lazydreamer03]

I know it's strange, and I know this is not where I wanted to live. Old memories keep running in my head. The scars you left, and even the corners of this space, keeps hitting me to death.

Here I am, thinking about the things we shared. I knew this was supposed to be forgotten, and I knew I should. Yes, you're dead. It has been a year since I made sure you were buried. I'm in the middle of the page that there's no longer part of you to read. I'm with the person I knew I have to get married. Not with you. Not with the person who left the deepest wound that someone could ever imagine.

If I were to choose whether I should go back to where we left, or if I have to move in the direction I am destined, I will always go straight. No more you. No more pain. The chapter is closed. I'm alive. Not dead. Not even living inside the thoughts that kept drowning me when you were still in my head.

[lazydreamer03]

I've reached a point where I'm starting to lose my connection to the things that once kept me whole. The sounds that used to bring me peace now seem like noise to my soul. How sad it is when I no longer see the colors in the life I used to paint before. It’s even sadder that I can only see light when my eyes are closed. I wonder if this is simply a part of growing or if it reflects the loneliness of walking this path alone.

[free-my-mindd]

What I tolerated before, I will never tolerate again and I’m standing on that.

[lazydreamer03]

The world is asleep, but I'm wide awake. Battling with a herd of ghosts inside my head. Halloween is near, but it's not what keeps me freezing in this chair. How long have I thought of overcoming this fear? When you've forgotten the taste of the memories we shared. I thought I was brave. But why do I feel scared? I know it's been years, but this fear keeps haunting me every time you make me feel that your love is no longer served. Maybe I should just leave... or maybe, I just need your love again.

[lazydreamer03]

As every image has story to tell, a great artist must be a great storyteller.

[lazydreamer03]

If how we treat ourselves is how the universe will treat us, then I'll just keep loving myself to keep you loving me back.

[lazydreamer03]

The real fight is in our minds.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

How do I show Myself Self-Care?

1. Consciously teach yourself to relax, and practice relaxation as soon as you feel stressed.

2. Pay attention to what you eat and drink.

3. A warm shower or bath can help our muscles to relax, and can help ease the tension in our body and mind.

4. Talking with a person who accepts us as we are, is highly therapeutic, and enhances self-esteem.

5. Recognise that there are things that are outside our control – and there some situation that we simply cannot change.

6. Make an effort to establish a healthy work/ life balance. You need to make time for your hobbies, and to hang out with your friends.

7. Organise your time, and prioritise your tasks.

8. Recognise that you have limits and enforce your boundaries. If you live with too much pressure you will end up overwhelmed.

9. Keep a sense of humour, and laugh throughout the day.

10. Listen to the music that helps you to unwind.

[lazydreamer03]

The greatest evil on the planet is not evil, it's ignorance (that makes you suffer)

[lazydreamer03]

The greatest evil on the planet is not evil, it's ignorance (that makes you suffer)

[lazydreamer03]

[lazydreamer03]

Time will come, you're gonna remember that nobody knows how to start the motorcycle, turn on the lights, and flash the toilet other than you. The moment you realize it, the more you make an affirmation to yourself that you were amazingly wise. You just didn't trust your potential because of insecurities. You've always compared yourself to others, and you disregarded your value.

[lazydreamer03]

I hope the same day in the future, I'm also using my phone while lying in bed. And I hope, I can still remember the feeling when I think about you.

[lazydreamer03]

The moment you receive an honest compliment, means that you are doing it right.

[lazydreamer03]

I don’t need to force everyone to believe what I am today. How we think is not the same.